The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[Karli]

Day #4 commences. Haven't weighed in yet since I restarted (nor had I stepped on the scale too much before that), but if I don't step on the scale before next weekend, I would like to at least weigh in for roll call next Sunday.

Nickie, yeah, this was the first summer I really took some time off and I will hopefully never go another summer without it ! I planned slightly wrong since I had my first voice recital ever toward the end of my four weeks off, therefore I was thinking and fussing about it the entire time. Students come back starting today and I am kind of setting up some new standards with my studio, so it's all kind of in flux right now. I am hoping though that it all works itself out ! Cheers to you !

[BiggerInTexas]

Hi, Karli!

I hear ya about taking time off. I did great last summer but drifted off during the holidays. So here I am again, too!

Welcome back! Great job on staying the course this weekend!

[rodeomom]

Hey Karli. Thanks for stopping by my journal and for the boost of confidence. I know we can do this - let us do it together!!

[Lauren]

Morning, Karli! You seem to have disappeared again, so I wanted to "invite" you back! Ha. Stick around, kiddo, everyone loves hearing from you!

Hope you're well...

Lauren

[Karli]

Hi everyone, and thanks for the special invitation back, Lauren .

I just got a whim to check in and give a bit of an update on how things are going. I don't have any photos right now, but perhaps in a bit or so. I am doing quite well, actually !! I have not been on MF for a while now, but what I learned while on program has served me very well, and I still have an emergency stock pile in my pantry.

It's been a bit of a road, but at some point I realized that my constant on again off again fling with MF wasn't working in any way, shape or form, and that something a little deeper needed to be taken care of. In short, it has been a road of discovery, of course, but I think some important things are getting sorted out, and as those things are getting sorted out, I notice a growing ability to take hold of my eating habits and have them be in balance with my goals in life. The bottom line has been needing to really sort through the fact that I was not living a life that I needed to be living ... and that's not even THAT serious of a thing. I mean, I have basically been needing to play the piano more ... and of course there are all sorts of things tied into that ... yadda yadda.

But, I am flying to Utah now once a month to study with an amazing teacher there, and that started toward the end of September. Right after my first visit there, I suddenly felt that I could begin to really control my cravings and appetites, and that I could see through what they were suggesting to be (a replacement for a life that I wanted to be living).

I have been learning as I go, but I had gained some weight again as of last Spring because of feeling pretty upset about my life and such, and since September, I can definitely tell that I am on my way to where I left off with MF... and that is a wonderful feeling !

I do think about my time here on the forum, all of you wonderful people, and the lessons that I learned while on MF. It has been a very meaningful experience for me .

Lots of reading to catch up on around here !

[nickieluv]

Welcome back you elusive lady you!

I can't imagine flying somewhere for lessons. That's just because I hate planes and am scared to death of - well, death. At least death by falling. Yikes! They say it's not the fall that kills you but the landing - I beg to differ, I would have a heart attack before I reached the ground.

Well, that was pleasant, wasn't it?

Thank you so much for checking in - I think of you often and I think it's very insightful that cravings for you were trying to keep your mind off the fact that your life wasn't what it needed to be for you at that moment in time. I was thinking in church today about who my God is. And sometimes, with the amount of effort I put into worldly things like money, food, leisure time, it would seem that those are put in a higher place in my life than God is. And it seems that if my priorities were straight, I would not have the same struggles with eating and spending.

As always reading what you've been thinking makes me think, as well. Thank you for sharing, and I'm so glad that you are feeling well. Good luck with your lessons and your career - and don't forget to send me info on where to purchase tickets once you start touring in the Northeast.

Missed you!

[DogMa]

Thank you for checking in, Karli!! Too often folks disappear because they're not doing well and are ashamed or embarrassed, so it's great to hear that's not the case with you.

[Karli]

Well, I am back on program . I have been back on for a little over a week, and I have been doing pretty well with it, though I have not been weighing, and I am not really planning to either. I have not been *completely* rocking the program, but I would like to and would like to nip the pesky (and little) unrockingness in the bud, but I can tell I am losing weight. I need to be in a spaghetti strapped bridesmaid's dress in about a month, and that seems to have put the fire under my bottom very appropriately. That's all for now .

[nickieluv]

You know, I've never been a bridesmaid. Sounds like fun! You will be rocking, that's just who you are my lady. Child calling me, gotta run!

[Karli]

Hi Nickie,

Yeah, this is the second time I have been one. The first time was for my sister's wedding, who got married 3 weeks after me, and this time is for my brother's wedding. So, both times I have already been married, which means I haven't been worried about "three times a bridesmaid, never a bride" or however that goes. It is fun .

[Karli]

Okay, I have to write just a little bit more and say that it is AMAZING what the right motivation will change in terms of one's ability to stick to plan !!! Anytime I have been tempted to stray from plan, I get an image of me in this dress I will be wearing in a month, and then I find myself making the right choice. And, I will tell you, I have felt like going off every single day just about, but some other power has been keeping me on (maybe that "other power" is the MF bars that I LOVE and can eat 5 times a day ... hee hee) .

I have not been down around the weight that I was when I initially went off MF a couple of years ago since I went off, and have instead just been hanging around in a passable weight, which has been uncomfortable for me, but I have been able to intellectually talk myself into thinking that I probably look mostly fine to everybody else. That, only I know my chubbiest spots, etc. While in the meantime, I don't wear most of things I bought when I got down to my thinnest, and that makes me sad .

So, now that I have some better motivation, I hope I can carry that over past my brother's wedding if needed, and get back down to my "fightin' weight !"

I have to say, it is very strange how quiet it is around here ! I wish the best to all !!

[katesmom]

Hi Karli !
Yeah it's quiet lately for some reason.. I havebeen back on plan for about 4.5 weeks and have lost about 20 pounds...The bars are AWESOME !! I have just recently ordered more ! They really are great to have and throw in your purse for the day...No mixing, no mess !

Good luck with this, it works and just feel the burn !!

[mytime]

Hey you are doing GREAT! I have to agree with you. I have a closet full of stuff I cannot wait to wear again soon. The support makes all the difference in the world!!! So here's to rocking it together! Mytime

[nickieluv]

Motivation is key. Finding that carrot on a stick to dangle in front of you makes all the difference. I'm trying to make a list of goals that have nothing to do with numbers - like seeing my toes without bending in half, that kind of fun thing. Apparently I need someone to ask me to be a bridesmaid!

[Karli]

Nice to meet you Leigh, and thanks for stopping by my journal ladies !

Okay, for some reason I find I am facing bigger temptations during the day after I come here and post about how I am doing, especially if I post about doing well . I don't know why that is, but it seems to happen nearly everytime for the past couple of years !! Not cool, not cool at all ! So, I will keep this short and sweet ! Let's rock today ladies (and gentlemen ? are there any around ?) !!

Cheers.