by KellyC » June 28th, 2007, 4:51 pm
OK, laptop came last week.. but to be honest, I've been avoiding this place because, simply, I'm not on plan.
I keep saying tomorrow, tomorrow, and then nothing.
I"m eating healthy, mainly fruits, veggies and chicken, but I know.. I KNOW that I need to start back up with Medifast.
I don't know what the heck is going on, I just can't seem to make myself do it.
To be blunt, I don't have the strength to start on a weekend. There is too much free time... there's Shabbat dinner.. it's just too much to have to say no to all at once. Starting at the first of the week, makes much more sense.
I'm pathetic, I know. I know all of this, but it still doesn't seem to matter to me.
The reasons I want to lose are so far in the future, it seems like I am putting this on myself, but in the end, I'm still not going to be able to have what I really want for a few years.
I don't want to continue with this (the post I mean) because I can see it is the start of a downward spiral in which I just whine and moan and in general have a crappy attitude and think/say things about myself that are not constructive.
SO.
I'm going to do my damnedest to start this tomorrow morning. I'm going to have a healthy L&G tonight, and no desserts or fruits.. maybe a sugar free popsicle if I feel the need.
My SIL is making fish for Shabbat... salmon actually.. so I'll have leftover rotisserie chicken and a salad.. I might not go to Shabbat at all actually, a friend wants to go to the Montreal Jazz Festival.. if the weather is nice, it would be a fun evening out, I haven't seen her in like 2 months, it would be nice to have a girls night out.
TOMORROW
Shake for BF
Bar for 2nd
Soup for 3rd
Half salad for snack if necessary
Shake for 4th
Soup for 5th
Half salad and leftover rotisserie for L&G
Lots of bottled water, few diet sodas, sugar free pops, pickles all in fridge.
I have a plan.
Surely If I have a plan, it will work, right?
Sigh.