My Best Friend passed away Sunday morning. I'd just gotten back from Detroit Saturday afternoon and had spoken to his family that day. They told me that it didn't look good, and I promised I'd go to see him on Sunday. He passed at 4:00AM Sunday morning, before I had a chance to say "Goodbye". I feel like crap.
The family asked me to sing at the funeral. I don't know if I can do it. I was going to ask them to find someone else, but before I could his son left a message on my phone thanking me for doing it, and he knew it would mean a lot to his dad to have me participate in the services. So, I'm going to do it. I still feel like crap, though.
Medifast has been the last thing on my mind recently. I've tried to stay compliant, but it's been hard and I've slipped up a few times, which doesn't help the whole make-up of these past few days. Plus, I'm on this stupid plateau. It's been a month and I'm still at the same weight, which is frustrating. I'd hoped to make it to Onederland by the end of the year, but that all seems so pointless and trivial and impossible right now. My head, let alone my heart are just not in it.
So, I think I may go on a brief "sabbatical" from the program and this board for awhile. Need to get my head back on straight, and unbreak my heart.
Hope to be back in January, maybe sooner. I'm going to work the program in order to maintain where I am right now. Until then, thank you all for your support. You are without a doubt the finest support group out there. I know I never would have made it this far without you.
Carmel