The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[QT2Lose45]

Karli!!! WOW... congrats on the 170's and on the 60 # loss! Don't give up now! You gotta keep me going, ha ha ha...

Just caught up in your journal... and those damned voices are the ones that got me off plan!! so it's good to know i'm not the only one battling them... difference is, YOU beat yours today!! Good for you!

Well i have more reading to catch up on... so i'll check back in on you later!

[Karli]

Thanks DeDe, Biki, and QT ! Yeah, I find I do need to be *very* watchful, but, I suppose that's a good thing really ... to be very aware of one's thoughts and actions. DeDe, I love your line of reasoning, once again, with the four year old. I need to remember that ! QT, we will do it together .

So, yesterday was fine. I didn't go off program and I wasn't really even feeling tempted to, it was just a strange day inwardly. Like I was rethinking things again... just going over it all again... but I already know the answers this time, so I wasn't arriving anywhere new for me.

It doesn't help that I had more comments from people and one in particular : "you aren't losing more weight are you ?" and this woman truly not wanting me to. I think next time I will say "you are just not used to seeing me like this" or something.

Anyway. I need to worry less about what other's are thinking. I know I am not doing anything wrong. I will not be seeing these people for a couple of weeks and I won't mind the privacy this will allow me.

Also, I went for a "jog" yesterday for about 1-2 minutes... hee hee... but the rest of the time was walking. I was actually quite surprised at how much easier it was for me to jog than it had been several months ago. That's kinda cool... something to keep in mind regarding some of the "why's" for what I'm doing.

I probably should have added a supp because I felt hungrier than normal yesterday and starving this morning. I've already had my first supp and still I feel a little more empty than usual... more water !! I also didn't get in as much water yesterday as I normally do, though it was still over 64 oz.

Weighed in this morning at 177-- down half a pound from yesterday's weigh in.

6 -- fruit and nut granola bar (personally, I like these)
9 -- iced capuccino shake
12:30 -- L&G
3:30 -- RTD
5:30 -- RTD
9 -- blueberry oatmeal

Loads of water .

[bikipatra]

Remember, most of the comments people make are truly more reflective of themselves than you. Cross culturally, but especially in America, fat or thin, we all have weight/food issues. You don't know what this woman's are...we are not mind readers.

[dede4wd]

I agree with Biki wholeheartedly.

It's good that you're re-thinking things...especially when you already know the answers!

Yay for the jog...listen to your body. If you need an extra shake, take it!

DeDe

[Karli]

Thanks, ladies !! You two are right, probably these comments do have to do with where the others are at. That thought crossed my mind.

I did fine on plan today. Though, I was strangely hungry most of the day. I wonder if I got knocked out of ketosis or something ? Or, maybe my walk from yesterday, with the added running (it was actually for about 1/3 of my total trip.. maybe a couple of miles altogether ?) was too much for no extra supp. I did lose half a pound overnight still, but who knows ?

Yesterday my voice teacher basically made me suck on a little spec of a lozenge that was sugar free, but I didn't get to check out the rest of the nutritional content. I didn't want to sound anarexic by asking what the nutritional information was, after she was the one who had just scolded me for losing more weight .

But, I am betting that wouldn't have done it. So, maybe I just needed an extra supp yesterday, or today, or something . I should have added one today, but I didn't for some reason. I just let myself feel hungry instead. argh... this is playing with my mind

Okay, I think I need some sleepies. Lots of things going on in my life at the moment, and that is probably the main thing that is talking at the moment. Oh, and DeDe, I actually remembered the four year old idea when I heard those silly voices again this evening. I remembered what you said about it not always working in Toys R' us, so why would it work in the grocery store, etc. That was very helpful for me in putting things in place, mentally.

Thanks,
Karli

[Karli]

WOW, LOL... I really get to feeling sorry for myself sometimes . I guess that will be good for me to read later on .


Now, today is a new day and I am vowing to have a better attitude today. I am realizing again that I really have to be willing to take responsibility for myself when it comes to dealing with these voices !! Sometimes I get a little lazy or passive about them... and we just can't afford that, now can we !!

Didn't sleep much last night, and this morning I was fluctuating between 177 and 177.5. I am okay with this. As I have said before, I am prepared for this and I am *much* happier on program than off !!!

So, I am just going to suck it all up a little and get this show on the road. Things have been pretty gnarly as far as busyness goes, in the last few days, and it sure is easy to use every excuse possible to feel sorry for oneself, isn't it ? I realize the need to just enjoy more what I am doing instead of trying to just get through it to the other side.

Alright --


7 -- choco mint bar (I feel guilty eating this first thing in the morning)
10 -- Tomato soup (I really like it, and, it's *so* easy !)
1 -- RTD

[bikipatra]

WOW, LOL... I really get to feeling sorry for myself sometimes .

7 -- choco mint bar (I feel guilty eating this first thing in the morning)

Don't feel so bad. I had a chocolate peanut butter bar right after chatting with you last night. Of all the supplements in all the world....I rationalized that I was hungry and had been up for almost an hour. Karli SAID I had to eat within an hour of getting up...

[Karli]

Karli SAID I had to eat within an hour of getting up...

ha ha... sure, but I didn't tell you what to eat, nor was I there to force feed you .

[bikipatra]

Karli SAID I had to eat within an hour of getting up...

ha ha... sure, but I didn't tell you what to eat, nor was I there to force feed you .

You were one of those VOICES in my head you are always talking about....

[Karli]

Karli SAID I had to eat within an hour of getting up...

ha ha... sure, but I didn't tell you what to eat, nor was I there to force feed you .

You were one of those VOICES in my head you are always talking about....

Well, only follow it if it sounds like the QuickStart guidelines . If it doesn't, then it's a lie, so don't fall into it's trap

[Diana]

Hiya, Karli. I haven't read everything, but I'm going to jump in here, 'k?

You mentioned hungry during the day and when you get up -- "food for thought" if you will

The RTDs, while unbelievably convenient, I don't think are that filling. And the bar and the oatmeal have more carbs in them which will provide you energy during the day, but can lead to you waking up hungry if it's the last thing you eat.

Given your hectic teaching schedule, would it work to have the oatmeal for breakfast, keep your L&G where it is, have your bar and one of the RTDs during the mid day/early evening and end the day with another RTD?

Personally, I hate being hungry and will avoid it all cost!!

Yes, don't listen to others -- perhaps tell them you're getting healthy instead of you're losing weight? I saw you pic in that black dress -- you look better than I've ever seen you!! As long as Walker approves, (how can he not!!!) no one else matters.

Thanks for your note in my journal

Hugs!!
Di

[dede4wd]

Hang in there Karli!

Don't overthink yourself, don't worry so much about the scale. You're doing GREAT!

Add an extra shake just to see if the hungries go away since you're working out...and I agree with everything Di says!

Tell us how it's going!

DeDe

[FertileMyrtle]

Hi Karli! I popped in to see how youre doing and happened to catch the post on the lady's comments. Parallel to what Biki said, there's this "spiritual law" in some book I read and its "Never take anything personally." Most attacks are so impersonal, and are only other people's issues manifesting and youre the timely target. A good answer could be something along the lines of "Yup, I'm gonna keep losing until I get to my ideal healthy weight!"
Being tall myself, we carry it well. I've already had a close friend tell me "Not to lose too much or you won't look right!" Puh-lease!!! Like you said, she's just never seen me "normal." I have. Aside from the fact that she's 100lbs soaking wet, and didnt feel too great when people didnt sympathize with the 30 lbs she wanted to lsoe (and did) after her last baby.
One thing I noticed in this recent generation is that teenagers are FAT!! If our young people are heavy, then doesnt that, in a sense, redefine what is "normal"? Is a 14/16 normal on a 13 year old? Hey, I'm all for recognizing that a 00 is not, and that beauty comes in all shapes, but when we are sacrificing our health and justifying it by "normals" new context, then somethings wrong.
Continue to make healthy choices, body mind and spirit! I know you will. Relish your success, and the fact that you have minimized your risk for heart attacks and blood clots and cancers and diabetes and....

[dede4wd]

Well put Amber!

Brain fart, I meant Andrea!

DeDe

[Karli]

Hi, Ladies ! Thanks very much for your thoughts and support. I am feeling pretty good right now and things are going well. Deciding to change my attitude yesterday was good. PLUS, one of my more major stressers is done with.... phwew .

Di, I will take into consideration what you have recommended. I bet you could be right. I was hungry again yesterday but have been compliant so we'll just see. DeDe, sometimes I do tend to overthink things, you are right, so feel free to tell it like it is anytime. I need reminders about that at times (otherwise I get myself trapped in my silly head).

Anyway, I forgot to eat a meal at a regular time yesterday evening, but it wasn't a big deal (and was in the middle of a big event) and then might have had a little too much "lean" to my L&G last night, but it's hard to tell because I was eating out and wanted to make sure I got enough.

I will be eating my L&G out for the next couple of days and so that always provides a bit of a challenge, but I suppose I can cope .

The scale hasn't moved but I am not unhappy about it. I *AM* happy to be in the medizone because it's such a better place than any other "zones" I have put myself in eating-wise. So, right now, my main goal has to do with staying in the zone and just enjoying the feeling.

Amber, I want to thank you for stopping by my journal . I appreciate everything you have said and I love your response to what people might say to me. Also, I appreciate the reminder to not take these things personally.... sometimes it can just seem so dressed up as something meant to be personal, but it's just not !

In other news, my wedding ring will barely stay on anymore and I have been thinking about wearing it on a necklace chain until I reach my goal weight and get it resized. That's ... good, I believe and I will take the nsv !

Anyway, thanks to each of you .
Karli


7 -- fruit and nut granola (too easy... but next time I will plan not to eat the bar here)
10 -- choco shake
1 -- choco shake