Ok......it's 5:00 a.m. and I've been up for an hour already Can't sleep.....toss and turn......good grief I'm wired.
I have a laundry list of things to do today since yesterday was my last day at work. I'm glad I have alot to do today so I'll be busy.
Last night I did something I had been putting off. I went through my clothes and REALLY got rid of EVERYTHING that is "oversized". My sister-in-laws are both heavier than me now (first time EVER) and could benefit from my clothes. My mother-in-law is here as I've mentioned, and she pointed out that I should just get rid of all these clothes "unless I needed to keep them for when I gained all my weight back" Ok......I couldn't run down to the basement to sort these clothes fast enough!! But it was hard getting rid of some of them. My comfort zone was being invaded BIG TIME. As I looked at some of them and realized JUST how big on me they would be right now I was a little confused feeling. Do you know what I mean? When I'm "those" sizes I never seem "that" big to me I guess. But looking at all the clothes and the varying sizes made me really come to terms with the abuse I've put my body through over the years. But ladies and gentlemen let me tell you.......it's a pretty awesome feeling this morning looking at that big pile of clothes that are leaving my house forever
Do any of you remember my Rocky Mountain jean story? That I will have "made it" when I can wear my Rockies again? Well it happened. This morning I decided to try them on one more time before surgery and OH MY GOSH THEY FIT!!! I didn't have to lay down or use any tools to get in them lol and they fit sooooooooo nice. My waist is so little. But my belly monster is still round and buldging out and so gross looking. But for the first time in my life I know that it will be gone and never to return. I will be able to put these jeans back on and they will hang like they are supposed to and accentuate my WAIST and not my belly I cannot WAIT to share pictures of me in these jeans And yesterday I was in the Osh Gosh store and they are getting rid of their adult line. I think I've mentioned before that I bought a pair of pants there not to long ago in a SIZE 8 in hopes that I will be wearing them after surgery. Well yesterday I was in there again and I decided to try something on and see if I could guess what I might wear later and HOLY COW I could wear a size 10! Now again........the belly monster would keep me from actually wearing them out in public, but the waist was fine and everywhere but my stomach was loose and fit really nice. A size 10?? I don't have a single article of clothing smaller than a 14 in my house!! And getting back into the 14s was REALLY thrilling!!
I know I'm rambling........I just want to talk to all of you so badly this morning. I want to thank you all for continuing to mention me and think of me and pray for me. This morning my throat was all choked up and my chest was swelling with emotion as I sat here and read all the well wishes. I just want to take you all to the coffee shop and sit down and drink some coffee and chat the day away until tomorrow like I would with an old friend. I made the list last night of the phone calls my DH has to make and Nancy was at the very top of the list (right under my parents of course).
I guess this is all for now. I should go get in the shower while Broden is still sleeping. I'm going to Curves this morning to be measured one last time so I'll know exactly what this surgery meant to me physically. I'm also going to get my valium filled so I can get through the IV tomorrow And of course my PEDICURE! No surgery is complete without the PRE-SURGERY PEDICURE right? hehe Oh gosh I'm really nervous now. Is it really time? I guess it is. WOW! Ok.....I'm signing off.
You all take good care of each other for me. I will be thinking of all of you and even all you new kids on the block I'll be reading on here one last time tonight before I leave for the hotel. Oh my gosh.....it's tonight! Ok......I'm really getting off here now.
BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG CHRISTI HUGS to all of you!!
P.S. I'm still at 149 this morning