The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[Lenainie]

I've wanted to start a thread here for a while but couldn't really think of what to say. I'm just about 2 months into MF and month 3 was just delivered today. So far it has been really easy, well the first week was bad. At some point someone is going to notice. Totally blows my mind, more than 10% of me is missing and no one other than my husband has noticed (my second chin is shrinking-yeah he'll never live that down). I haven't told anyone at work that I'm on a diet and don't really plan to since I've watched too many of them trading "diet" pills.
I have a lot of reasons for wanting to be at a healthy weight, right now I'm just enjoying some of the little things like fitting into my skinny season clothes. Right now I'm focused on the big picture, like getting to wear cute snowboarding clothes not just black because it's the only color in my size. Okay so that's not really the big picture, but I'm so very sick of summer. The real big picture is I am afraid of all the complications that being my weight can have, I'm sick of being the token fat person in the family and someday when I grow up (hey it could happen!) kids will be an option and I'd like to be able to keep up with them.
A few years ago I was extremely athletic, swimming 4 hours a day, weight training, soccer and skiing. Then I got hit by a go-kart and my knee well it wasn't meant to bend that way. That brought an end to a lot of activities but taught me to really dislike physical therapy. I guess that's when I started putting on weight. I used my injury as an excuse for a long time then decided to go to the dark side and start snowboarding.
Okay well there is a long disconnected ramble...so yeah Hi everyone welcome to my disjointed train of thought :P

[Prancer]

Welcome! I was kind of chuckling at your ticker, even your weight loss numbers are waiting for snow.

[Lenainie]

I'm not sure where I read it, but one universal equilizer is that you can't choose your parents. I haven't seen my dad in about 4 months (since my birthday) so I called him to invite him to lunch. I'm really looking forward to catching up with him even though we always have the same conversation about how work is the same, how my sister is still crazy and that no I still have not talked to mom.

I got on the scale this morning (I only weigh in on Saturdays) and huzzah I am down 4 more pounds. It seems I have two small losses then two big and as long as the number keeps going down I'm I happy camper.

Having not seen dad in so long I wonder if he'll even notice. I sure hope he does if not when he next sees me around his birthday (November) he may not recognize me

[Lenainie]

I went shopping on Sunday and for once it was fun. I have officially left the women's sizes. I know that sizes in clothes are arbitrary since each brand varies, but it still felt good having to put the XL back on the rack to get the large. There is a chance I might even learn to enjoy clothes shopping

[Elke]

I really enjoy shopping now, I sometime will just try on smaller pants "just to check" its fun now!

[Lenainie]

Another week down. This week I got a new toy, a new Kitchenaid stand mixer. I've wanted one for about 3 years and finally bought one. Got it home and out of the box and couldn’t wait to start baking.
I know it sounds strange since I’m not going to be eating anything I bake, but nothing smells better than fresh baked cinnamon rolls or fresh bread coming out of the oven. Sure enough as soon as I read the instructions pamphlet thingy I started on my first batch of rolls. My hubby was nice enough to proof bake and frost them this morning and sent me pictures. They came out wonderfully and smell amazing!! I have a feeling I’m about to become very popular with my co-workers and the hubby’s co-workers by handing out baked goods 
I can’t believe I’m only 17 lbs from Onederland. Had some one mentioned losing 17 lbs to me a couple months ago it would have seemed like an unreachable goal. Now it’s like hmm 17, yeah I think that’ll take about a month. Really puts into perspective just how much my attitude about food and getting healthy has changed over the last 10 weeks.

[Lenainie]

Another week down and time for me to reorder. It's been a week full of NSVs at work. Since my office has around 1200 people in it you can see someone one one day then not see them again for a month or two. It's been great seeing the double takes I'm starting to get
Sunday I had a fun filled day of wakeboarding and tubing. I wore a swimming suit in public and I was okay with it. Then I went to the weekly family dinner (due to work I only get to go about once a month) Normally it's a simple meal of burgers or chicken, but last night it was turkey with all the fixings. I just waited till I got home to make myself a nice boca burger and some mashed cauliflower. I did get one of the nicest compliments from my father-in-law about how I looked, which completely made watching everyone scarf down mashed potatos and stuffing worth it.
As an added bonus I'm officially down 40 lbs!!! It's been a good week.

[Lenainie]

Okay so I haven't had refined sugar in 87 days. The most dessert like food I’ve had is MF pudding; I’m a big fan of the chocolate. I finally found a way to mostly satisfy my cravings for sugary sweets and as strange as it sounds I’ve been baking. For the last couple weeks I’ve been cranking out fresh cinnamon rolls, loafs of bread, snickerdoodles, and sugar cookies. Haven’t tasted any of them but they sure smell good. The process of mixing everything from scratch and making the house smell well homey has kept me on the straight and narrow. Plus at some point I’ll be looking forward to tasting some of my creations. Luckily thanks to the many tasting volunteers (my hubby in particular) when I can have a taste I know it’ll be good.

Outside of the kitchen. I got a call from my mother who I haven’t talked to in years. For all the moms out there I’m sure it’s hard to imagine having your child grow up then cut off contact. So, since her voice mail message I’ve had time to reflect on all the reasons I don’t talk to her. I also made a list of pros and cons of opening up conversations with her. Even after 3 years the cons still out number the pros by nearly double. I can’t figure out if that’s because I’m just a bad person or if she just doesn’t realize how damaging she was to my sister and I. For the sake of not writing a novel here, have you ever seen a mother in a store telling her daughter that they cannot wear a style because fat kids shouldn’t dress that way? I don’t mean to their teenage daughter but to a 7 or 8 yr old. This was/is my mother. There are hundreds of other examples I could give like this relating to so many topics, but I’ll spare the masses. Big shock that I became an emotional eater right? Not only did stuffing my face make me feel better it sure made her mad.

In retrospect gaining weight to upset my parents was not the most brilliant plan I’ve ever come up with! When I got the call from her, my first thought was how would I deal with this before MF…the answer is simple double cheeseburger and fries. Yesterday I came home from work, and cleaned the house. Still not the healthiest way to deal with emotions, but better than cracking open the ice cream.

Okay venting done and it’s time to frost the sugar cookies!

[hulagirlfromhawaii]

Hi Lenainie!

I just read your last post and couldn't help think that I needed to reply.
I hate to say this but all of my food issues come directly from my mother. It's ironic that you haven't talked to your mother in so long. In some ways I wish that I could be in that same situation. My mother lives with me. As things turned out, she didn't want to live alone after my brother and his family moved out of her house, so by default (as the youngest daughter, I got the job) I don't need to tell you what that has done to me physically and emotionally, well, I did balloon to my all time high weight of 170#) Anyway, this is getting quite lengthy....

I just wanted to let you know that someone out here totally gets where you are coming from. It's a hard,hard thing to forgive and let go. I am still not quite healed from it all yet. But one thing I know for sure, I will not let my mother determine my weight, health or well being any longer..
I am not letting her come between me and my success with MF.

Hope all is well with you. We can do this .... Keep shakin' girl!

[Lenainie]

121 days without cheating, but boy is it getting harder. It is totally worth the sacrifice though and I am hoping to be at my half way point which just happens to be onederland in a few days. I am still struggling to wrap my mind around how much of a difference 54 lbs has made. I am even more excited for snowboarding season than I thought I would be (the snow we've been getting helps). Attempting to post this from my phone, if it looks goofy I'll fix it later

[Lenainie]

Today I hit the half way point on my weight loss journey. That normally is a reason to jump for joy, but as an added bonus it means I made it to Onederland Way way way excited. Now I'll put some pictures in the gallery as soon as I have the DH take a new one.

[PJinCali]

Congratulations Lenainie! This is fabulous, you must feel fantastic!



PJ

[JeepGirl]

Congrats Girlie that is super awesome! And Onderland as well WooooHooo Keep up the great work!!

[hulagirlfromhawaii]

Hooray for Onederland!!! Congatulations!

[Lenainie]

I've been so busy, I've barely popped into the forums in 3 weeks Happy to say that I still haven't cheated. Going out to dinner for my DH's birthday was a hard one the resturaunt we went to has they very best cornbread. After I've reached my goal we'll have to go back just so I can have a small piece. It's paid off though as I'm officially in the 60# club. The double takes have been rolling in all week and it feels wonderful.