Ladies~~Y'all rock! Thanks for the encouragement as I have totally needed it today.
After I posted the above I went back and reread it an hour later and thought "OMG I sound awful..I sound like I am giving up totally."
Well I am not giving up. Sure I am having some issues..actually one issue who weighs @ 170 with a 32 inch waist and a cute goatee. But we had a long talk this afternoon so I am hoping that That talk helps me work through this.
Then the best part was afterwards I left for some much needed Shopping Therapy~~Yep I did not turn to food! I went scrapbook shopping which is an hour away os I had the music loud in the car while I drove ALONE with No kids(which is a Huge Deal) to the stores. I proceeded to spend 3 hours and $500 today. Yep you read that correctly and a word of advice...If you have any thoughts of starting to scrapbook..DONT!! Take it from me it is a Veryyy expensive hobby! However I Love it and it is not often that I get to shop alone and spend money with no thought to anything. I had been saving for a few months and had a long list, most of which I bought!
I then came home..got it all organized and had a shake while I worked on a new layout.
I am in a much better mood than I have been the past few days. Who knew that all it takes is a few hours and a credit card.
I am not sure that was the "Healthiest" way to handle it but it sure as shit made me feel better. Especially when I NEVER spend money on myself and every purchase was totally for ME!
Even though I had an offplan dinner I actually dont feel guilty about it as I normally do, I didnt go over board at all. I had a normal dinner at a little restaurant that did not include any Fast Food like I used to do in the past!
Thanks again for the happy thoughts ladies. And dont worry I would never think anyone here would "beat me up"over something