I was so good on the diet for the first 10 days or so and then yesterday we had a dinner out and I told myself just a small salad.
Well, I ordered a salad, it was a chinese chicken salad. I ate half of it and was so stuffed, but oh my god, it was the best tasting thing in the world!! Then I decided what the hell and took a couple bites of my son's pizza and his banana split. I was in heaven for the taste and the texture, but oh man did I feel so full and totally sick for awhile there.
Today I sat at a birthday party and turned down cake and ice cream! I had one little nibble of my son's cake and that satisfied me. The hunger is a gnawing beast inside of me and I soo want to just say, "screw this" and go eat some food. But I can't. I need to give myself a chance on this because of all the wonderful success stories I have read about. What I am planning on doing is doing the full fast for a full month and give myself that chance to get used to it. Then I am going on the modified diet. I have to. I just can't do the full for that long, I NEED food. What I need to do is learn how to control myself and I think I am doing much better than I ever have so far.
So, Ror, my advice to you is to give in to the beast inside of you for just a teensy bit. Have whatever you are obsessing about, but limit your portion size of it. But if you are anything like me, if you don't give in to it, you will go nuts and then eat the whole gallon of ice cream instead of savoring one little bite. We are surviving off of 500 calories a day, we are going to lose weight and I don't think one little bite is going to make that big a difference to your weight loss. Do you?
I am here in SD also, so anytime you need to talk to someone who is going thru the same thing you are, just give me a call. I will send you my phone number in a private message.
Bonita