Sorry........I wanted to make one more mention here........about my goal. Several of you have noticed that I am 9.8lbs from goal. My
ULTIMATE goal is actually 19.8lbs away.........but I've given myself a MINI-goal of 145
BEFORE surgery. I am so afraid that I am going to give up on all that I have achieved by not sticking to my program before surgery. I
NEED for my own personal satisfaction to be as close to my goal as humanly possible before surgery. I never want to feel like I took the easy way out. I want to
KNOW that I worked hard and got healthy and got my diabetes under control and lost all the weight I could and then let the doctors just put some parts back in place
I have 4 weeks before my surgery and the last week I will have to begin a transition........so that leaves really 3 weeks of hard core MF and exercise. The demons inside my head are telling me "don't worry about it.......surgery will take care of that......you deserve a treat"
But my heart and mind know the truth. I never want people to say "Oh yeah, she had a weight problem all her life, but she just had a tummy tuck." That is what people at home in Texas will think that don't know I've been on MF. I feel like wearing a sign afterwards that says "NO REALLY...I did it the healthy way and did it on my own"
Anyway.......I
WILL stick to it!! I
WILL get the last 9.8lbs off before July 8th!! I WILL I WILL I WILL!!