Hey Nancy,
It's funny you mention the shirt. If you notice that shirt has my officer shield on it and I had made some home contacts that morning and never changed out of it. Right before I started medifast (On March 7th) we all had ordered new shield shirts for work and I bought 5 shirts in 2X
I knew I was starting to lose weight but I hadn't worn anything smaller than that in soooooooo long that I couldn't gamble on my success
So everyone at work is saying the same thing. But.......I can't just buy those shirts at the store and I don't really care whether I look sexy for my offenders or not
I have alot of smaller pants but NO smaller shirts to be had. For the first time I am losing inches all over and I'll have to deal with alot of issues about wearing more form fitting clothes. I've been "concealing" for soooooooooo long.
Like all of you have noticed I do not retain very much weight, if any, in my legs and arms. Alot of you will feel envious of that, but dear friends let me tell you that because I retain every bit of weight in my stomach and on my back and hips I am very round. My stomach is hanging down so badly because of years of yo yo yo yo yo yo yo yo dieting and 2 c-sections. I conceal that fact with the larger shirts. Add my diabetes into that mix and I get many infections and have had many many procedures over the years to CUT AWAY infections that manifest under my c-section scars.
I have been wanting to share this with you and talk with you all about this since last Thursday when I found out I have been approved by my insurance to have a consult with a plastic surgeon. I have dreamed of this for so many years. All the pain and suffering. Not only over my appearance, but legitimate pain from being cut with scalples (sp?) in my doctor's office with no anesthesia, to have cysts opened and infection drained out under my BIG FAT FLABBING ROLL
The embarrassment of laying on the table and having to hold my stomach up so he could do this to me is undescribable. Right now I go to a Marine base and have a 6'5" male doctor who does this delicate procedure for me. He doesn't have the BEST bedside manner if you can imagine.
I don't know whether it will ultimately be approved, but next Monday, on the 23rd I have my consult. I will be able to proudly say I've lost 26lbs and I will not have anything done to me before I am at goal. With all the changes I see happening, and yes they are happening all over my body, this problem unfortunately isn't going to go away. BUT.......I can certainly be as healthy as I can be when it happens (IF it happens). I'm scared to be honest. But for once I have my diabetes under control, I have my eating under control, and health wise I am in an optimal place. Now I just have to wait and see if this will happen for me.
I'm sorry about going into all this detail. This may be more detailed than some will feel comfortable with. But I have wanted to talk about this for several days and just didn't bring myself to put it out there. But I want my friends to know what's happening. Hopefully all my friends who have posted about my picture will be coming back to see what others are saying and will read this. I guess it just all came out this morning because I'm feeling particularly emotional about it today.
I hope you all have a marvelous week. I am going to be preoccupied with myself, but sure have alot of work that needs to be done!!
Christi