Hi all -
where to start? From the beginning I guess - I 've always been athletic and active and never had a weight problem - then I moved north - to new england and got married to a man that can eat his weight in food and not gain an ounce - life is so unfair!! Actually in the beginning I did fine- then winter hit - and I injured my knee running - thus slowing down my active life considerably. I got married and had two wonderful kids - the second I was on bedrest with and I gained weight. For 8 years after Dan's birth I struggled to get it off - and failed every time. I tried WW, I tried Atkins, South Beach etc....never was able to stick to anything. And I slowly kept gaining - got up to 180lbs - then at the age of 39, God blessed us with another baby - a suprise. After, I gained another 20lbs and just cannot seem to get it off.
I'm frustrated, depressed with my appearance and it's affecting my life - I dread social things - although I end up there because hubby is a VERY social creature - but I dread it - I feel tired and icky.
I live in orbit - maybe that is why I fail at all things I have tried - I am busier than busy - my 14 yr old daugher is a competitive figure skater - she's at the rink (which is 25 miles from home) approx 8 hours a week or more - my middle son is a drummer - and on the golf and basketball teams - that keeps us busy - and the little guy who is now almost 3, just has unending energy!! I am also a graphic designer and photographer and that keeps me hopping. From the time I get up to when I lay down I'm in motion - but I eat all wrong- grab at things and crave the wrong things. If the world were free from Cheese, nachos and salsa I'd be thin!! LOL
Hubby is getting frustrated with me - not because my weight bothers HIM but it bothers me - I've lost interest in a physical relationship as I HATE the way I look, and he knows that I hate how I feel. He works out and keeps in shape but he isn't running all over kingdom come with the kids so he has time!
I have done some work for a realtor in the area - she was quite heavy - and then didn't see her for a while- she called needng some work done - WOW oh WOW - she looked AMAZING. I asked what she had done and she told me Medifast - this was last year- she still looks great and I've thought aboutit - but thought nah - that's not a 'healthy' way...etc... you know the old school of thought.
Then I realized being this heavy is not healthy EITHER. So after much reading in here and the blessing of my hubby - I am going to give this a try.
I might add - I'm down in Fla right now as my father is dealing with cancer and the prognosis is dim. But as stressfull as that is - my dad is 91 and he's had such a great life - he made me realize that I WANT to live and feel good, I seem to always WAIT to live - thinking "I'll do this WHEN I lose weight...etc..." Time doesn't always wait you know?
So I ordered the stuff - and I assume it will be there when I get home to my brood - I miss them terribly. I plan to relax this weekend - (not binge or anything - just relax) and then on Monday start Medifast.
I have a lot of aprehension about failing and a lot of questions - I am not sure how this works - I oreded the booklet so hope that helps. I fear failing at this too - but I am going to think positve. I'll be coming back down to Florida in Feb to help my mom again and hope to feel a little lighter when I do.
I have to say though - I notice you are supposed to have celery or pickles at timea nd I hate hate hate both - can you do it without having those things??
Well, if you have read this far - thanks!! Wish me luck and I hope I can do this.
Take Care -
Maria