Well, I went to the dreaded bookclub that I missed last month (because I had just started MF) They put a empty plate in front of me and a glass of wine. I just ignored it which is hard to do with 6 people. Fine that wasn't the nightmare part. They for some reason started to talk about eating disorders and how all these actresses are anorexic and are size 4 and never eat. They then say they each eat at least 2500 cals a day. All thes woman are not an ounce over 120 and that's the tall ones. They were saying that just because they are normal weight they feel outcast. I felt sick. These woman are skinny and that's not me being overly sensitive. They talked about how one felt she was fat then another would say no your tiny. I was sitting there ill!! Did they not see me!! I don't know what to do. These are the wives of the men my husband works with. I can't go back there!! I felt like they were pissed at me for missing the last bookclub and 1 other gathering that I missed because it was going to a food festival. Honestly they ate more at that bookclub than any other I have been to in the past. I think I am going crazy. I just want never see them again. I felt so ill tonight that I couldn't have eaten even if I wasn't mfing.
I am just so sad right now.