by lifelovinaries » February 7th, 2008, 6:22 pm
DAY 109
You have GOT to be friggin kidding me! How do i resist the sticky bun last week that was sitting in my face, FREE OF CHARGE...Then i take a trip to Wawa on Tuesday and buy a cinnamon roll (HUGE, i might add)? ARE YOU SERIOUS???? Wasn't i just the one saying that i had come too far to turn back now? Uh, aren't i the one trying to discourage the off plan eating? Aren't i such a hypocrite right now? Jeez, I am disappointed in myself. I thought i had a control over the emotional eating but i can't even necessarily say that it was emotions that caused my slip up. It actually was a few days in the making and i allowed everything to take over and it hasn't been the same since. The past couple of weeks have been stressful for me but i have gotten thru them with no eating problems. I found that over the weekend, i was experiencing a lot of hunger. I was able to always get myself thru it but it was becoming hard. On monday, the sugar cravngs came outta no where. I now realize that i really hadn't been getting my water in. I normally was getting in a minimum of 1 gallon of water daily. When i finally thought about it, i had dropped to about 32 oz daily. Therefore "thirst" could be what my body was reading as "hunger". Well i was in wawa buying my son somethig and before i knew it, i had that cinnamon roll in the bag. I got into the car and began to eat it. Although i was disappointed in myself for this indulgence, it really was good, but not as good as that cinnamon bun from work would have been. Anyhoo, i had been wondering why my weight was steadily going up, i now see that i was holding on to water because of the LACK of water. How crazy am i? I know all of this stuff yet, i blantantly disregarded all that i have learned. I was already disgusted about my .4lb gain as of last sunday (and i had been compliant then). now this sunday is looking even worse. How does a million calorie cinnamon roll cause you to gain almost 2lbs? (actually 1.2lbs, but still) Yeah, yeah i know the answer but as of today, sitting at 201, which takes me outta the 40#club AND onederland! WHAT AM I? CRAZY? Apparently, Yes. It is now my personal goal to get back to ME. I WILL be back in the 40# club AND onederland by Sunday. THAT is not an option.
restart: 01/04/10