The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[KellyC]

Day 31, diet going ok. Sometimes a struggle to get all meals in. No cheating though. Weight loss slowed this week, TOM ended on Sunday.. but I am still retaining water.. taking it easy on the bouillon to see if it's sodium intake or something else.

Busy.. thinking of all y'all though.. I'm trying to get caught up on journals now that I have an hour. Things here are crazy as always, instead of retyping it all here, I just paste part of my email from yesterday to my best friend.

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For me.. I had my doctors appt. for immigration yesterday, I think it went well, but it was very very long, I was there 3 hours. They did everything, general exam, chest xrays to check heart and lungs, blood tests, urine tests.. the doctor said it is possible the government may make me have more tests before they will approve me, because of my weight. Whatever, I'm not worried aobut it really, as long as I get the work permit, I can wait a while for permanent residency. Plus, I know that all the tests will come out ok. I am really surprisingly healthy given my weight. The doctor yesterday was surprised that my blood pressure is very normal.. lol.. For the heart problems, well, I don't know still. I go back to see the doctor at the clinic next week (though I may cancel because I still haven't found a place to get an echocardiogram except at the hospital and that's why he wanted to see me, was to go over the results), and I am supposed to see a Cardiologist on Feb 25, but I may cancel that one too, if I still cant find a place to get the echo. I am feeling so much better.. I really don't want to continue with the meds or go back to the doctor, I am really sick of doctors now, I have been 6 times in the last 3 weeks. The doctors said they may never know what caused it, in something like 33% of cases they never find a cause. Whatever, as long as it doesn't happen again, I really don't care. I think it was just my body telling me that I needed to slow the hell down and rethink some things. Evelyne has this book she's always reading whenever anyone is sick, it describes the sort of subconscious things that cause our physical ailments.. for the heart, it was pretty cliché really, saying that when the heart is arrhythmic, it is because you are uncertain in your life rhythm, pattern and direction. There was alot more, but that was the basics.

Jeremy and I are doing a little better I guess. I know it is just stress that is making us at each others throats lately, but jeez. It's like it's not stopping lately, every time we turn around, one or both of us is getting hit in the face with something! His boss is being such an ass, instead of being happy with Jer's sales record, he gets on his case about the most random stuff. I am working full time + another 10 or so hours a week.. the secretary quit so now je faire le soumissions et commandes pour Benny.. j n'aime pas! mais non, j le déteste!! ca c'est pas interesante.. et trop alésage.. ca c'est pas mon travail! Serge dit que nous ne cherche pas pour une secretaire nouveau jusque'a l'été! Cinq ou six mois de ceci merde! Not anything I can do about it, I am stuck here until I have a work permit.

Did I tell you I enrolled in the patisserie program at the EMSB.. I start next January in the evenings, if my perm. residence goes through in time. Pretty happy about that. Jess and Jean-Claude et Chantale are talking about opening a resto, in Dollard.. JC is exec. chef at that place downtown, but he's not really happy there, the owners apparently are really strict and aren't letting him be very creative. Anyways, Jess and the others want me to propose a dessert menu for them, so that's pretty exciting. If I can make a salary for them what I make here, that would be awesome.. I'm still making another couple hundred or so a month off of specialty cakes and those damn cookies (yes, I hate making them but this boutique orders them every week, I use the money so I can afford the ingredients for the cakes cuz some of the people pay late and whatever).. I'm so excited, the bakery might actually become a reality sooner rather than later!!

We are going to Quebec City for the weekend after Valentine's day. We will leave early early on Saturday morning, and come home sometime on Sunday. We're going to see the ice hotel, and the Carnaval.. and I want to see Montmorency Chutes all frozen over as well. If there is time I hope we will go to the Aquarium also. I am really looking forward to it. I think it will be alot of fun, and I am happy for a whole weekend away from the computers. I bought for Jeremy (and me too, lol) for Valentine's Day, the book of Kama Sutra.. hahaha! Most of those things are impossible to actually do, but I think we'll have fun looking at the book anyways.

Yesterday made the 30th day I am on my diet, no cheating (except a few times I didn't eat all of the meals I'm supposed to). I have lost 22lbs and 10 inches. No one except Monique has noticed.. Serge told me yesterday I was looking good, though I think it was in reference to me looking much less peaked than I have in the past 2 weeks with this heart thing. I am still wearing my old clothes, which are literally falling off of me.. I have to hold on to my jeans lest they fall down when I walk, I look ridiculous! But, I don't have any pants in the next size down, only 2 sizes down. I don't fit in them quite yet.. but another 2 weeks I should (I am trying to be able to fit in them in time to get you from the airport on the 22nd!). I am starting to be able to wear sweaters I bought in smaller sizes as motivation too. I still struggle with food.. I still want so badly sometimes to go downstairs to the dép and buy huge bags of Doritos and tear through them. Every time I start to feel like that though, I just try to force those thoughts out and think about what colors of summer dresses I will buy... I think about trying to get pregnant next year! There's only 2 things really keeping us from trying to have kids now.. my weight and my immigration.. and now that both of those things are being worked on in earnest.. wow.. Rosie.. I am so excited! Instead of getting all depressed about not having babies.. I am proud of my accomplishments so far.. and I really think this is it for me! THIS TIME, I am doing it! I am succeeding! This is actually happening.. I made it happen.. I am awesome!

[Mike]

Great going Kelly. I even got the gist of the french stuff thrown in there too... (had 1 year back in 1985 and it still hangs with me).

Keep up the great work.

[rodeomom]

Kelly - you are really on your way. Your last sentance says it all YOU ARE AWSOME!! You are making it happen! You are succeeding. Best of all you are doing it for YOU! Getting to that place where you become the most important person in your life is soooooo important on this journey.

I have a TON of clothes that will be perfect for you for the summer. Sounds like you just might be ready for them!

[KellyC]

I haven't lost this week or last and it is really pissing me off. The first time (and 2nd and 3rd..) I did MF I didn't make it this far, so maybe I'm just in that stall everyone talks about during week 4... except it came in week 5 for me. I will do measurements again on Monday, maybe those went down at least.

Not entirely sure what the problem is. I suspect maybe it is too low calories. Every time I eat an L&G that includes meat, I get sick. I thought it was a touch of the flu at first, because it happened every night for 4 nights, but then I didn't have meat for 3 nights until last night and it happened again. Weird how I seem to have this intolerance for meat now. Maybe that is what slowed the weight loss too?



I did have some nice things that happened recently though..
My mother in law said last night when she hugged me that there is less of me.. lol.. her words, not mine. Her english isn't fantastic, I guess she couldn't think of a better way to say that. Whatever, I'll take it!

Jeremy's buddy Rami is here to play with Jeremy.. he mentioned something about me looking thinner than last time he saw me as well (which was about 1 week into this start of MF)..

Beside that, I had TWO lovely surprises yesterday.. a super sweet card from Brenda (thanks again sweetie!).. and a parcel from France, with some fun stuff in it from my best friend.. sel de mer, which is super expensive here.. and some french teas.. and a few french candies for Jer. So that was nice, all that made me feel really good.

[rodeomom]

You are so welcome. Sometimes God just puts people in my mind and when He does, I usually respond by sending them a card or a note of encouragement. It was my way of saying that I care and that I think of you often. When I think of you I say a prayer that God will help you through the things that you are struggling with whatever they may be.

Have a very blessed week!

[ChynnaDoll]

Hey there Kelley! I can CLEARLY remember back when i started Medifast feeling pissed like you that i wasn't losing as FAST as i thought i should be, BUT i just hung in there like you're doing and the weight FINALLY started coming off and i started smiling:+)))..so keep the faith girl, and what WONDERFUL nsv's you've recieved recently Hey, thank you for coming over to visit me..really appreciate it!

Chynna

[Diana]

Hang in there, Kel. I'm on the multi-year plan, myself.

Just stopping by with a cyberhug!

[KellyC]

I don't get it..

I am following plan, but for over TWO WEEKS I have had no loss.. in fact, I have had almost a 2lb gain!!!!!

HOW can this be POSSIBLE??!! I have to lose almost TWO HUNDRED.. the lbs should be literally falling off at the beginning, but NOTHING IS HAPPENING.

My period is all out of whack.. I had it last weekend for like 3 days (usually I go for a good 5 days).. then again this past weekend for another 2 days... so I blamed the gain on bloat, but what the hell!! I am not really retaining anymore, so I should have seen a loss this morning!!!!!!!!!!

I swear, I am not cheating.. I am having a gallon or more of water a day.. I cut out the diet sodas except as a treat maybe once a week.. I don't have any other drinks except water.. I am watching my condiments, there are days I don't come close to the allowed amount of condiments..

I really don't understand what else I should be doing to make this work!!!!

[Lauren]

Okay, Kelly, deep breaths. Seriously, I know that sounds funny, but just sit back for a second and breathe.

First thing that comes to mind, from what I do know about you, is that you have an insane schedule, right? That makes me wonder if you get enough sleep. Are you coming close to getting 7 hours of sleep? Because that's a critical component of health and weight loss. I know you work multiple jobs and are always on the go, but you must make time for yourself.

Next, you said it's been essentially a stall for a few weeks, right? So, I just want to make sure you're not trying to take any shortcuts, and actually eating TOO LITTLE? Are you getting all your 5 MFs and your 1 L&G? Are you getting enough?

Also, I am not sure if you're exercising, but definitely make the time in your day to be active - as much walking and activity as possible, to improve your metabolism.

I also want to mention that sodium can wreak havoc on the scale - so definitely cut back on any foods - whether processed or adding to them - that are high in sodium. Try to stay clear of deli meats, ham, pre-packed frozen meals, canned veggies, etc. These are all really high in sodium. Stick to fresh stuff, for now, to see if that's where some of the problem may be.

Oh, and regarding the period thing - very very common to have it be all out of whack. I had ridiculous problems and issues with my period during the first few months, schedule changed, pms symptoms went into an uproar, etc, just expect it, and go with it. Nothing you can do! :-)

If you KNOW that you're doing everything right, getting all your water, eating the right amount of meals, not sneaking bites in or anything else, then just keep on keepin' on, and I promise it will come off!

Don't forget to breathe! :-)

Lauren

[DonicaB]

Kelly it's obvious your are very upset right now. Actually you're more than upset. <img src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_2_211.gif" alt="SmileyCentral.com" border="0"><img border="0" src="http://plugin.smileycentral.com/http%253A%252F%252Fimgfarm%252Ecom%252Fimages%252Fnocache%252Ftr%252Ffw%252Fsmiley%252Fsocial%252Egif%253Fi%253D4%252F4_2_211/image.gif"> I don't blame you one bit. I would be hacked too.

However, remember this journey of ours is going to be a roller coaster ride. <img src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/7/7_2_111.gif" alt="SmileyCentral.com" border="0"><img border="0" src="http://plugin.smileycentral.com/http%253A%252F%252Fimgfarm%252Ecom%252Fimages%252Fnocache%252Ftr%252Ffw%252Fsmiley%252Fsocial%252Egif%253Fi%253D7%252F7_2_111/image.gif"> There are going to be good weeks and there are going to be bad weeks. As much as we hate it, we have to take the good with the bad. Remember this is a life long journey and these past few weeks are only a small portion of that.

So.....if you feel like stomping your feet...go ahead.....you'll burn some calories.

It's OK to be mad, just remember what your ultimate goal is. You'll get there. <img src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_103.gif" alt="SmileyCentral.com" border="0"><img border="0" src="http://plugin.smileycentral.com/http%253A%252F%252Fimgfarm%252Ecom%252Fimages%252Fnocache%252Ftr%252Ffw%252Fsmiley%252Fsocial%252Egif%253Fi%253D11%252F11_1_103/image.gif">

Doni

[katieb920]

It will all work out Kelly. You are such a strong woman you can battle this. You know what Maybe on roll call you will drop a huge number.

Also. Better be careful (JO MIGHT SEE YOU ) Just kidding

Kelly you can do it. We know you can. Good luck.

katie

[katesmom]

Kelly,
I'm right there with you...The easy thing to do would be for us to give up, but you know what? Who else or where else are we going to get the support we need to do this and get through it...I was ready to throw in the towel (have a lot of stress too) and decided that I am NOT quitting ME !
I have 150 pounds to lose and I'm staying right here until I lose it !

So, Let's take this long journey together, no matter what, and come out on the other end able to help others, just like all of the wonderful people here are doing for us...We could one day be Mentors like them !

My TOM's been VERY erratic too...

Please take it easy and let's just keep leaning here where these friends know exactly WHAT we are going through !!

Here is a hug and a smile that your day is a better one...

[Serendipity]

I just had to come here because my nose has been itching, hehe.

Kelly, Did you know that I had lots of stalls while losing? I had many many.....the longest was 14 days. So all you need to do is just what Lauren said. Make sure you're on plan and the weight will come off. That's a promise.

This plan teaches us many things, not the least of which is patience.

[rodeomom]

Kelly -- I remember you saying that you don't always get all of your MF supplements in. THAT is so important. If you are not feeding your body the nutrients it needs it will hold on to what it has as a survival stratagy. I KNOW you are busy and I know you are really dealing with some difficult issues right now, but you HAVE to try to work on getting in EVERY meal.

Maybe you should talk to a doctor about your cycles. You have got to be sick of doctors by now, but I would be a little concerned.

Hang in there - it will all be OK

[Mike]

Hi Kelly,

Sorry you are so frustrated. Can you give us an example of your typical day. I know there are days when you do 6-0 and I'm thinking that given that you are taller than average for women (just a fact) that perhaps you are depriving yourself of calories that maybe your body needs to feel okay about letting go.

At times we actually prescribe some folks who are starting at a higher weight (like me) a 6-1 program because the body needs more calories to feel okay about losing the fat stores. Maybe thats the key? Lets try that.

Maybe try 6 medimeals, and L&G, and plenty of water for a few days. Make sure to not finish too early in the day and make sure you are getting your first one in within an hour of getting up.

I hope that this gets things kicked in. If not, we'll try something else.