Jamie, I wish I could say I feel your pain, but I really don't. I wasn't overweight until I started having kids, and then it was just up......up........up. My brother was very overweight from childhood, so I did see him going through diets, etc., but I was enough younger than him that his emotional state didn't really register with me when we were younger, and he moved away from home right after he graduated high school.
As for Medifast being hard.....I can't honestly say I know how you feel about that either. For me, it's been the easiest thing I've ever tried for weight loss. But I really think that is because it is just the only plan that fits into my absolutely crazy life (work full-time, college full-time, single mom with 4 kids). I feel very blessed that this program totally agrees with me physically too. But of course I realize it's not the same for everyone.
What I can tell you though, is that every night you go to bed and realize that you made it through another day of being totally compliant, it's a great feeling. I always go to sleep saying my prayers (the first thing I ask is that the Lord hear the ones I don't get to before I fall asleep
), but I've gotten in the habit now of reminding myself of the good things I did for myself physically that day........the weight I lost, the inches I lost, that I can walk up a flight of stairs now without panting, etc. I just think it's a good frame of mind to fall asleep in. And every morning, while I'm getting ready for work I think of the new day as an opportunity to do more good things for myself physically. Every time I mix a shake, or have a bowl of oatmeal I think of the difference between that and the burgers and fries I used to have, and what those things did to my body. It just makes me feel good about the choices I make, and motivates me to keep making good choices.
You hang in there Jamie.....you've got a good amount of time before the summer is here. If you stick with the program, you'll be the hottest number on the beach this season!! Your mom's just gonna have to deal with you stealing all her skinny thunder
You are off to a great start finding this forum!! The support and information here are invaluable.
Keep shakin' girl, we're all with ya