Well, I did indeed make it through yesterday without even so much as a little nibble off plan -- and, I will say, it felt SO good to wake up this morning without that sinking feeling as I am "coming to" that I screwed things up, once again. I will admit, I was weighing out some options last night about it all, but I just kept coming back to the fact that I would HATE going off program, no matter what the food tasted like and no matter what kind of "owie" it seemed to be patching.
This morning I was down another half a pound to 170.5 *moves ticker* and I am betting that, should everything go decently while I am out of town, I will perhaps be in the 60's again by Monday morning (the next time I can get a true weight) or at least pretty soon. I am definitely feeling/getting slimmer again and that's nice

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There is no reason for today to be difficult on program. I will just be sitting in a car for 5 hours and I know where I will be eating tonight and have found a great L/G there before. Plus, the company I am traveling with has been very respectful of my eating needs in the past -- so, anything else is *completely* psychological for me.
Speaking of which ... I wonder how much my old bulimic habits carryover into this part of my eating life ? I was very secretive about that, and of course my binges were never in public and so on ... it just dawned on me that my feelings of needing to hide any kind of "altered" eating plan may come from the same idea ? I don't know. But, really, what in the world have I got to hide about ? Especially, why should ordering a L/G make me want to hide ? There really is no sane reason.
So, I feel some mental games wanting to sneak in, but I am not going to let them. This is the first month that I ordered two cases of RTD's because they are SO easy and often are my saving grace for compliance. I already had one this morning and plan to pack my suitcase with those puppies and a few bars (and maybe some suppies I have to mix, maybe not).
I won't be checking in on Sunday morning at Roll Call -- but I will be back and by gum, I would really like to come back having been compliant all weekend

. Tomorrow is just a meeting all day long, then the following day is driving again -- I know how to do that ! One foot in front of the other. That's it !
Cheers !
Karli