The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[Rick06PV]

As I just join thgis forum, it's hard for me to raed all 25 pages of your journal, but the numbers speak by themselves: 60 pounds lost! Wow, very good job.

I think that when we start a diet, the only question we have in our head is "is it going to work this time" When I read stories like your, it help me to say "yes, this time it will work"

Congrats!

Eric

[Karli]

Wow, thank you very much, eskwyre !! What kind words . And, thank you, Eric . Yes, this time it will stick, for both of us .


Okay. Now, to get down to the nitty gritty. I will admit, I am feeling really stressed out !! I have a LOT of music to learn still and I am really pushing myself with these gigs and I feel my professional life... changing (and that's pretty scary-seeming for me sometimes). These things that I am working on right now feel really big to me and it makes me avoid them. And, the more I avoid them, the worse the stress gets and the greater my anxiety and then the greater the pull to avoid them becomes. It's a vicious cycle . Sound familiar ?

And, I feel this kind of stress and anxiousness about it all because my first rehearsal starts this Thursday evening and I still have A LOT of work to do !! Anyway, I find myself being drawn to food in ways I shouldn't be and I don't feel in danger, I just feel a little aware.

So, I am giving myself a little pep talk here and now, and hopefully this will serve me in the future, too :

In this time of feeling the urge to eat, ironically, I am also realizing that I have to say goodbye to binging (so, yeah, it burns a little -- but, I believe there is such a thing as a good burn ). I have to come to terms with that, and I know it would never even come close to giving me the kind of security I am looking for about the challenges I am putting myself through. It won't give me anything good. I am sometimes getting this thought to take comfort in food, like an old worn out record in my head, that I literally have to scratch with the needle and write a new tape over.

I do not need that kind of eating because I am strong enough and brave enough without it. I know where my real strength comes from, and it doesn't come from binging or even nibbling when I don't need it. A flavor cannot bring me comfort, it has no power. A texture is not a true friend because it has no real life. They also won't learn my music for me, they won't perform for me, they won't clean my room for me, they won't and cannot live my life for me... All of the life I want is within me, not in binging and un-needed eating. All of the organization and strength and courage that I need is within me. My life and the life I am looking to live come only by me LIVING it -- *Not* from stuffing things down my throat.

Whatever stress I am facing, I have the power to move through it with courage, and to face whatever fears may come with that territory. That's who I am, and that strength is needed and vital to what I want to accomplish in my life -- therefore it is mine to have and use and own.

I will not always feel this same urgency in my life. My life's circumstances will change and some of it will ease even as of next week. However, doing something to throw me off would last in ways I would prefer it didn't. And, I KNOW this. Therefore, I have the right to decide on my behalf that I am confident enough to not be tempted at every little turn. I am just not fooled this time, nor do I need to be at any time after this.

I can have peace in this decision, and I do.

[Elizabeth]

Amen Karli!! What a great affirmation...I think I will use it myself. You have such a gift in putting your thoughts into words..thanks for sharing. I think alot of us can use this. By the way, WTG! I'm rootin for you.

[dede4wd]

Karli,

I'm just catching up. There's nothing I can say that wasn't said in the post above me!

DeDe

[bikipatra]

Great post Karli, Karl. It ain't over til the skinny lady sings!

[Taangrl21]

Well said Karli...
I like giving myself pep talks too...

[eskwyre]

How empowering! You are quite a spokesmodel!

[Karli]

Thanks for your support and for checking in, ladies .

Welp, I got in a little running with my doggy's walk yesterday, and that is enough for me while I am on plan, I believe. It felt *SO* good and I felt so much freer than I ever felt before I started the program and would sometimes do a little running while I was trying to lose weight. That's definitely a reward in and of itself .

But, I knew I was going to lose weight, too. I could just feel it the way my body was digesting and using the fuel. So, I am going to try to keep at least a walk/run up for the next several weeks and maybe not much more than that.

Anyway, I weighed 173 this morning, YEEE HAAAAW ! 160's, here I come . Plan for the day :

7 -- oatmeal
10 -- MF eggs or L/G
1 -- L/G or shake
4 -- bar
6 -- RTD
9 -- Hot choco


Salud !

Karli

[bikipatra]

Congrats on the overnight loss Karli, Karl. I had some magic sleep too and I dig it!

[Taangrl21]

Congrats on the 173!!! So when you get to goal is there something special you will treat yourself too? Clothes, activity, outing,etc?

[dede4wd]

160's here you come! Woo hoo!

DeDe

[Karli]

Thanks, Biki, Debra and DeDe !!

So when you get to goal is there something special you will treat yourself too? Clothes, activity, outing,etc?

I don't know yet I have been thinking about it since you asked me, though, and I have realized it needs to be something extremely thrilling without costing a lot of money. At first I was thinking about sky-diving or bungee jumping (probably too much money though). So, then I really started putting my thoughts together and came up with :

Streaking the town Appropriate, don't you think ? hee hee

I figure, if that goes well, I might take up a new profession and become an *international* streaker. I mean, why not ? Look at me ma', I'm movin' up in the world

[Taangrl21]

free of cost and gives ya quite a rush...why not???

Youre too funny Karli...

My later goals in life: I would love to go Sky Diving, Rock Climbing, Jet Skiing, Snow Skiing. Small Tatoo. Anything EXTREME.

I seriously have a little notebook since I was like 18 of things I wanted to do before I died.Those are in it.

But like I said in another post earlier, when I get down to your weight I think I will splurge on a new cut, color, and style for my hair.

But the streaking....definitly a doer!!!

[bikipatra]

Thanks, Biki, Debra and DeDe !!



Streaking the town Appropriate, don't you think ? hee hee

I figure, if that goes well, I might take up a new profession and become an *international* streaker. I mean, why not ? Look at me ma', I'm movin' up in the world

Why don't you start slowly and do nude opera on ice-like the Ice Capades!

[Karli]

My later goals in life: I would love to go Sky Diving, Rock Climbing, Jet Skiing, Snow Skiing. Small Tatoo. Anything EXTREME.

I seriously have a little notebook since I was like 18 of things I wanted to do before I died.Those are in it.

Sky Diving hasn't happened for me yet, as you may have guessed. I used to think that for sure I wanted to do it sometime, and maybe I am getting that back a little since I have noticed my attitude about life is changing in general as I have been losing the weight. It doesn't help that I developed a bit of a fear of flying, BUT, that is also something I plan to overcome. If I did ever get to having an international career for music (or even more of a National one ), I would definitely need to get over my fear of flying... well, let's say, I am not afraid of flying as much as I am afraid of crashing and small spaces... hee hee.

But, okay, the snow skiing and jet skiing I have done. AND, I have been considering a small tatoo for awhile now. You listing it there revived my thinking about it and maybe that will be included in my 'getting to goal' celebration .

I have also written down various things that I want to do in my lifetime. Some of them were pretty crazy, like taming a wild mountain lion... LOL. I think I will rewrite some of this stuff, and these days the more realistic gal tends to have a little more authority in my life .

But like I said in another post earlier, when I get down to your weight I think I will splurge on a new cut, color, and style for my hair.

Yeah, my hair cut had a lot to do with having lost what I did by the time I got it cut. That point was about my half way point overall. Plus, I had made some really big changes in my life other than just eating, as well. So, I was just ready for something completely different than I had ever had. We'll see what exciting things the future holds .




Biki, that's a splendid idea you have given me .


Cheers, Debra and Biki,
Karli