by Karli » August 22nd, 2008, 1:58 pm
Thanks, Robin, Nickie, DeDe and Mike ! Yes, I have definitely got to get my head in the game, you are very right, Robin, and I appreciate the comment.
I have been doing a bit of thinking for the past few weeks. Firstly, whatever my eating challenges have been, it's been a bit "deeper" in me than I had originally thought when I started this program a couple of years (!) back. I will say that carefully because I realize that does not have to be a wall, it's just good to be aware of. When I think back to who I was when I first began the program, it seems like I was a little girl somehow, like so much has transpired since then, which I guess is a good thing because I have definitely been growing and maturing a bit, and that is one thing this is actually all about for me.
When I first started MF, I was ready to make some big changes in my life all around, and I gave myself permission to take better care of myself and to put myself first before some of the silly other things I was involved in at the time. I think that helped me stay on track. Without delving too deeply into that here, I think it's just interesting to remember that, and I would like to give myself a similar kind of permission to take better care of myself right now.
This last year was my craziest year ever in terms of work. I did a program called Opera in the Schools, and that involved a little group of singers and instrumenatlists going around to a bunch of different schools and overall, we gave about 120 shows !! That is a lot !! On top of that, I was teaching the most students I had ever had, I had major solos in the choir I sing in, and I was involved in another Opera program where I had a pretty decent couple of roles. Some part of me liked being busy performing, but some part of me was completely in survival mode and couldn't keep up with my life. Also, all of the singing stuff ended more or less at the same time and I happened to have a number of students drop right about the time that all ended, and I think I felt some kind of major post-concert let down which lasted for like a month or something. And, here I am on the other side of that feeling big and fat again !
I think somewhere in there I just kind of lost myself. So, this year I am wanting to make some efforts to have things be less crazy, and I am wanting to get a better balance going in my life overall, which I think has a lot to do with people overdoing it with anything be it drinking, eating, watching too much TV, whatever.
Anyway, day #1 is going well, and I am getting myself mentally prepared for tomorrow at our friends. My hubby and I will be bringing some meat for the BBQ, as well as a nice salad, so I will have everything I need right there ! I just have to stay the course, and I know it's possible for me -- and that's kind of a realization. To know there is actually already a way to achieve the goal, I just have to follow the way ! Okay, I just had to get that stuff out.
Cheers to all !
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Way to go Karli!! Sounds like you are shakin to the right groove now! 
I love to see when folks set mini goals with little rewards to go with them. It is so important to find things that make us feel as good as food does. I am still searching for the replacement for the most comforting of the comfort foods, but this is a learning process after all.
--Diana
-- this is a get my bottom into gear post !! I can say that I have been growing internally through all of this, having some interesting realizations and all, but unfortunately I have been growing externally, too 
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