Hello, Friends!
Well....I didn't die, but my computer did!!!!! Yes, indeed, it died never to rise again. Then, within hours of my (ancient) laptop's demise, our family PC bit the big one. Not a good day for computers at our house.
Fortunately, my husband is a techno-wizard...but it took several days to order/install what we needed to get things up and running again.
This is my first time on my "new" laptop (a refurbished one that is now as good as new
)......and boy, is there a LOT of catching up to do !!!!!!!!
First off, I am alive and well.
Secondly, the time away gave me somew time to think....and pray.....and I've made a few discoveries and decisions.
When I first came on board at MF, I weighed 230 pounds and was absolutely MISERABLE. Thanks to MF and this FABULOUS forum, I have lost 60 pounds and am recovering my health and happiness.
I am happy when I look in the mirror, and happy with my life.
I think I probably have another 10 to 15 pounds to lose....maybe even 20....and my plan WAS to get all the way down to a "goal weight" using MF.
But.....just as I believe God led me to MF and this wonderful forum, I now honestly believe that it is time for me to learn how to eat "real food" and take however long it takes to lose the rest of my weight....however much that is.
I know this all sounds extremely wierd to some of you, and that's OK. It would take pages and pages to tell the whole story....and even then there would be unanswered questions.
So let me just say this again: Medifast and this forum have been a blessing in my life 100% and without exception...... and I guess I'm just going to have to ask you to believe me that the time for me to move on is now, rather than ten or twenty pounds from now.
I am working one-on-one with a counselor and a 12 step program food sponsor from here....they are providing the support I need as I travel the rest of this road and learn how to eat and live as a normal-weight person.
There is so much inner work to do, so much on-going emotional, mental, and spiritual work. If it were just about the food, I would have been thin long before now.....but it's not just about food. It's about LIFE. It's the rest of the stuff...the emotional, spiritual, and mental stuff.... that takes time to sift through, and that is what I must focus on now. I am hoping and believing that with God's help, I'll keep this weight off for the rest of my life.....one day at a time.
I extend my heart-felt gratitude to each and every one of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I would NEVER have gotten this far without your love and support.
My parting words of wisdom are.....
You can do this if you REALLY want to!
Get the support you need from this magnificent forum.
Take your time....the weight WILL come off.
Try not to over-focus on the scale....it'll make you crazy.
Believe in yourself....you're WORTH it
LOVE and HUGS to all,
Lois