I started Medifast about this time last year. I was amazed that I lost 30lbs in the first month. It was the 1st time I actually believed I could shed my fat suit. I still feel that way. I know that Medifast is going to be my vehicle for success...but I also know that the answer lies in ending this cycle of emotional eating. I lost 60 lbs last year and then gained and lost and gained and lost 30 lbs over and over again throughout the year. What a humiliating and sad experience. However I have learned more about myself..I can feel the triggers now.. usually stress..which lead me to the fridge.. I've always heard about the triggers.. but now I can actually feel and be aware when it's happening..so that's progress. Now I need to learn to stop myself when it's happening.
I have several reasons for making it to goal.. The most important reason is because I have a 4 almost 5 year old daughter who I am scared to death will carry on this nightmere into her own life... I have to prevent that by being a stronger woman, stopping this cycle, and becoming a better rolemodel for her. I will never forgive myself if I pass this on to her.
I will also be turning 30 in October. I am looking forward to my 30's..I know a lot of people mourn when they say goodbye to their 20's.. I am going to PARTY when I say goodbye..lol I feel like 30 is a new chapter in my life.. and I want to close the fat, miserable, addicted to food, hermit chapter of my life forever. Of course I need to start this new chapter healthy, strong, and in charge of my life. Soooo..it's time to get busy...get committed...and dig the true me out of all of this ugliness.
I started last year at 260. I started this year at 230. Today I am down to 223. My goal is 140....So here we go..
