Hey Everyone,
As I mentioned in previous posts, the 1st 3 days oddly enough were the easiest for me. I don't know whether it was because I was siked about starting something new, or it was I had an easier schedule throughout the day during winter recess, maybe it has to do with my hormone levels depending on what part of my cycle I'm going through during the month, or it could be after 5 days on the plan I was finally starting to miss food. I really don't know. Who knows? Anyway this is what happened. I started to get really hungry yesterday evening. I tried waiting for it to pass, I tried everything I've read or learned to do when a craving comes on. Nothing worked! I decided I would do the modified plan last night, thinking having some real food would make the craving go away ( I 've been doing the full fast with the shakes and food supplements so far). Well after I had 3oz. of grilled chicken, it didn't help. I wanted more real food. Then I cheated!!!!! I had what I really wanted. A crunchy peanutbutter sandwich on a potato roll! I gave in to temptation. It is hard for me to admit this. I was doing so well I don't know what came over me. Usually when I would cheat at a diet plan in the past I would consider that a total failure and just go off the plan completeley and return to my previous eating habits, which I almost considered doing last night. I then thought about all the support I've been getting from everyone here at the forum and thinking about how good I felt before I gained all this weight, and about how my husband would love for me to have the figure I used to.... I decided to come clean this morning admit what I did to everyone here, start right back on the program this morning, and hope evryone here will continue to give me the support I need. As I think about it some more I think I became overwhlmed with the thought of being on such a restrictive diet for so long ( I have 85lbs
. to lose). I then thought of MIKE and how well he has done losing sooo much weight 93lbs. and still counting , and that inspired me to keep going and not give up. I'm also going to take MIKE'S suggestion of just doing the shakes for a while , so I won't be tempted to keep eating real food like I did last night. So if your out there MIKE I could really use one of your great posts right about now. I will be updating my new start date and start weight. Thanks everyone for listening!
Start 1/6/04
224lbs. / 140lbs. Kelyn