Donna, you are so sweet. Thank you for your words of encouragement. I think you are right about
also I think our mind says, this is where I lose it so I will probably lose it this time too.
I am afraid of two things with this Hawaii trip: one is that I will gain back ten pounds or more (not realistic for a five day trip where I don't intend to go completely out of control, I hope!) and the other is that I won't be able to get my head back on to the program when I come back. Because there is part of me that doesn't believe that I'm ever going to weigh much less than I weigh right now, and certainly doesn't believe that I will ever, ever be able to get below 200 pounds. After all, I haven't been there for thirty years, so why should I be there now???
Even my doctor, yesterday, told me that it wouldn't be a bad idea for me to go off the plan while I'm in Hawaii -- assuming I can get myself back on it when I get home. A bit of variety and satisfaction in having some new and different foods, and a bit of a calorie increase (without porking out!) he thinks would do me good, and certainly that feeling deprived and resentful if I forego something I really want to try won't be conducive to staying with it.
And I'm inherently cheap, so with $400+ worth of Medifast products sitting in the pantry, I'm pretty sure I WILL be going back on the plan when I get home -- I'm NOT going to waste that money! lol
The day I leave for Hawaii will be my 100th day on Medifast. I had hoped to be at 50 pounds by then, which would be just under 220. It seems like a good place for a week's break. But it now looks like I won't be there.
I'm blessed in one way: just like I never used to have hangovers if I imbibed too much alcohol (and man did the guys in law school hate me for that!
), I didn't have any problems at all with the three days at the beginning of Medifast. So I'm not dreading that part of it. And I look at the people on this board who went on vacation and went off plan while they did, and then jumped right back on it and achieved success: Rae, Mauva, and Mary are the first ones who come to mind. To all three of you ladies, thank you for being an excellent example of how to handle it!
This board is awesome, and I know you will help pull me back onto the train if I run into difficulty with it. Thank you for that!