by jlaman79 » December 27th, 2006, 1:02 pm
Back at work today and back into my usual routine. That is such a relief. I love being at home and spending time with my kids but it's tough. That's when the "hmmmm maybe I should eat something" weird feelings start to hit. Instead of looking at the clock and saying it's time for another MF, I constantly run an inventory of my pantry through my mind. It's not hunger, it's old habit, and the insecurity of going without my schedule. I have a 7 year old girl and a 18 month old boy, so it's hard to keep any schedule on home days.
Here's a re-cap of my holiday weekend:
Friday went well all day. We went out to eat that night with a friend. My (sort of ) L and G was a salad with shrimp and wings.
Saturday I had eggs for breakfast and didn't eat again until 1 o'clock. I ended up just eating tuna. Later at dinner I had eggs again.
Sunday was Christmas Eve and I was ready for it. I stayed on plan and had my L and G at the family dinner. I ate turkey breast and green beans.
Monday was Christmas morning and this is where I really messed up. My mom decided to do a breakfast get together with my brother and sister and families. I had country ham (so salty!) and she requested that I make home made biscuits. Not only did I make the biscuits I ate 2 of them! Hubby was making "the face" at me.
Then we had to go to his Grandparent's house for their "dinner".
*sigh* I ate two servings of cornbread dressing and turkey breast and more green beans. Hubby getting a little anxious and asking me "are you ok?"
We finally get home and the kids are exhausted and taking naps, my nerves and blood sugar are shot at this point and I'm getting a headache, belly ache and feeling mucho cranky.
The kids start opening all the goodies and I eat a Hostess choc. cup cake.
Hubby looks at me, and says, "I don't want to make you mad, but are you sure you want to eat like this today?"
I reassure him that I have kept a mental tally of all the horrible things I have eaten and that I will get back on track the next day with lots and lots of H2O. He is satisfied and doesn't say anything else.
Yesterday at home alone with the kids, I was doing fine, drinking my water and the sugar cravings hit. I knew what it was, and knew why it had appeared, and yet I caved. I helped the kids eat a twinkie, and as I was passing through the kitchen my hand reached out and snagged a mini Snickers bar. I ate that too.
I did not like the feeling I had yesterday of almost completely losing control. It was scary.
I drank almost no water the whole time. I drank lots of Diet Cola. Last night my hands were so swollen that my wedding ring made a deep indentation into my finger. Ouch.
So, this morning I decided to jump on the scale and face the music. No sense living in denial. Up 3 pounds. I'm hoping most of it is water bloat.
So it was a relief to go back to the office this morning and get back to normal. I've been drinking water like crazy, keeping my meals on schedule and making a potty run every few minutes.
I hope everyone else did better than me, but even with all the crap that i ate, it was a drop in the bucket to what I consumed in the same timespan last year. That is progress, getting back on plan today is progress. Not eating everything I was offered was progress.
Start 285 05/24/06
Current 224
Goal 145???