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[lifelovinaries]

Well as you might know by now, i have made my way back. After going through many different phases of what this life has to throw at me, I ended up at 240.6, 3lbs more than my MF start a year and a half ago. My highest weight EVER was 267, that was about 10 years ago and once i saw that number on the scale, i knew 300 wasnt far away. I IMMEDIATELY dropped down to about 230, don't remember how long it took, it was a blur because i was SO devastated by the almost 300 number. I remember cutting out the "white foods" and exercising like a race horse. Yes, diet pills were involved at some point in that journey. I have teetered between 215 and 240 ever since, averaging 230. Gaining and losing the same 30 lbs over and over. Ahhh, the act of the yo yo dieter. Down 10, up 3, up 2, down 12, up 15, down 5... you know the routine . I had exlored many different programs and tried them all. Many of them work, but also require work. On so many plans, it became too difficult and time consuming to think about and prepare my meals for the next day to take to work so i ended up making horrible choices. In the past year and a half, i have started and restarted and restarted MF countless times. Sometimes, I would chime back in at the forum, other times, I knew I would fail so I didn't bother touching base with my MF friends. Well now, failure is not an option, restarting is...

I'm glad i decided to jump back in. I am one week into the program already. I am feeling good about facing my second week but as i said in another post, I am taking this hour by hour, not week by week or even day by day. I have to figure out the mindset that works for me. So far this is working. Good luck to me and good luck to the rest of U!!!

[lifelovinaries]

Ok. here we go. So i woke up yesterday morning and weighed myself in at 232.9. Therefore, i set a goal for today of 232.5. That would have ONLY been a .4 lb loss over night. Well I wake up this morning for my daily weigh in and to my surprise...VOILA! it was like watching a magician fail at his infamous magic trick. The scale said 234.8. Whoa, now THAT'S a gain for you! A whole 1.9 lbs. Dang nab it, that's almost 2 pounds, if my scale wasn't so hi-tech, it woulda been 2 lbs. I guess that's one of the downfalls of weighing every day, but i can't help it, i'm a SCALE WHORE!(SORRY UNCA, HOPE I'M ALLOWED TO SAY THAT! ) I have been compliant, the only thing i can attribute it to is the toilet monster. I have been drinking fiber all week ( i have that problem you know) but i left my fiber at work so my weekend has been fiberless and poopless . Sorry to be so graphic guys! Or it could have been that this weekend I added in bars, i stayed away from them all week but I think the lack of fiber increased my hunger pangs. Probably a combo of both. Either way, I have to be happy with my loss of 5.8 lbs for my first week and keep it moving. When life gives you lemons, normally you are supposed to make lemonade but I guess I will go make a vanilla shake with some diet cherry coke! FORGET THE LEMONS AND LEMONADE, I'm giving them back, they are not on my MF plan!

[Serendipity]

Hey there! Welcome back! I remember you. MF does work. Just give it time.

[lifelovinaries]

Hi jo, i was sooo glad to see that you had reached goal and were maintaining! Congratulations! I have a couple of questions for you...but i will pm u.

Thanks!

[Mike]

We started the same month originally. I'm still slowly plugging along, and soon you will be at goal with us all.

Welcome back.

[lifelovinaries]

Ok, we all know it's halloween time. Well tonight i am going to a haunted house/haunted hayride/haunted forest maze. That's the easy part because i don't want to eat the hay. The problem is that they have a bonfire where we can make our own smores!!! Since we have to take our own ingredients, in a perfect world, i would not bring graham crackers, hershey's bars and marshmallows. But since this is not a perfect world, and i can't allow the kids to suffer because of my decisions, I will be stopping at the store to grab the items. Right now, i have the complete willpower to not indulge but it's still a few hours away. I don't want to fill up on water cuz i don't wanna have to pee the whole time. Jeez...what's a girl to do? Maybe i can hunt down a chocolate RTD, and some davinci marshmallow and graham cracker syrups. Do you think they can ship them within a matter of hours? Probably not...just wishful thinking. I guess it's all in how i look at it. smores now = less scale movage later. And who wants that?

[dede4wd]

Look how far you've come already...you're over the hard part...you're BACK on program. Is some stupid smore worth that? No!!!!!!! You remember what they taste like, the 'lil ones will have fun and you will soak up on the atmostphere and family togetherness time. Grab a Diet Coke and enjoy the time! I KNOW you can do it! You Already Decided, you already committed, no choice now but to SUCCEED!!!

D

[lifelovinaries]

Thanks dede! Just to let everyone know, I completed everything without incident (or smores) I made one for my boyfriend, I had marshmallow stuck to my finger and started to eat it, then i remembered what i was doing. So I then proceeded to use my nephew's sweatshirt as a napkin instead! Hey...that's what washing machines are for. Either way, i feel even better now, knowing that IT IS POSSIBLE!

[lifelovinaries]

I had a terrible day today. MF wise, it was fine but work wise, is another story. To avoid rehashing the gory details, i will keep it simple. I just needed a place to jot down my feelings. My boss and I had a HUGE blow-up today. She is one of the most negative people I know. She definitely suffers from the BOSS syndrome. She brings her personal problems to the workplace and takes it out on everyone else. Due to lack of control in her own life, she feels that it is ok to come to what is supposed to be a professional environment and exercise her control. I feel that the only person that controls me is ME! Needless to say, we bump heads frequently because i am not the type to just sit down, shut up and not voice my opinion. Fortuately, i have a voice and i don't feel that she has the right to think she can talk to me any way SHE feels is appropriate. Long story short, near the end, she was crying, cursing and shaking her tea cup (which luckily had a lid). Tea was splattering ALL OVER THE PLACE, even all down the front of her blouse. Luckily, I was not close enuff to get wet. I maintained my composure the ENTIRE time and talked calmly but the only effect that had on her was to make her even more mad. She's the type that THRIVES on getting a rise outta people, making them upset. I refused to let her get to me. I am one who knows that some things are better left unsaid and i think before i speak (most times). I believe that one should always use your time and words wisely because NEITHER CAN BE RETRIEVED. I suppose this was one of the days she didn't take her meds or at least not the proper amounts. The statement of her being on meds is FACT not speculation nor meant as a joke. I commend her for knowing that she needs help but i believe that deeper therapy is in order. If i am wrong i have no problem admitting it and if i make a mistake, my first priority is to fix it. Neither was the case today. I simply have to realize that:
1. The root of her problems is personal for her, not for me.
2. Her negative energy cannot be absorbed by me.
3. Most importantly, misery loves company.

So much for professionalism, huh? I cannot change this woman, but i can change how i choose to deal with her. I thank God daily that my life, although not perfect, is not like hers.

Wow, it felt pretty good to put this somewhere. Makes it easier to let it go. Thru all the emotional BS i was able to remain compliant. This showed me that i can separate food from emotions. Hmmm, i guess something good did come out of all of the drama.

[Sojourner]

I cannot change this woman, but i can change how i choose to deal with her.

OMG, I wrote about this very thing just a little while ago...
way to NOT give up your power, girlie!

...and way to learn a lesson in the midst of all of this, to boot!
That's just sweet on sweet!


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[rodeomom]

Hey there,

Just wanted to say thanks for stopping by my journal and you well wishes. I am not having a good time right now, but I expect to get it all under control soon - - I HOPE.

Looks like you are doing well so far. Watch out for those pesky carrots. They sneak em in lots of salads. Just keep it one meal at a time.

[lifelovinaries]

Well lets see... how happy was i this morning when i weighed in at 230.7??? .1 away from that 10# club!!! I remained compliant and i hope to hit 10# tomorrow then i can beg Unca for my club placement. Unfortunately, i didn't drink nearly as much water today and i am not trying to get it in tonight because i don't want to keep going from bathroom to bed and vice versa. Either way, i know that this could mean a slight gain of h2o weight but i will be at 10 by roll call. Work for the past 2 days has been WONDERFUL, my boss called out sick on thurs. and today. Hehehe, she must have been stressed! Oh well...

rodeomom, here ya go... grab on to the end of this rope, i'm here to help pull you thru!! Yeah, i know it's a whip but it's the closest thing to a rope i could find.

[Mike]

and i hope to hit 10# tomorrow then i can beg Unca for my club placement.

.... or me

Great going and we all look forward to seeing you succeed.

[lifelovinaries]

Well i felt good laying there in the bed this morning. I felt "lighter", it could have been my mental state but, whatever! As I thought about getting up and weighing myself, i lay there on my back and said my stomach sure does feel flat today (you know for us foodies, that's usually the only time our stomach seems flatter, if we lie down flat on our backs ). Anywhoo, I said, WAIT! is that a hip bone i feel, then reality hit that it was actually the tv remote that i fell asleep with last nite. Oh well, i know that hip bone is in there SOMEWHERE! So i proceeded to get up, go through the morning routine and step on the scale. 229.2?!? wait a minute, i gotta reset this thing and do it again. Same reading 229.2! I was estatic! I only needed to lose .1 (which would have been 230.6) to get into the 10# club but i thought with my decreased water intake yesterday that i would barely make it, if at all. So today is a new day, i'm going to remain comliant for at least the next hour and keep chugging along. The only thing that scares me is that i know the weightloss will slow down. I have lost 11.4 lbs in 13 days. In a perfect world, i would be able to keep up this pace and be at goal in NO time. But, we all know this world is not perfect. I don't want the scale to come to a standstill because i am afraid i might become discouraged. ok, ok, ok, i can't worry about what MIGHT happen. I also dont want to think it into existence. So i will leave on a positive note... i have lost 11.4 lbs in 13 days and the weight is going to keep falling off!

[iammissruth]

Congrats on making it to the 10# club. I will hopefully be following suit very quickly. Ending the day on a good note has been the best motivator for me. B/c then I wake up with a positive outlook. (Like on Thursday, when I started, I woke up WANTING a shake.)
Keep up the good work.