The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[GucciGoo]

Well I got through Thanksgiving without killing anyone. But I have cheated all week and I feel my clothes getting tight. Dammit. I feel like a cow- and I refuse to weigh myself or I may cry.

So... I am back on plan tomorrow after a week of drinking, eating and partying. I chose my one holiday week to be bad. Now I cannot cheat for Christmas or New Year's. I can't believe how different (and fat) I feel after a week. I would be scared to be on transition right now because I would gain everything back.

[dede4wd]

Mine was Halloween....damn Twizzlers!

DeDe

[GucciGoo]

Once again it is TOM. I am so bloated that I feel like my size 10 pants are going to pop right open here at work. Bleh.

[GucciGoo]

Not that anyone really reads this stupid journal, but I am taking a break from it. I have been in the 20 club since July. I get on plan for 3 days, then I cheat. Then I get on plan for 3 days, then I cheat. I am so sick of losing the same 5 pounds. I have had it. I should have been 120 pounds by now.

I am just going to start eating again and become a big whale. I don't even care anymore.

[bikipatra]

I read your journal and if I said I was going to just eat and become an (for me even bigger) whale, what would you say to me? I bet you would be really supportive and say don't give up, and that this deal works, and I must have patience, and that everyone's body is diferent. Keep posting and I will keep reading, along with many others...

[bikipatra]

Quit jer whining too. Do you know if someone gave me a million dollars right now I would give it back in a heartbeat to wear a tight pair of size 10 pants? Try to remember how far you have come....don't quit before the miracle happens.

[Karli]

Okay, ms Dark and Stormy. Not that I can stop you from doing what you will do, but, I do feel inclined to post. I hope you don't mind, I will just share my experience with you.

I was just thinking, earlier this morning, about my recent break-from-the-program. I had started in June, lost a bunch of weight, stayed true to the program and then poof... I went off. I dropped some weight overall during that "time off" (though it's been chalk-full of ups and downs), but since September (well, actually even toward the end of August), I have been doing exactly what you described above. Or, maybe I would eat half a day of MF and then the other half not. Anyway, I have pretty much stayed at the same exact place for months now (going on 4 ?). I know it's not fun and that in itself can be very discouraging because it's just plain frustrating to feel that helpless about it all.

I had a number of things going on in my head as to why I didn't want to eat on program anymore and so on and so forth. But, now something has changed and things are moving forward and I am *so* happy I was able to maintain my weightloss while I was working that stuff out. I think you would be too. I am convinced that the program itself works best when one is consistently, fully compliant. I thought maybe it didn't need to be like that (well, and as I mentioned, I thought about *a lot* of different things regarding all of this).

Eating better is worth it, no matter whether it's exactly on program or not. So, if you do need a break, which people legitimately do sometimes, it doesn't mean that you need to gorge and "became a whale". And, I think you *do* care, otherwise you would not have ever started and you would not have made it this far, nor would you have posted your last post.

So, maybe you can take some time from "the program" to figure some things out... but don't give up on yourself !! When you come around again, you will feel so happy you didn't just throw in the towel altogether. You are not as helpless as you might feel, but maybe you need a little space from things in order to really see that.

Wishing you well,
Karli

[Serendipity]

Nice post, Karli. I can't really add anything except.....I do read your journal because I do care about your progress. I also know that your head needs to be in the right place for this program to work.

So work on that head, would ya? Medifast is so easy when your head is in the right place.

Please don't disappear.....keep us posted. We love ya.

[Lauren]

Yeah, and change your screen name. I think "Dark and Stormy" has become a self-fulfilling prophesy, my dear.

Why not try something a bit more optimistic, like "Skinny Days Are Coming," or, I don't know, "Beth." Ha!

But Jo is right, this program rocks if you are ready to rock it. Completely. Always. 100%. And if you're not, it's not because you suck or are weak or any other negative, it's just that you're not ready for it right now. But like Karli said, there may be a time when you are, and don't sabotage all your hard work so that the uphill battle grows! Just be kind to yourself, exercise, eat healthy, and love yourself a little. Just a little.

:-)

Lauren

[hulagirlfromhawaii]

I know you don't want to hear any more advise, but I gotta put in my 2 cents here Stormy. Losing the same 3-5 pounds is better than gaining all your weight back . If you did that, then you would be really, really miserable and all of this would be for nothing.
You will lose the weight when your mind and heart are committed and ready to lose it. Take some time to dig deep and find out what is holding you back. And when you figure it out...come back and do this with a fire in your eyes to reach your goal!

We're here for you Stormy!... I should say, Beth!

[Karli]

Just thinking about you, Beth. I see your name once in a while, appear at the bottom of the forum index page. I wish you post in and let us know how you are doing, no matter if it's good or bad.

Wishing you well,
Karli

[hulagirlfromhawaii]

Just thinking about you, Beth. I see your name once in a while, appear at the bottom of the forum index page. I wish you post in and let us know how you are doing, no matter if it's good or bad.

Ditto!

[bikipatra]

Don't make me sing with my black lung..."I misss yoooouuuuuuu, I miiiiiiiiss you....."

[dede4wd]

I'm just checking in to see how you're doing too. When I fell off program and fell off the boards, it was doubly bad for me. Just keep posting and tell us what's going on...

Thinking of you!

DeDe

[GucciGoo]

Well I am here. I have been off the wagon for a few weeks, but I am here. I am re-starting today with a better attitude.

Eating was fun. And easy. I loved the meatballs, sausage & peppers, endless holiday cookies, bacon and eggs breakfasts, French toast, wine, soda, cake, wings, pizza………………..but now it has to end. Luckily, the effects were not TOO horrible. I weighed in at 151.8 this morning. I should have been at goal for a while already which makes this more frustrating.

My lowest weight on MF was 145 when I was inducted into the 30# club for a few days but then started cheating. I have had some problems with the holidays. It is SO hard. This past weekend we had Dylan’s birthday party which I catered by myself. This Friday I have my office Christmas party, then Chanukah, then Christmas Eve dinner, Christmas day at my sister in law’s house…then we just got invited to an overnight New Year’s party. But I had to cut it off somewhere. So I decided that Thanksgiving was fun, Dylan’s birthday was fun…but now I have to be good. I am planning on NOT cheating for my holiday party this Friday. I will do my L&G for the lunch- we are having turkey and string beans on the menu. I will avoid alcohol even though I paid for the open bar. The other holidays will be tough. But I HAVE to do it. I think New Year’s will be the hardest. I can’t imagine sipping water while everyone is getting drunk and having fun.

So anyway, sorry to babble. Dede, Bikipatra, Kanani, Lauren, Karli, and Jo- that you so much for all your advice and kind words. I guess you are all right- my head was not in the right place. I got very busy and something had to give- and unfortunately it was my diet. I will still need some support so please continue to check on me! I will do the same for you guys!