Yeah, I actually don't know that sticking to plan is as much about "strength" as it is about patience; or perhaps there is strength in patience or so. Great to see you back here, Sidrah ! And thanks for the cheers, Robin
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Well, the good and actually rather unbelievable news is that I stayed on program throughout my stay out of town. The bad news is that I underestimated how difficult that would be for me. I think I stayed on plan largely in part because it has become my habit and way of life, so even when I took my life out of its usual context, that element of my existence stayed the same. What was difficult though were all of the emotions it forced me to deal with. Going away from my hometown and being somewhere else by myself to study piano, with the emmense endeavor that has been throughout my life and all things related, there are many, many, many emotions surrounding it. And, what is so unbelievable about having stayed on program this time was in part because I usually "cope" with all of those emotions by stuffing myself into oblivion. That time away is always an absolutely amazing time for reflection upon my life, and two visits ago, the night before I left, I made a list of the things I was unhappy about with my life, and most of it centered around, stemmed from, or actually caused my being overweight. I guess I was happy to be leaving my teacher's town this time with a little perspective in having accomplished something towards fixing that part of my life between visits. I still have a ways to go.
So, I weighed myself yesterday morning and I was down a pound since last Thursday, which wasn't amazing feeling to me, but at least it was another step downward. But, then today it was up about a half pound -- first time that's happened since I have been back on plan this time and weighing myself consistently. Perhaps there is a real kind of airplane bloat, but I would have thought that would be gone by this morning, but it's also nearly TOM, as well. I'm going to try not to worry too much about it, but I suppose I'm feeling pretty antsy to be reaching the 180's again. I haven't been there since last October, but I can rest assured that as long as I stick to the plan, I will probably be seeing those numbers within the next week and a half.
Hope all are well
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