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[MusicalMomma Reloaded]

Well CRAP! I'm only in the 30# club! I WAS in the 50# club in MAY!!!! Yes, I am up a total of 12.5 pounds! That's right 12.5!!!! I am SO sick of all this SELF discovery only to BLOW it again and again and again!!!!!! Honestly, some times I just want to QUIT because it's so darn hard!!! Then I see so many others having wonderful success and passing me by and I get SO DARN MAD at myself!!!!

Oh, yeah, I'm all hyped up to "beging AGAIN" this morning, but when 2pm rolls around, and I am hungry, will I be raiding the fridge or making a taco bell run????

Man, when am I going to get it???? I am RUINING my health!!!!!!! Up to now, age 37, I have dodged every health bullet (except for high triglicerides and borderline cholesterol). No aches, no pains, no high blood pressure, no diabetes...etc...I can NOT dodge those bullets forever!!!! This is rediculous!!!!!

I feel terribly trapped!!! Trapped in fat. Trapped in food obsession. Trapped in the Redneck Nightmare called "Manitowoc County Wisconsin!!. Trapped by my status as a stay at home mom (now that I've been out of the workforce for 6 years, no one is going to want to hire me when the last one goes to school!).

OK, now that I vented all those NEGATIVE emotions...

Today's question: "I want the success that others have acheived on medifast...BUT, am I willing to do what it took them to get that success?"

Ya know, the truth is....EVERYONE has CRAP going on in their lives!! I am NOT the only one that suffers!! I have GOT to get a grip...start being THANKFUL for my many blessings and quit being a stinkin cry baby!!!!

No need for replies...I was just "journaling" my feelings...This thread it great!

[falisamarie]

You can do this! I have total and complete faith in you!

Lisa

[MusicalMomma Reloaded]

OK, yesterday was tough and NOT perfect, but A LOT better than I have been doing...

I must have been retaining A LOT of water, cuz I lost 4 pounds in one day! That proves to me how important drinking all my water really is!!

Still feeling kinda blue, but MUCH better than yesterday. Helping others is a REAL pick me up, so I took some kids from our youth group bowling last night and that really gave me lift. They are such funny kids and they made me laugh and laugh and laugh!

What brought me down was MIKE (Megan's ex) was flirting BIG TIME with one of Megan's friends AT MEGAN'S BIRTHDAY PARTY Saturday!!! What the heck???? She JUST started to get over it and yesterday (her actual birthday) everything was going wrong for poor Megan! At the end of the day she had this LONG email from MIKE about how his life was changing and that he wasn't going to deny liking this other girl...WELL, that sent sweet Megan over the edge and she cried herself to sleep...AFTER I crafted a well constructed email reply to her ex (with her approval of course). Hopefully he got the message to MOVE ON and leave her alone for a while!

So, that's my emotional state thus far...But HEY...I'm in the 40# club now baby!!!!

[MusicalMomma Reloaded]

Today was FULL of ups and downs!!!!!!

The ups: Jon and I decided we needed a romantic get away and he has a few days off at the end of July....SO....WE BOOKED A 3 NIGHT BAHAMA CRUISE!!!!!! ALL ALONE!!!!!!!!! Now I have A LOT of motivation to stay on plan!!!!

The downs: Well let's just say, my feelings were hurt pretty badly today by a so called friend

I'm exhausted...not getting NEARLY enough rest. Time to re-evaluate the summer schedule and re-prioritize!

[falisamarie]

Joyce,

Glad you and Jon are going to be able to get away. You are a strong woman and I admire your faith and determination!

Lisa

[FORMOMMY]

I agree with Lisa - you are an incredibly strong woman of faith and I know that the Lord will bless your faithfulness. That is awesome that you and your hubby can get some alone time....with a 5 and 7 year old, I know exactly how you feel about needing Mommy and Daddy time.

I pray your day is filled with joy, rest and peace.

[MusicalMomma Reloaded]

Thanks Michelle and Lisa...you two have more faith in me than I have in myself!

Journal Entry:

I wish I could get re-excited about medifast! But like my mantra says...I need more backbone and less wishbone.

I have to remember that it's OK to struggle. It's OK to feel hungry. The pay off will be so worth it. I won't be hungry forever...it will pass. I have to remind myself that I am NOT starving...I am getting proper nutrition.

The thing is...I can't think of anything in life that I enjoy more than eating! There, I said it!!! I admitted to myself that food is what I love most! That just isn't right! My priorities are all out of whack!

I want to change! I want to get my life in order...the right order. As a believer in Jesus Christ...I know that I am an overcomer. I don't have to live a defeated life. I can be victorious...but I have to submit to what is necessary in order to live that victorious life. I also know that I have to love myself now...not wait until I lose the weight to give myself permission to love myself! That's rediculous! I will still be ME when I am thin! If I don't like myself now, I won't like myself then!

Well, I guess that's enough Journaling for now...perhaps some more later

[sidrah]

It's annoying to keep hearing, "If it wasn't hard, it wouldn't be worth it" True, but annoying

I just keep in my brain (and someday it will make me do it) that i want to have a day where I can also say a year cheat free!! whoo hoo!- like all those other ones I see.

You are here and you are trying. SOme days will be better than others. In the end, we jsut hope for a good run of better days. You will have that, too. You are doing well. Even 30 pounds lost is better than another 30 gained.

Have a great day

[MusicalMomma Reloaded]

OK, so hubby and I had a LONG heart to heart this morning and we BOTH committed to staying on program ALL DAY today...100% compliance. I know that should be a "no brainer", but we have to get back to basics.

So far, so good...no problems at all. Thankfully the weather is beautiful today and we already took a ride on our scooters.

I'm trying to talk Jon into helping me dig a fire pit (it's a HUGE thing here in Wisconsin...fire pit = social gathering). He's not convinced yet....I told him it would keep us busy and give us some mild exercise!! LOL We shall see.

The cruise is 40 days away...I want to have lost the 12 pounds I am up plus another 18!!! Yeah, I know it's a Lofty goal, but with 100% compliance and mainly doing the full fast, I think it's achievable. Especially since the 12 pounds should come off relatively quickly (since the went on so quickly!! lol).

Well, that's my journal entry for today...such as it is...Not giving up...no way...no how!

[MusicalMomma Reloaded]

It's great to see so many people Journaling!

Journal from the weekend: Still struggling, but gaining ground each day. I think today will be even better yet. so far so good, but it's only 8:15am!! haha! The afternoon will prove to be my most difficult time.

Well, not much on my mind this morning...except maybe getting some more sleep HAHA!

[MusicalMomma]

Blowing the dust off this old journal!!

I re-read my past journals...I've had a birthday since then and am much closer to forty than I want to admit. I don't mind turning forty persay and yes I know it's more than 18 months away! I do mind being fat and forty.

Today is day one. Today I feel so unsure of myself. I want this to work, but based on history, I've never succeded to goal. Never! Some say not to worry about goal, just take it one day at a time. My mind just doesn't work like that and I get so impatient!

Well, I do have to congratulate myself on keeping my new year's resolutions thus far. 1. Speak less, pray more. 2. NO SODA!

Yay!

[bikipatra]

Just one shake at a time. You can do it!

[Lucy]

I am in Appleton, also known as hell...I am not from WI, rather a southerner, we will have to L & G sometime okay, because it takes one to know one where WI is concerned,,,right Lori....I figure she also being from WI is nodding her head!
BTW

Part of your blues is probably our lousy weather this week.

[katieb920]

Welcome Back. You can do it. The people in this forum are just so wonderful. They will help you through it. They are helping me through it. I get pumped every morning to read everyones post.

Good Luck

[MusicalMomma]

Thanks everyone! You're support means the world to me. Hopefully, I'll get past the weak state soon and offer you some support back

Lucy, I pm'd you...good to have someone so close by