by Joe » February 6th, 2007, 8:05 am
Hey fellow MF’s, just wanted to give you all an update. Well, I made it successfully through Day 2. As it was during my last Medifast journey, Day 2 was the most difficult for me physically. I was headachy, hungry, and grouchy. I feel like a drug addict going through withdrawal.
I also know that once I’m beyond these tough few days I will be feeling MUCH better. I can tell I’m already on the upswing as of this morning. Having to grit it out these past couple days has given me time to think about things, and here’s what I’ve concluded.
First of all, I’ve had to ask myself, given that I’ve lost weight on Medifast before and gained it back, why do I think I will be successful this time at keeping it off. I know I will be succeed because I have no false illusions about the diet, myself, and what it will take this time.
Last time I naively thought that the diet would be the hard part and that maintaining would be a ‘piece of cake’ (figuratively and literally, and pun intended). I now know that losing weight is difficult (no question), although Medifast makes it easier than anything else out there (heck, it’s the only thing that has ever worked for me). But maintaining is very difficult as well, at least for me.
I’m more ready and prepared for that this time. I know that I am a food addict (my drug of choice). I eat when I’m sad, happy, stressed, bored, …(you fill in the blanks) not to mention I just love the taste of food. So I know that this will be a LIFELONG battle for me, no matter what the number on the scale says. Just because Medifast can and will help me get to my ideal weight does not mean that food will cease to be a drug to me. But I have made the choice to not let it rule my life any more.
I had to laugh when I read Nancy’s post about ‘not letting the Doritos win’. It is kind of sad that I have to do battle with a bag of Doritos, but you know what, I do, and will have to for the rest of my life.
I will learn every trick and strategy to control this problem (not lick it, I know I never will) but definitely to manage it. I know there will be certain foods that I will NEVER be able to handle. So I won’t eat them. I know that I have to learn and practice portion control, for the rest of my life. And when I arrogantly think that I’ve licked the problem for good, I will humbly remember that food is and always will be a drug to me.
Donica, I like the questions you ask yourself. Yet another tool in my bag of tricks. Thank you.
For me the last two days it has been about making the choice to not even indulge myself in the idea of going off the plan. I’ve allowed myself that indulgence in the past. I’m sure you all know the line of thinking… “Oh, one bite wouldn’t hurt” or “boy, that would sure taste good” or just salivating over the cooking shows and fast food commercials. I won’t even let myself go there this time. I’m in a LIFELONG battle and I CHOOSE not to put myself in harms way. So, fast food commercials come on, I change the channel. Thoughts of forbidden foods or going off the plan come into my mind, I ‘change the channel’ in my head.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings. We can all do this, one day, one meal at a time.