by dede4wd » June 23rd, 2006, 8:57 pm
A dear friend sent this to me when I lost my beloved Nerdy (Dog) several years ago. I've kept it for years. Now it is for you...my sincere condolences on the loss of a member of your family.
I know what you're thinking. You think I'm dead. Because you cannot see
me with your human eye, cannot feel me, with your hands or hold me in your arms. You think I am gone forever. You recall how I looked when I left this place and you cannot remotely imagine that I could possibly be alive in another place.
You are racked and torn by the pain of our separation and it blinds you to that which is right in front of you ... me. How many times since I left your immediate sight have you been told that I'm dead and you shouuld "get over it"...
How many times have you cried yourself to sleep because you feel like an outcast, believing you're supposed to get over me because that's what people say is normal...but somehow you can't and no one seems to understand? How many times have you put yourself through
such excruciating pain because you aren't willing to consider that I am not, by any means, dead.
I want you to do me a favor and go back in time with me. Remember the glorious day I came into your home- was I not the most intriguing creature you'd ever met? Did I not make you laugh and giggle? Did I not look at you with such adoration that you wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of your life with me? I wanted this too.
Remember the days when I was in my prime and we did many things together. You were so proud of me! I was a good friend and I took care of you when you cried, were angry or felt down and unhappy.
When you didn't have a lot of time for me because of your obligations, I waited patiently for you. I was always there when you needed me.
Did I not look at you with such acceptance and patience
that at times you felt perhaps a bit unworthy? You were never unworthy in my eyes.
Remember when age crept up on me, my bones became stiff and my movements slower. Still I met you at the door when you came home
and followed you around the house. We'd been together for so long,
I was your very best friend regardless of what you were doing, saying, thinking. Did I not look at you with such kindness and understanding that you felt overwhelmed? I couldn't get enough of you.
Remember the last time we saw each other with earthly eyes? You tried to be brave but I knew you were crying ...I know you so well. Better than anyone else in the whole world. Did I not look at you with such pure trust and love that you yearned only to hold me close and keep me with you always? Did you not promise that you would love me forever?
I believed you. If this is so then why have you let me go by thinking I no longer exist?
Remember the depth in my eyes all those times I looked at you with adoration, acceptance, patience, trust and love. Who created this depth and love? Would the Creator diminish the song of our laughter
which was created in the name of love?
I am no longer an earthly figure, this is true. My body was only part of who I really am. My body would have been but a mere shell on earth
if it were not filled to overflowing with my soul, my spirit, my loving light.
When we met you thought I was cute, sweet, pretty and adorable. But what kind of relationship would we have had if this is all that I'd been?
How could you have loved me if I'd had no spiritual substance? We are all made up of energy which resides far deep down inside of us, it is our core, our soul, spirit and loving light. It is the energy that is all of life ...
it has no beginning, it has no end. It simply is and always will be
and without it there is no life. You can't see it with the naked eye
nor can you hold it in your hand, it is simply a certain knowing that this energy does exist. It's a knowing just as you know
that our love existed on earth - you couldn't see our love in a solid sense,
you couldn't gather it all up and confine it to one place.
But you *knew* it existed. There was no doubt in your mind.
They demand you get over me, insisting that I'm dead and you'll never see me again because animals don't go to Heaven. Oh really? I'm here to tell you different. You were worthy of my love and undying devotion
on earth as I was of yours. Do you really believe this love would be
snatched from us *forever* by a loving Creator simply because I wasn't human? Was I not a living, breathing creation with personality? How could I have been so if I didn't possess the energy of soul, spirit and loving light? And if this energy is and always will be, then how can it be that I am dead?
If my core is not of the energy that is all of life then I was never alive to begin with. But you know better. You cry because you miss me, this I understand. I miss you too - I miss the belly rubs, hugs and kisses that we shared. But life does go on beyond these wonderful, fulfilling physical connections. I came to this place to live a whole new life,
not because I didn't love you anymore or because I wanted something better. I came here because it was time for me to go
to the next phase of my existance, something all living creatures must do eventually. It is the normal progression of life. I was not taken away from you because you cannot take away that which was never owned.
My presence in your life was and is a gift to be cherished and honored
just as I cherish and honor you.
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dede4wd on June 23rd, 2006, 9:05 pm, edited 1 time in total.
Age: 37 Ht: 5'10"