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[CGal67]

...IT POURS!

I have not been around because I have not been buying supplements...this was not intentional just due to crazy circumstances.

SO after getting all the repairs done on my Jeep and paying just under $4000.00 for everything I thought I would recover within a few paychecks and be back on track.

I still had quite a bit of supplements left (and still have some) but most of it was things I don't like to eat. I did some trading with a co-worker and tried to cut back so I could still be somewhat in compliance. Well, just before I was due to order supps for February, someone smashed into my Jeep while it was parked in front of my house!!! No one seen anything and I have to tap into my uninsured motorist coverage to get the Jeep repaired. My stress level was already out of this world with work related issues and longer hours, but that just blew it out of the sky! So what do I do? No, I did not eat anything crazy - thankfully, but I did end up on a two week drinking binge after all this time of not drinking (SHAME ON ME). This started a crazy fluctuation of weight. Some days 180, other days 185. And I wasn't really eating much which made it worse.

The past week I have been at 183.2...and holding...while my body adjusts to getting rehydrated. In the meantime I received a small box of supplements, some Momentum flavor infusions and feel like things are settling down a bit. I still have not got my jeep repaired but I will get a final estimate on the damages tomorrow and go from there.

I used to be able to "talk" to a few close friends when I got too stressed but it seems like this last bout was turned inward and I just felt depressed and irritable and didn't feel like talking to anyone. Luckily I didn't move up in pounds but I'm not really proud of my choices over the last 4 weeks.

My PC is still half ass working but for now it will have to do...the Jeep is far more important.

Thanks to everyone who stopped by to check up on me.

[Mike]

Sorry you have been dealing with so much. Hopefully things will be better soon.

Remember, each day is new, so look forward to the next.

[lifelovinaries]

hey carrie! Glad you popped back in to update us. BUT sorry to hear that things haven't been going so well. to you! Always try to find a positive to focus on...that being that you have pretty much maintained your loss. That's something to be proud of. Hopefully you will be back full force soon (matter of fact i KNOW you will). Maybe you need to try those friends out again. It's always good to have someone to talk to. Take care and make sure you keep in touch.

[ChynnaDoll]

hey there girl..i'm so sorry you've had all these unfortunate things happen:+( but you know the ole saying "what dosen't kill you will make you stronger", and i'm praying that's what will happen with you, and looks like you WILL rise above things:+) I got some Momentum Infusers too(mixed berry) So glad you checked in!

Chynna

[CGal67]

Thanks to the three of you!! I'm certainly taking one day at a time. Hopefully I get my taxes filed soon and can alleviate some of this stress.

Erica,

Can I join your scale junkies club???

[lifelovinaries]

Erica,

Can I join your scale junkies club???

Of course you can! We would be glad to have you. Sent you a pm!

[CGal67]

PERSONAL

In my opinion, the ultimate weakness is giving into depression. I can't even stand to think about the WORD, let alone the actual condition. But I feel like I'm battling something beyond my control - too many things are going wrong all at the same time and for the moment there doesn't seem to be an end in sight. I need time to plan and get a grip on things without compromising my goals and achievements.

It's hard to focus when my mind is racing to try to come up with a solution. My thoughts are not staying on one subject at a time...and that is very much out of my character.

[rodeomom]

I know just how you are feeling. I think we have all been there at one time or another. Just remember, like I told someone else recently, there are many things in life that we cannot control. These things happen to us and around us. All we can do is adjust our attitude toward such things. Then, there are things that we can control those are the aspects of our life that we MUST work on. When you start to focus on stuff that you have power to change you will find that the other stuff is easier to handle. Your diet is one of those things that you do have power over and you are working on grabbing ahold of that power.

You will be OK - just focus on what you can do and do it.

[Lauren]

CGal-

You need to step away from yourself for a minute and look at this from an outsider's perspective. If you had a friend who told you that life seems to be getting away from them, that everything feels overwhelming, that they can't seem to control their thoughts or emotions, and they're just feeling totally incapable of making things right, would you tell them they're weak? That they're giving in to weakness? I'd suspect not.

If you historically have been a person who is competent and able to tackle life's "obstacles," and now out of nowhere everything seems to be crumbling, then you might really need some help - and getting that help is not a sign of weakness, rather, it's a sign of insight and strength. Knowing when we need to ask for help is a wonderful show of maturity, of understanding that we can't do everything ourselves. The help you get could be as simple as talking to a friend, or even better, seeking out a therapist to help you make sense of this current phase, and hopefully help you get through it with greater ease.

I'm of the opinion that the ultimate weakness is to give up. Anything and everything we do that's the opposite of giving up, to me, is showing our power.

Hope things get better for you soon,

Lauren

[CGal67]

Then, there are things that we can control those are the aspects of our life that we MUST work on. When you start to focus on stuff that you have power to change you will find that the other stuff is easier to handle. Your diet is one of those things that you do have power over and you are working on grabbing ahold of that power.

You will be OK - just focus on what you can do and do it.

So true, thanks Bren. I got to bed earlier than normal last night and got a free massage which really relieved a lot of tension. I also filed my taxes and hope that it will calm me down a bit...I always panick when it's time to pay property taxes.

I really appreciate your response...you just don't know how much I appreciate it!

[CGal67]

CGal-

You need to step away from yourself for a minute and look at this from an outsider's perspective. If you had a friend who told you that life seems to be getting away from them, that everything feels overwhelming, that they can't seem to control their thoughts or emotions, and they're just feeling totally incapable of making things right, would you tell them they're weak? That they're giving in to weakness? I'd suspect not.

If you historically have been a person who is competent and able to tackle life's "obstacles," and now out of nowhere everything seems to be crumbling, then you might really need some help - and getting that help is not a sign of weakness, rather, it's a sign of insight and strength. Knowing when we need to ask for help is a wonderful show of maturity, of understanding that we can't do everything ourselves. The help you get could be as simple as talking to a friend, or even better, seeking out a therapist to help you make sense of this current phase, and hopefully help you get through it with greater ease.

I'm of the opinion that the ultimate weakness is to give up. Anything and everything we do that's the opposite of giving up, to me, is showing our power.

Hope things get better for you soon,

Lauren

Lauren,

What can I say, you make a lot of strong points.

I have been taking care of myself more or less since I was 16 years old and taking care of others for the last 20 years...(my daughter, grammy and partially my cousin) and I guess when things start going downhill I feel like there will be no one there for me so I have to fix it. I'm sure it's an unreal amount of pressure to put on myself, but I don't know any other way to deal with things.

I have been the rock for others for years and I know they don't think anything ever goes wrong in my world or that I will simply adapt, but I am feeling ridiculously overwhelmed. The drinking binge sort of woke me up because I realized that during that time I wasn't even sleeping, I was just in a constant stage of "thinking and rationalization" which left me stressed and exhausted.

As you stated, giving up is far more of a weakness than being depressed. I'm definitely not ready to give up...but it looks like I'm just human and not the supershero I feel I need to live up to.

Thanks for the input!!

Carrie

[rodeomom]

Just checking in on you girly! I know you have so much going on in your life right now and I hope you are able to find time just for you. Those people that depend on you to do stuff for them will not get all of you if you don't take time to "fill up" emotionally, physically and mentally. I may not be able to do much from this distance, but I will do whatever you need to help you take care of YOU!!

Let me know.

[Out*With*The*Old]

I'm sorry that things have been so hard for you these days, Carrie!!! I hope life settles for you SOON!! I am VERY glad to see you back here, you were missed!!!! Stick around and let us know how we can support you!!

[Tawanda]

Carrie, I've been so mired in my own little puddle of mud, that I've not gone out to comment and encourage very many others here.

I'm sorry to read of all the hard things that have been hitting your life. It does seem that at times, life just dumps a load of bricks onto our shoulders and you are getting one of those times.

I hope things ease up soon for you.

[lifelovinaries]

hey carrie, i just wanted to pop in and check on ya. I hope things have gotten somewhat better since the last time you posted. Keep hangin in there!