by DutchChoc » November 11th, 2004, 8:56 pm
Thanks for thinking of me. I'm definitely still thinking of you and of this place and of the great work I was able to do with the shakes, "while I COULD", I add.
I dropped by tonight to say 'hi and to see how everyone's doing. I've been way off the mark for two weeks now and it still doesn't feel good -- well, let me clarify. It's starting to feel pudgy and the food is still good -- what a combo!! I suspect it's been a two-week binge, relatively.... eating like a 300 pounder, I'll bet, or so. I don't really know that. I do know that I felt more accomplished when I was in control and willing to tell myself no, food is not the answer.
I'm still mortified that Thanksgiving is just two weeks away and I still don't have a grip... or increasingly mortified. I approach each coming day like it could be the one where I get back with it, but yet I seem to love cramming in some more JUNK beforehand. As long as I haven't stopped overeating, it's hard to imagine that a new day will bring that "new leaf".
So, I'm kinda OK and kinda "screwed", friends! But, I've worked my way through most of my "hot" food items in the house and am about out. Maybe that will help.
I'll be back in touch more often when I can commit fully. Keep up the good work!
Ending weight MF 10/2004: 126
Starting weight 12/1/08: 168 :-(
Loss December: -7/-0