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Postby Taangrl21 » December 27th, 2006, 3:49 pm

Well first off I want to congratulate you on the 50# club!!! This is my first post here so I know I am a little late on that one...
From what I have read from others...its best to just get back on track, which is what youve done. Not many do,they just give up. So you are strong for that. Just keep on workin it...50# is ALOT...I cant wait to join you in that club....you are a motivation to me!!! :)
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Postby LadyT » December 27th, 2006, 7:59 pm

jlaman79 wrote:So it was a relief to go back to the office this morning and get back to normal. I've been drinking water like crazy, keeping my meals on schedule and making a potty run every few minutes.

I hope everyone else did better than me, but even with all the crap that i ate, it was a drop in the bucket to what I consumed in the same timespan last year. That is progress, getting back on plan today is progress. Not eating everything I was offered was progress.


I feel the same way! I nibbled on peanut m&m's and a piece of key lime cheesecake on Christmas day at my Mom's, so I'm right there with you! I couldn't wait to get back on track and have been drowning myself in water trying to flush myself out!
And like you, compared to what I ate last year this year was minor. That's definitely progress! Hang in there Girl - we'll get back into ketosis in no time! :mrgreen:
CONGRATS ON THE 50# CLUB TOO!!!! YAY!! :yes:
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Postby jlaman79 » December 28th, 2006, 7:40 am

Thanks for the nice posts guys. It's so weird to be committed to a plan like this. That's the peice that was always missing from every other diet I've been on. I was never concerned with learning to eat right, I never thought about what I'd do after I lost the weight, I just wanted to drop pant sizes quickly. This time is so different and it's just a strange feeling. Good, but definately strange. I weighed in this morning and I've dropped 2 of the holiday pounds. WooHoo!

I just boiled my oatmeal all over the microwave.......AARGH!

Why is it that when you're standing there watching the oatmeal cook it's just bubbles nicely, but the minute you look away KABLOOEY!!!!

Let me tell you that is a sticky mess to clean up!

I've been thinking alot about weekends. I do really well through the week but I've been struggling with the weekends for a while now. I don't eat bad stuff but I never get in 5 MF's and more often than not I have more than 1 L and G a day. This weekend I'm really going to try and focus on doing it right. I feel I've slowed my loss down significantly by not following through on the weekends.

Here are the reasons I think I'm messing up:
1. No set schedule or structure to my day

2. Cabinets full of temptations (tuna and scrambled eggs are my main meals on weekends)

3. Cooking 3 meals a day for the family and feeling deprived when I can't eat what I cook.

4. No internet connection at home to stay connected to my other MF'ers

5. That "hey it's the weekend" feeling.


So, here's my plan to address some of these problems.

1. Make a meal schedule and stick to it. Order more bars or RTD shakes for portability.

2. Order the MF scrambled eggs so that I can continue to eat breakfast with the family and then have them throughout the day if I want.

3. Order more of my old faves like cappacino, chili, and stew. I wouldn't feel as deprived at meal times if I had something that I really like to eat.

4. I can't do anything about the internet connection, we live out in the boonies. My mom did give me a daily devotional book about weight loss, maybe taking a minute to focus on that would help. Also, getting back into my exercising would help me stay focused.

5. I need help with this one. Weekends do count. They are not free days. I need to be responsible and accountable for what I do on the weekends. Maybe if I start weighing on the weekends that will help me stay on track. I'm even thinking of weighing everyday just to keep my mind on the goal.

Do the rest of you ever just get sort of complacent? I need that extra boost to get me really on fire again. Would it hurt to do the complete 6 MF's a day without the L and G just once or twice a week?

Sorry about the rambling. Great job everybody, thanks for being there!
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Postby Taangrl21 » December 28th, 2006, 8:13 am

WHOO HOO!!! CONGRATS ON THE 2 lbs!!!!

Your ideas are good. And I think the daily devotional weight loss book is also a good way to write dow any thoughts you may have.

I have heard from other posts that the 6 MF meals a day should only be under a doctors supervision...so I am not too sure on that.

I know exactly how you feel when it comes to weekends.Only mine is usually b/c I dont have much to do. I sit around and eat out of boredom. I have a friend drought right now. And when I am invited certain places I decline b/c I am unhappy with my appearance. This Saturday i am heading to my friends house to help her undecorate from the holidays. now. We'll probably watch a movie too. Sunday I am not too sure. No plans as of yet. Monday I am off. I havent vaccuumed or washed my car in months and probably should do that. Plus I got a new laptop for Christmas to figure out how to use and hook up and all that jazz.So thatll take time.

We just have to keep occupied...YOU CAN DO IT!!! :D
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Postby jlaman79 » December 29th, 2006, 7:56 am

Well yesterday was an excellent MF day. I actually had a hard time getting all of my L and G down because I was so full. I weighed in this morning and I'm back to 235 flat. That means all the Christmas booboo's are history and I can move on from here! WooHoo!

I took the tree down last night and packed up all my decorations. Many people wait til the first of January, but my house is so small, I need the room.

Anyway, I'll check back in later. I'm going to surf around and read everyone else's posts.
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Postby bikipatra » December 29th, 2006, 9:54 am

I want to take my tree down too but I am a lazy, fat (but improving!) housewife. Instead I went to get a pedicure this morning and then to buy some shampoo at my hair salon.
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Postby jlaman79 » January 2nd, 2007, 10:15 am

Happy New Year Everyone!

Wow, a whole new year to look forward to. Here's how my last few days have been:

1. The little guy (Riley 18 months old) has decided he's as acrobat. He climbs every surface in the house and does amazing yet terrifying leaps and flips from the highest points possible. Does this help my anxiety? No

2. The hubby gave up smoking so yesterday was TOUGH day for him, but he make it. Very Proud!

3. I went to the New Year's eve party armed with deviled eggs/ and plain boiled eggs for me and a tray of broccoli and cauliflower with ranch dip. I was soooooo good!!!

4. I nursed one small vodka drink for about 8 hours! LOL, I kept going into the kitchen and refilling my glass with Diet Sprite, no asked me any questions.

5. Me and the hubby had some really great discussions with my best friend. She really should open a business for marriage counseling. I had a break through that really moved me and broke down some barriers between my hubby and I.

Anyway so I weighed in this morning and I am down 1 more pound, so that's 234. Yeah! Hopefully I'll have a few more down soon.

I thought about all of you while I was away, and wondered how many brand new people would be joining since it's New Year's.
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Postby jlaman79 » January 2nd, 2007, 12:29 pm

I guess I'm journaling alot today. Somedays I suppose I need it some days more than others. Can you guys tell that my brain works in lists? Here's a hint, I worked as an inventory specialist for 5 years and I don't know if that caused me to think this way or if that's why I was so good at the job? Hmmmm chicken or the egg right?

Well, This may be TMI so be warned. I've been really frustrated with my bra's for a long time. No matter what size I try on, none of them seem to fit me right. I'm a chesty girl. So, I took my measurements and logged on to the JC Penney bra fit website. It said I'm supposed to be wearing a 36 band and a G cup!!!!! I can not believe that cup size is right. I do know that my DD's are too small and create the illusion of not just one set of girls but at least 2 or 3 sets. Not to mention the way I have to wiggle and arrange and then have under wire's poking me all over the place. I want a bra that fits!!!

Anyway, My grandma always had to special order her bras because she wore an F cup, even when she was lighter. So, it wouldn't be completely unheard of for our family. But still......

Hmmmm....it also explains why I have such saggage at only 27. Of course I have nursed two kids also.

Has anyone else used this bra fitter thing? Could someone who knows their measurements and also knows what size bra fits them, please try this thing out and see if it's accurate? I don't mind trying on a G cup to see what happens, but where in the world would I find one? I know the largest cup size I've ever seen in a store was a DDD. I don't want to order something only going by a size chart. My mom reminded me that when she used to make dresses by pattern they always turned out too big when she went by measurements alone.

Hubby said "G? What happened to E and F?" I notice he's been checking them out alot more since that conversation too!

I asked him what he thought about me getting "the girls" fixed after I maintain my goal for a year. He said he's for it if we can afford it. If my doc. says I need a reduction for medical reasons (back pain etc,) do you think my insurance might cover it?
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Postby bikipatra » January 2nd, 2007, 12:54 pm

You can find virtually any size at figleaves. Just add the dot com after the word because I can't post the link. I wear a 42 H myself. If you check my journal or my studio thread and see the pics of me in the green satin number, you can see-the twins are LARGE. Once you get up that high in cup size, fit varies just like when you are shopping for a more common cup size. Oh, and FYI, the bra fitter tells me I wear a 42F but that is too small for me because mine are WIDE. So it is trial and error. The best thing about figleaves is that they pay the shipping back and forth if you have to exchange. Oprah highly recommends them.
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Postby jlaman79 » January 2nd, 2007, 1:29 pm

Biki, I'm going to check that out today. I still have some Christmas money left, so I may go ahead and try it out.

You know I've been wondering alot about why I keep sabotaging myself in little ways. I wrote an epic about my problems on weekends. I just realized that I've been on MF for 7 months now. Another lady I know who started at the same time as me and we were about the same size has lost 103 pounds. So I realize how I have slowed my loss, and I started wondering why.

BAM! The conversation I just had with my hubby came back to my mind. I've been telling myself that when I am as small and sexy as "the hot women" are, that I won't be so jealous of them. I am literally so jealous that I will get furious over a tv commercial. My hubby isn't the ogling type. Even if he was, he knows my temper too well to try it in front of me. So when a commercial (for example) with a raunchy chick comes on and he just watches it, I can literally feel my blood pressure go up. I look at him just innocently watching a commercial waiting for the program to come back on and my mind is saying "look at him watching that chick. He thinks she's hot" and then instantly furious.

I always just chalked it up to being jealous, I honestly never realized that I was so insecure. Why would I care if he thought she was hot? I even thought she was hot and that's what made me so mad!

I know this is a complicated issue, but I feel like I've been dragging it out on purpose. Ya know, I can say hey I'm on this great diet plan and I've lost this much weight and everybody says, Oh great job, but they don't know how much I've slacked off.

I know now that I'm really afraid of what will happen when I get to a normal size. I always thought that would fix my self esteem issues, but what if I get there and still don't feel sexy and beautiful? UGGGGH! My anxiety is driving me crazy. I am so going to get medicated soon.
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Postby Karli » January 2nd, 2007, 1:44 pm

jlaman79 wrote:I know now that I'm really afraid of what will happen when I get to a normal size. I always thought that would fix my self esteem issues, but what if I get there and still don't feel sexy and beautiful? UGGGGH! My anxiety is driving me crazy. I am so going to get medicated soon.


Well, everybody has their issues :-P. It's so weird what we think and how that affects everything in our lives. But, that's what this is all about, and, you have time to really check in with yourself (like you are apparently doing) to figure some of this out as you go along. You know ?

But, we don't really know what it will be like once we get to where we are going. So, even though it's tempting to be a little scared about things *still* not being perfect once we hit goal (which they won't be), don't you think it would at least be interesting to get there and find out what exactly it would really be like ?

You are not alone :).


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Postby Nova » January 2nd, 2007, 1:51 pm

On the topic of bras, I buy most of mine from Frederick's of Hollywood. They go up to F, and even G in a couple of styles. I love them because they are made with quality materials and they last forever, and they make me feel sexy. I've even been to a specialty lingerie store where they tried to fit me, but couldn't. I'm a wierd size, I guess. I went to Frederick's and found 4 that I liked in one trip.
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Postby bikipatra » January 2nd, 2007, 3:44 pm

Nova wrote:On the topic of bras, I buy most of mine from Frederick's of Hollywood. They go up to F, and even G in a couple of styles. I love them because they are made with quality materials and they last forever, and they make me feel sexy. I've even been to a specialty lingerie store where they tried to fit me, but couldn't. I'm a wierd size, I guess. I went to Frederick's and found 4 that I liked in one trip.

And you can always pick up some crotchless things while you are there!
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Postby Mike » January 2nd, 2007, 11:23 pm

jlaman79 wrote:My hubby says "I truly think you're beautiful" and my best friend says "I really believe it too, so you know it's not just him"


In reading posts by other women recently, they have mentioned that their DH aren't so supportive, or they say degrading things.
I want you to send a thanks to your DH for giving you this remark (your friend too), because there seems to not be enough of us "men" out there who compliment our wives enough.

On another note, if you have read anything I have posted recently, you have seen that I have struggled much like you have with losing. Lets all get on the wagon and be a bunch of losers.

On the topic of commercials, I think you are on track. Sometimes guys are watching the TV and a commercial is on, and we are just watching the TV, not paying attention to the commercial. Other times, in some cases, we are paying attention. I think if you seeing your DH watching a show and a Victorias Secret commercial comes and he sits up and starts drooling, then perhaps there is an issue. If he just sits there and is kind of non-chalent about whats on, then I think you need not worry. Besides, he loves you.

Enough said I think. At least by me. Hope this helps.
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Postby bikipatra » January 3rd, 2007, 3:22 am

I do love my husband for watching those types of commercials and saying "Those women look sick-much too skinny!" He isn't always a jerk, just most of the time. When he isn't buying me jewelry...or shoes...or perfume...
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