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DonicaB · by **DonicaB** » January 20th, 2007, 7:42 am

A disappoint?...........A downer?...................Karli~ I assure you, you are neither of these. You are HUMAN! Stress causes us to do crazy things and like DeDe said, it triggers old habits.

Karli~ I have only known you for a couple of weeks and only know "you" in terms of reading your posts. But, in reading the posts of the people here I begin to draw a mental picture in my mind of each and everyone. From reading your posts, I have drawn a picture of a beautiful and talented person. A person who is strong and determined. A person who can truly look into her inner most being and can so eloquently present her thoughts and feelings. I picture a person who has a close relationship with God.

Sometimes when we get down, or stressed, we try to go it alone. The good news is, Karli, you are not alone. You don't have to go through these emotions alone. I truly believe there are times we need to reach out to others for emotional and spiritual support. We can't always do it by ourselves. Reach out to God, reach out to your husband, and reach out to us.

Hang in there, Karli. You have come so far. Take it one day at a time, one hour at a time, or even one minute at a time if that is what it takes.

DonicaB

nickieluv · by **nickieluv** » January 21st, 2007, 11:15 am

Karli, I can't add anything except I am here and I am thinking of you. You brought tears to my eyes and I know you are in pain, and if you need me, I am here. I don't know if that's even something you want to hear, and I know there are others that you are closer to who will be there for you, too - I will be thinking of and praying for you.

Karli · by **Karli** » January 21st, 2007, 2:24 pm

Well, just posting in to say that I am very appreciative of your support, and thoughts and prayers. I have read each comment as well as the private messages I have been sent and I have really taken them to heart.

I will say that I am back on as I had planned, as of yesterday and today, and I am feeling very strong, strangely enough. My body just woke up yesterday and there was not questioning about what my day was going to be about. It is clear that although I may faulter due to my own stuff, that I am indeed building habits and survival plans which I really think I can live with

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Anyway, I think I will not be on the forum for awhile now. Aside from the fact that I have to really focus in and ON my life, I have let this place become an extra form of pressure for me (even if only in my own head), which I already have enough of in my life. Though I will say that I have always appreciated the support and that accountability is a good thing... I just need to have my plan be between me and God for now.

Anyway, if I am absent, please know that I appreciate your thoughts and that I am thinking of you and rooting for each of you !!

Cheers,
Karli

dede4wd · by **dede4wd** » January 21st, 2007, 2:37 pm

Karli,
Don't worry about us. You take care of YOU and pop in here if you need anything or just to vent if you'd like. You've got A LOT on your plate right now. I understand COMPLETELY!

Take care of yourself!

DeDe

bikipatra · by **bikipatra** » January 21st, 2007, 3:39 pm

Karli-You never have to apologize for taking care of yourself. I am thinking of you! :heart:

nickieluv · by **nickieluv** » January 21st, 2007, 5:30 pm

Ditto my dear. And I willl not say I'm sorry because I say that too much.

Do what you need to do and we will all still be here whenever we see you again.

bikipatra · by **bikipatra** » January 23rd, 2007, 5:38 am

I miss you. I know you are taking care of yourself, so that makes me feel better. But I still miss my Karli, Karl. :heart:

Karli · by **Karli** » January 29th, 2007, 8:35 pm

Biki, thanks for thinking of me, and thank you DeDe and Nickie, too. I have missed you and my other friends here. Well, I have been on some kind of adventure for a week or more (when did I last post in my journal ? Aa, who cares.). I realize that I need the accountability of coming here each day (if/when I can).

I have been doing okay, not great, as far as the program goes. I don't really know what my problem is other than me making things harder on myself than they need to be. I realize that. I just don't know why I do that, but I am going to try not to think too much about it because...

I only have about 8(ish) pounds to go, and I would really like to do this. We are talking what, a month ? What's my freaking problem ? I have had a little Alex on my shoulder lately, whipping my attitude into shape... hee hee.

So, I have been able to nip the purging in the bud now, which is *good.* But, now I need to be back on and *STAY* on until I am done. Right now it's been on for a couple and a half days, off for an evening. Yadda yadda. That gets old, let me tell you. And, I had a few wakeup calls, too. One evening I was eating badly and thinking I would just go excercise it all off the next morning. I imagined what I would feel doing that, too, and I realized how silly I was being. If I just stayed compliant for a few days, whatever weight I would have gained by eating off program would be gone. Which is easier ? If I stay on program, I will lose the weight and reach my goal. Where's the mystery ? I think that's the beauty as well as the mental danger for me with this program. I have never had results this fast with anything besides starvation type methods.

Anyway, tomorrow is a new day, and I will be back here for awhile. I have realized that whatever deprivation I may feel by killing my bad eating habits, I myself will actually live through it and be all the better for it. Sometimes I wonder what my motivation is for wanting to lose 8ish more pounds... well, because I want to. I think that's around my fittest self weight, and I want to get there, darnit !!

So, I think I need to set some kind of athletic goal for myself because fitting into clothes and having a flatter stomach is just not what it used to be for me. I want to be athletic, that's the crux of it for me.

I know some mountains I would like to climb, and my ultimate goal will not be reachable by this summer because I need to have more training time, but I think I will make some goals that will help me get there. And, btw, Nickie, I have not forgotten about posting some organization suggestions... I have just been thinking... hee hee.

But, okay. Cheers to tomorrow

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Karli

Karli · by **Karli** » January 30th, 2007, 7:48 am

Not weighing in for awhile, not because I am scared to know, but because I have realized the desire to focus on this as a game of habit-changing and not of pounds so much.

So, MF plan for the day :

7 -- Shake
10 - MF eggs
1 -- Soup or L/G
4 -- bar or rtd
6 -- rtd of bar
9 -- choco pudding

Taangrl21 · by **Taangrl21** » January 30th, 2007, 8:52 am

Hey Karli-

Welcome back to the boards... :mrgreen:

bikipatra · by **bikipatra** » January 30th, 2007, 9:30 am

Taangrl21 wrote:Hey Karli-

Welcome back to the boards...

It's because she missed me so much....

jlaman79 · by **jlaman79** » January 30th, 2007, 9:50 am

Karli wrote: I am just trying to hang on (and doing so by my fingernails) and straighten out a line that is trying to shape itself like a spiral.

Karli,
I don't know how many times in my life I have felt exactly like this. Too many to count. You are full of wisdom and goodness and I believe that you will win over this. Perfect people are not inspirational people. Only those who have fallen and struggled and not given up can inspire someone else to do the same. Hugs.

DonicaB · by **DonicaB** » January 30th, 2007, 10:55 am

Karli wrote:Anyway, tomorrow is a new day, and I will be back here for awhile. I have realized that whatever deprivation I may feel by killing my bad eating habits, I myself will actually live through it and be all the better for it.

Karli~ this really stuck out to me when I read your post. You will live through it and will be better for it. You are an overcomer.

You have a beautiful spirit about you. I'm so glad you are back.

DonicaB

Sojourner · by **Sojourner** » January 30th, 2007, 6:35 pm

jlaman79 wrote:Perfect people are not inspirational people. Only those who have fallen and struggled and not given up can inspire someone else to do the same.

Oooh, Karli....you have really smart friends!!
Welcome back, chica!

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Karli · by **Karli** » January 31st, 2007, 8:56 am

Thank you so much you ladies, for your supportive and kind thoughts and words. I appreciate it

.

This is going to be short and sweet :

No weighin, I am feeling like I woudl like to go for a couple of weeks where my main focus is the habits and not the pounds. I am pretty happy about that. Yesterday went great and here's lookin' to another great MF day :

8 -- Bar
10:30 -- Eggs or L/G
1 -- soup or shake
4 -- RTD
6 -- RTD
9 -- Hot choco

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