The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[kendra_m]

Thanks y'all for the kind words & the support. I'm so glad to know all of you. Hugggggggggs.

[kendra_m]

Last night was the celebration to honor my husband's birthday, even tho his actual birthday is today. It all turned out really well. I had 12 people at my house (eek)... we went to Mass together, which was really nice. My nephew chose the front row of church to sit in, which was a bit too much for my boys and I... too much like the funeral. But we survived. After Mass, we went to the cemetary, none of them had seen the gravestone yet. It was good to be there together.
Had a great Lebanese dinner, everyone seemed to enjoy it. We had a candle lit at the table in the memory of my husband and when we had cake, everyone lit their smaller candle from his. The kids wanted to sing happy birthday, so we did.
The rest of the night was upbeat and fun, which is actually when I felt my husband's presence with us the most. He had a great sense of humor and loved to have fun, especially with the kids.

I didn't have a totally compliant day, but it wasn't as bad as it could of been. I had a beer before dinner, did fine for the actual meal, then had a piece of birthday cake. I wasn't out of control, wasn't binging at all, tho at a couple of points, had that inner feeling that I could have just started grazing in the kitchen. So I felt good that I kept that in check.

My goal for this coming week is to be totally compliant. And hopefully to reach the 25 lb. point. When I reach that, I'm going to reward myself with those prescription sunglasses that I talked about a few weeks ago. Am gonna work hard to make that happen this week!!

Robin, I didn't forget about your question about BFL I didn't count calories regularly, but I had a pretty typical daily menu and it was between 1100-1200 calories.
KMR, blessings to you today on the anniversary of your fathers death.
And thanks again to all of you that offered kind words of support. It really helped me this weekend! Big hugsssss to all of you

[kendra_m]

I love NSV's that come from my kids!!! This morning, Ben (my 10 yr old) asked if I was ready for him to take my picture again, cuz he could tell that I'd lost weight! I told him I'd take a pic at 30 lbs, that now I was at 23, and he said OMG Mom, I'm so proud of you!

[kmr]

From the mouth's of babes! That is so sweet! The best NSV's are from children because you know they always tell you like it really is! I'm glad to hear the celebration went well. I'm sure your husband was watching over everyone with a BIG smile on his face! Thank you for your blessings.

[Sojourner]

From the mouth's of babes! That is so sweet!

Totally!

Kendra, I'm so glad that the celebration in honor of your husband went well. You are a phenomenal woman and are providing such a great example for your children! They will be healthy and well-adjusted for the way that you've been there for them and for the modeling you've provided to them. One of my favorite quotes comes from Ralph Waldo Emerson, and I think it describes you wonderfully. He said: "What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us." You have clearly demonstrated that what lies within you can handle whatever life throws your way. As I said before, you are phenomenal, and I'm proud to know you.

[kendra_m]

kmr and sojourner....

You guys are making me cry! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your kind words.

I never imagined that my weight loss journey would connect me with such incredible people! That truly is one of the best non-scale blessings.

Kendra

[DogMa]

Kendra, I'm so glad the day went well, and I hope the actual birthday has gone well, too. I lost both my parents and I know those days can be really tough. I'm sure you'll get through it just fine, though, given how strong you obviously are. The sweet comment from your son just proves what a great mom they have!

And thanks for the calorie info, too.

[kendra_m]

Thanks Robin! That's very kind of you to say.

I was so glad yesterday to have just a regular day!! I went to work, came home, did football practice, came home. No major emotional hurdles, only 2 other people to cook for, life was good!!

I ate my L&G at lunchtime yesterday, which is strange... sometimes that works well for me and sometimes it doesn't. Last night I was really really hungry. So I actually thought about having another small L&G, took some time to think about what I wanted and realized I didn't really want anything, I just didn't want to be hungry. So I'm like, well a pudding will fit that bill. I was still hungry a bit later... remembered someone's idea of warming up an oatmeal raisin bar... and holy moly, that was really good! So I ended up with a 6:1 day yesterday, which was great. Especially great compared to the option of a little binge, which I typically would have had being tired and hungry and no pre-planned meal.

[kendra_m]

Sometimes my inner feelings are like a freakin roller coaster. I have yet to figure out why some days MF feels totally doable and other days it feels like a struggle. I keep saying to myself & others that it's part of the journey that we need to go through, the mental part of this work. But then I read posts of others who talk about it being so easy, about never feeling hungry or never feeling like they want other things. And then I wonder when that feeling is going to set in for me.

[kendra_m]

This has been a challenging week and I did not rise to the occasion. Not totally awful, but I was travelling and despite the planning that I did, I did not stay on plan while I was gone. I was lured into thinking I could handle L&Gs at really good restaurants, but then I got lured into the "i'm out of town so I deserve a beer and some good food" mentality. Not wise. As y'all know, that does not lead to good things and I found myself back on the carb roller coaster, which only leads to the beatingmyselfup roller coaster. Once you start that downward spiral, it's like being in a black hole and its SO flippin hard to get out of it. I spent yesterday mentally trying to get out of it and I think I'm there. Today I'm ready to be back on 100% compliance.
Sunday weigh in will not be pretty, but I'm just going to own up to it and move forward. I have got to do this... for me, for my kids. for my life. I just was reading lorianne's journal and I liked this statement that she made.... Food will not win. That's my mantra for today.

[kendra_m]

Am happy to report that food is not winning this battle! Woohoo... sometimes it just feels so good to have a couple of great days under your belt. Or loosening your belt, as the case may be. Speaking of which, I bought a pair of jeans last week that fit, but were a tiny bit snug. Today I put them on soooo easily, zipper zipped right up and they're very comfortable and look nice. Made me happy.

[kendra_m]

Am staying focused and on plan this week. I'm so hoping to reach 30 lbs by weigh in.
I bought myself new prescription sunglasses for a 25 lb reward. I love them! Have never had any in my life. My mom has been diagnosed with macular degeneration and sun strain is known now to accelerate that, so I also feel like I'm doing something really healthy for my vision.

[QT2Lose45]

Kendra,

I just spent the last half hour reading your entire journal... WOW... you are a true inspiration and motivator! I'm only 2 weeks into medifast, and i think about all the 'junk' food that i want that tastes so good, knowing i'm not hungry at all and seeing results. I thought there was something wrong with me!!! You have been through some definite tough times, but look how far you have come, and how much of an example you are setting for your kids!!! You are awesome! I myself have been through some rough times in the last 2 years, and realized i was letting everything else, food high on the list, control me and my emotions... I have found that i am doing a lot of self realization since starting MF... and to be able to read journals like yours just feed into the strength we all need to overcome old ways/habits that were completely unhealthy for us...

I just wanted to say thanks for sharing everything... it has helped me and wanted you to know that! I'll definitely be keeing up with your posts!! Keep up the AWESOME work!!

[DogMa]

Good for you for getting back on track! There are always going to be times that are more difficult, but you're in this for the long haul. The point isn't just to lose the weight, but to maintain it for life. So in the grand scheme of things, a few off days aren't going to mean much as long as you get back on program. Which you did, so there you go.

Instead, I see it as a good training for the future.

[kendra_m]

Robin,

Thanks for support and for pointing out the long haul thing. You're right and I'm going to add that into my brain to prevent beating myself up in the future. That beating up is almost more toxic than the actual food.

QT, thanks so much for the kind words. You said you had been thinkin there was something wrong with you.... no way, girl! Everyone here has their own struggles and goes through challenges in their own unique ways. I've also found strength in reading other people's journeys and hearing about how they've met their challenges, so it makes me so happy if I could give you a little bit of that same strength.

I just keep telling myself that this is a lifelong way of being that I'm working on changing here... it's not going to happen overnight.

My boys and I went to the health club tonight. We're going to start with 2 nights per week, all of us going. Now the trick is going to be how to figure out keeping them busy, getting a work out that they enjoy and actually getting some exercise myself! They're excited about it tho, so I'm sure we'll get it figured out... there are plenty of options there. Tonight we each did about 20 minutes of cardio and then some ab work. They liked challenging Mom to do crunches