by katesmom » February 10th, 2008, 3:43 pm
Restart NOW....
I decided that if I can't get going honestly (and can't stop wasting time) I will bow out of here for awhile...I love coming here and can't wait to see everyone's losses...Truth is, I want those losses to be mine again !
I am disappointed, ashamed, scared, and especially frustrated, when
I AM SUPPOSED TO BE IN CONTROL !!! I can't seem to get past the first 3 days...I end up sabotaging myself. WHY ? WHY? WHY?
Well, Pam (me) the party is over...Does anyone else talk to themselves in their own journal????? Anyway, I can close my eyes and recall how I felt 2 summers ago sliding into clothes in my closet that I haven't worn in YEARS !!
Truth is...My DH is out of work and almost out of $$$$. Has been applying to jobs but so far no luck...I am an emotional eater and need to find ways to deal with the stress ...W/O FOOD !!!!
Iam worried sick about him and our life...I feel like a broken record, but need to write so I can get past this phase....
I know I am worth it....I will start praying and take things one moment at a time...
Please take me out of the 30# club...I am starting over....
Thanks for listening...
356/331/150
Started 7/24/10
Can't wait to WIN this race !!