by Aviatorno1 » April 7th, 2006, 8:26 am
Hi everyone.
My name is Doug and I live in Orange, Texas.
I started the diet Sunday and weighed 209. I have done the 6 - 0 plan. I have not strayed from the diet one bit. As of this morning, I weigh 201.
I had been around 160-170 for most of my life. My weight has been as high as 230 lbs. I gained the weight after my mother and mother-in-law died within 6 months of each other. The weight gain has been further complicated by the fact that I have Crohn's Disease and high blood pressure. The BP and Crohn's meds really take a lot of the wind out of my sails, so exercising has been difficult. As my weigh increased, it has become even harder. When Hurricane Rita hit, I really felt it. There was so much to do and I couldn't keep up.
I have been mainly on low carb Atkin's type diets, but burned out before I could get all of the weight off. I decided to quit fooling around with this issue. I want to lose the weight in the hopes that I can begin exercising and decrease/eliminate by blood pressure medicine.
Medifast provides a structured disciplined way to do that. So I decided that I was going to follow the diet religiously for 90 days and see where I end up. I suspect that I will have the weight off in a shorter period of time.
What I have learned so far is:
1. Dieting is not easy. If it were, people would not be fat. I am going to get hungry, but about the time that I do, it is almost time for another shake, so I can handle it. I am now eating to lose weight, not be entertained or to cope with life.
2. I now associate food with the feeling of hunger. I used to eat for entertainment (SE Texas cajun and mexican food is some of the best). The diet has forced me to reexamine why I eat. In that way, the fact that I feel some hunger has been beneficial. It tells me that my body needs more fuel and I know that it is getting that fuel from stored fat. I am also getting used to living with the feeling of hunger. Hunger is a natural and beneficial state experienced by all of God's creatures. Of all the living things that exist in the world, i guarantee that 90% of those creatures are experiencing hunger right now. With me, I seemed to develop an aversion to hunger such that I owuld avoid it's discomfort at all costs. This is unnatural and unhealthy. Overfeeding any animal will cause it to grow sick and die. Overfeeding me, will do the same.
3. It is easier not to cheat at all, than to try to eat a pinch of off limit stuff from time to time. In my other dieting efforts, that's where I failed. If I just stick religuosly to the diet, the weight will come off. The sooner I reach my goal weight, the sooner I can incorporate some of these fun foods back into my diet (within reason).
4. Because of my Crohn's Disease, I have been in the position where I was literally 210 lbs one week and 185 ten days later (after a flare up). That is a sharp enough contrast that I can really tell the difference in energy at the two weights. I also noticed a significant difference in the way I was treated by co-workers, family and strangers. Anyone who believes that society does not discriminate against fat (yes, I am fat) people, is ill informed. I've been fat and I've been thin. I know there is a difference.
I made the decision in Janaury to reclaim my health. I am now following the prescribed treatment for my Crohn's and feel better. I also talk regularly with my doctor (a personal friend) and my pharmacist (another friend) and am affirmatively taking steps to manage and improve my health. I intend to, and will, follow the prescribed medifast diet for the next 90 days and evaluate the results then, and then only. I will also take the program one day at a time. Each morning I mkae a new resolution that I will not worry about tomorrow but I will, at least for today, stick religously to this diet plan. Like AA, I am taking it one day at at a time.
I must do this. No one and nothing can do it for me. When people intentiionally and unintentionally say or do things to sabotage my weight loss efforts, I must have the courage to tell them "No."
I have finally found that courage and it is empowering.
Thanks,
AviatornNo1
Doug