I'm moving my weight goal up 5 pounds and then I'll see if I'm happy or not at that weight when I get there. I am so paranoid at failing on this diet because in the past , even after getting past ketosis and losing weight, I have ended up cheating. Whenever I want to accomplish something I have always just gone out and done it. With losing weight it's not the same for me. I really have to take one day at a time. Of course I found some "pre-weight gain" photos of me and when my husband saw them he said, "Where did that beautiful girl go?" I told him that I still have the same facial features that I've always had. He said, "No you don't. You look completely different now." And he mentioned my double chin that I have now!
He said I really need to get rid of it. I guess I have to make sure I really stick to the program. I don't want to post any weight loss until I'm sure that I can stay on the program long term. Since I just started not too long ago, it hasn't been long enough yet to say that I am really in the M.F. mode. I still feel that it is very easy for me to grab a bagel or something when I'm tired or stressed.
I can't wait to get to the point where I don't crave off plan foods anymore. I've read posts where people are at that point and I can't ever picture myself there. At my new job , employees are able to eat for free in the cafeteria which actually makes very good homemade food. They do have a large salad bar too. I will pack a lunch box with some shakes and I can always make a grilled chicken salad at the salad bar if I have my L&G while at work. Thanks all for letting me vent.