I don't know most of you ... I only see a few names I recognize here now. I've been back for a few weeks - checking out the posts, trying to get my head together again. Nancy - you are still as darling as ever. I've missed your quirky sense of humor but have thought of you often in the past months.
It's now time to become accountable again - stop hiding and get my butt in gear. I just finished checking when the last time I posted was -- April 28th, 2005. So 10 months ago -- in that 10 months, I gained everything I had lost my first time around; plus 10 for good measure. A definite lesson learned.
What happened? you ask. I don't really know. Why did I stop? Again - not really sure. For awhile I was walking a very very thin line between compliancy and cheating. And for several weeks I was able to maintain my loss. Then slowly, I stopped weighing and started eating more. Less MF more bad foodies. Within 3 months I was lost. I knew what was happening ... I let it happen.
I've been reading some of your posts -- you are all in a really good spot, you should be proud. But one thing I saw here is really something to point out -- at the bottom of Big Ron's signature lines he has "you only fail when you stop trying" ... Well folks, I'm here to tell you how true that is. I just stopped trying. So I am hoping I've learned a lesson from my return to my old ways.
I was a slow loser - but I LOST. I was in the 30 pound club ... WAS being the operative word there. Which reminds me, Unca - if you could take the pound club away from my profile, please. I'll be back there, real soon.
So anyway, I just wanted to come out of hiding, say hello.
I started MF for the second time yesterday. My signature line last read 176/143/135. Today it's 185/183/135. (Yeah, I lost 2 pounds in one day! But of course, that's water -- I'll take it anyway I can get it.) I'm back, I'm ready, and I'm going to succeed this time because I WILL NOT STOP TRYING.