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[doglover]

24K - How was it? I am a bit late today so am hoping all the good luck came your way!
Donna

[24KaratGold]

I like to start new jobs near the end of the week, and I'm sure glad I did with this one. By 3 or so I was exhausted, just from all the d***ed paperwork and all the usual orientation stuff that comes with a new job. I'm getting too old for this nonsense.

Took me about 30 minutes to get there, and about 50 to get home. Not as good coming home as I'd like, but not as bad as I'd feared.

I hope this was the right decision. There's other bad stuff going on in my life right now, so that's casting a pall over everything and made me just want to get through today as fast as I can.

At least I've managed to avoid eating off-program. And that with a Boston cream pie in the house.

[bk]

24k - so sweet, you calling me a cream pie!! HAHAHA I hope your troubles pass quickly and that you have a refreshing weekend!

Just think - next week you get to have the FUN part of a new job! What a great idea to start on a Friday

About your suit - I know you do wear a lot of suits, but you may be able to get some extra use by pairing the skirt with a dress shell for work (maybe a light cardigan too) and the jacket with a bright pink tee & jeans for the weekend.

bk

[want2Bthin]

24K-

I am sorry your having a hard time right now. I will be praying for you to find peace with your decision.

Good job on remaining compliant considering the extra stress.

Angelia

[dlr2424]

.............24K.......your in my thoughts............
Donna..dlr2424

[bikipatra]

24, I hope your troubles ease up...I wouldn't want a Boston Cream pie in the house. You are doing so well!

[DonicaB]

24K~ New jobs can be so stressful. I have been teaching at the same school for 9 years now. Sometimes I feel like maybe it is time to go back to school and either go into administration or get my Specialists Degree in Curriculum or something. Part of me though is afraid to leave the comfort zone of my classroom.

I admire you for being able to step out and take on new challenges. You are obviously a very determined and strong woman. You are going to be amazing at your new job.

DonicaB

[24KaratGold]

The job is getting better. Wish me luck today -- I'm going to try to score a better desk out of an empty office. I don't want that particular office, even though in location it is more desireable than mine, because it is "cursed;" in the last year there have been five new hires in and five new hires out of it. I'll take the desk, though, and perform some sort of an exorcism over it.

Parking is a pain at this new place, but I had one nice moment yesterday. I squeezed into a narrow space, and was able to get out the door even though there wasn't a lot of room. Pre-diet that would NOT have happened; I would have had to find another place to park.

I did have two lean and greens yesterday. My new boss and her husband wanted to take me out to lucn, and it was sort of a last minute thing, that I really couldn't decline gracefully (and in fact I wanted to go, to spend the time with them). I had the grilled chicken salad. Then there was no way I was letting the crab we had planned for dinner go to waste!

And today is Friday, and I see that there is a practice in this office of having "treats" in the kitchen on Friday mornings. Donuts, bagels and cream cheese. I LOVE bagels -- poppyseed is my favorite, closely followed by cinnamon raisin -- but I am SO close to being under 200 that for right now that is motivation enough. Truly those bagels do NOT taste as good as I'm betting being in ONEderland will feel!

My 16 year old has decided that I am evil incarnate and the cause of all the problems in his life and world. He has taken up residence at his best friend's home for the moment. If you pray, pray for him. And me....

[LilMsTexas]

Well 24K...........if it helps at all...........I thought my parents were the most ridiculous fools in the world when I was 16 too......I also went to live with my best friend after they kicked me out because I skipped school and had to go to detention But...I grew up to never use drugs...didn't get pregnant...graduated high school...and got my AA, BA, and MSHRM while remaining married to the same man and having two wonderful children! My parents are my closest friends with the exception of my husband and we all lived happily ever after!! It'll be fine.........just continue to love and continue to have boundaries........he'll get himself together at some point sweetie. ANd you are NOT the DEVIL hehe

Hugs,
Christi

[Dean0408]

I am wishing you luck.........today is the day it is really needed since it is FRIDAY the 13TH!!

Take the better office and break the curse. If as you suggested, the desk may be the object with the curse attached, then moving it to your office solves nothing. Take the better office.

Congratulations on being able to squeeze out of the car even when in a tight parking space........yet another benefit of becoming smaller! Also, good for you in passing up the Friday morning treats. Virtue means nothing unless it is tested. Not eating bagels when they are nowhere to be found is much less meaningful than not eating bagels when they are right in front of you and free for the taking.

Aw the trials and tribulations of being a 16 year old boy. We are always saddled with parents who don't understand us and don't realize that we are no longer children. We are also a lot smarter than our parents when we are 16. We wonder how our parents can even survive this world because of their lack of understanding of it. It wasn't until I got several years older than 16 before my ability to know everything there is to know began to fade. Soon I realized that the "older generation" was becoming as smart as me........well, almost. I am sure you are monitoring your son's activities in a stealthy manner, staying in secret contact with his friend's mother. You are probably waiting for him to "come to his senses"........and you hope it is soon. He is probably wishing the same thing with regard to you. So many things can cause this sort of rift between son and mother at 16. Usually it has to do with a car, a girl, something he wants you to buy him but you won't, something he wants to do but you said no or it even could be your dissatisfaction with the effort he is putting forth in school. The last option is probably not it. Parents who make grades an issue are usually not the type to allow an exit by their child from the happy home in order to escape the confrontaton.

Anyhow, this too shall pass..........it is not all that unusual. I myself bolted for a while at that age. This monumental life changing moment in my personal history has now eroded into a semi-humorous story told all too frequently by my mother at family gatherings.

So, again I wish you luck........and things will get better.

Try your best to have a great weekend 24K!

Dean

[want2Bthin]

24K-

I am not going to add anymore to what Christi and Dean have said. They covered everything beautifully.

Just wanted to give you a big hug and say I will pray for you and your son.

Angelia

[dlr2424]

Christi & Dean........awesome replys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......
24K.............my empathy and my prayers to you................
donna...dlr2424

[24KaratGold]

I scored the desk! Took a second look at the office and decided that even though it is three doors closer to my secretary and to the woman who hired me, I don't like it. The building pillar cuts the window in half, and so it's not as bright in there as it is in my office, and I don't get the view of the hills. So next week some of the guys will move switch the desks around for me.

I hope that all this is is teenageritis, but I'm not sure. We're doing some things to try to deal with it, and we'll pray they help. God bless the parents of his best friend, who care about him too, and are willing to act as surrogate parents right now for awhile.

I had a weird thing today. I got home late last night from a quilting date, not until after midnight, and didn't go to bed until about 1:30. I took a Vicodin for my upper back, neck, and shoulders, which were very tense and hurting. I think it's a residual from my car accident a couple of years ago. I don't take the V. often, and I think the last time I had one was pre-MF.

My prescription bottle says to take 1-2 as needed, and the pills are 500 mg. I am all out (it's the original bottle from post-accident), but there was another bottle in the house from my husband's accident about two years ago (separate). That bottle contains 325 mg. pills. I took one of those at 1:30.

I woke up at 4 because the little dog was barking at something, and after he quieted down I was still feeling in pain so I decided to take another one, figuring that since my 'script for 500 mg. allowed 1-2 every four hours as needed, taking another 325 mg 2.5 hours later wouldn't be a problem. Logical, right?

Wrong. I am still feeling drugged -- lightheaded, "thick," etc., and it's a little after 3 p.m. here.

I remember Nancy warning that alcohol on MF was a Bad Thing, not only for the calorie/carbs issue, but also because, since we are on such a low-calorie intake, the alcohol will knock us for a loop a lot faster. I'm wondering if this is the same effect from the Vicodin -- at least it didn't have calories!

Also, when I got that 'script I weighed at least 40 pounds more than I do right now, which I suppose accounts for the difference in pill sizes prescribed to my husband (he's around 180) and me.

I think I've learned something here... I'm not sure exactly what, but no doubt when my head clears I'll figure it out.

I ate my oatmeal when I got up, and had a bar a couple of hours later. Just now I had some of the beef-and-cabbage soup from earlier in the week, because I felt the need for something more substantial in my stomach. My godson is coming to see me in less than an hour, as a belated birthday/Mother's Day thing, and to be honest I would rather just go to bed right now. Hopefully this will help.

[24KaratGold]

I am feeling better physically after a good nap.

I meant to say -- thank you -- to Dean, and Christi, and Donna, and Angelia, for your kind words, encouragement, and prayers. It really means a lot.

[24KaratGold]

I very nearly went off plan today. I had one of those very rare "I need a drink!" moments. (Gee, after my previous post, I'm gonna sound like I have a problem, lol. Honest, I've had one glass of wine and one margarita since New Year's, and that was during my Hawaii break from MF!)

I just had an experience that, for half an hour, totally changed my life, and then had it changed back. I'm not even exaggerating.

I had occasion to speak with my godmother on the phone this afternoon. I wanted to ask her about genetic predispositions in my family to depression problems, and she's been a member of my family longer than I have (she married my mother's brother). My mom and all her sibs are dead, and my godmother is the only one left with the family info.

She mentioned about my mom's sister, who had some depressive-related problems, and I acknowledged that and said "I was really thinking more about my mom."

Her: "Well, your mom really had a reason to be the way she was."

Me: "Um?"

Her: Well, think about it, as a mom. It has to be the most awful thing in the world to be forced to give up a baby."

Me: Long silence. Then "HUH??"

Her: "You knew about that, didn't you?"

Oh. My. God.

And she chose that moment to tell me that her company was at the door and she had to go. I just about screamed into the phone that she couldn't leave me at that point, so she said to call her back in an hour.

I was in semi-shock at the thought that my sister and I might have another sibling we didn't know anything about. My mom was born in 1917, so this would have had to have been in the 30s -- she was married in 1942, and I was a "bonus" baby in the late 50s.

I can't even begin to tell you what my thoughts and feelings were. And I immediately vowed that I was going to find this person. The enormity of this information was hard to describe.

Hubby came home from work just after the phone call ended and took one look at me and said "what happened?" I really did say "I think I need a drink." God bless him, he shoved a bottle of flavored water at me.

This lasted half an hour. She called me back at about that point to tell me she had made a mistake, that it wasn't my mother she was referring to, it was another female relative I am very close to, which I did know about. She said she realized what she had said and wanted to call me back right away so that I "wouldn't worry" about it.

I grilled her for several minutes, because I was afraid that she was trying to cover up telling me something that she just assumed I knew. She assured me that this was not the case, and that she would tell me if it were true because Mom and Dad have both been dead 20 years, and there's nobody it would hurt. I admit I wasn't completely convinced. She finally swore on her husband (my uncle)'s grave and her mother's grave that she was telling me the truth. With that I believe her, because she wouldn't swear falsely on those graves, I am certain of that.

But oh. my. god. My nervous system still hasn't recovered from the adrenaline rush.

But I didn't have the glass of wine!