that I needed to read these very words tonight???
I'm coming back to MF tomorrow morning ride ALL THE WAY into the train station.
Leeann, you spoke to so much of what I've just put myself through. I lost 67 lbs. between March 1 and July 7 of this year. Then I decided that even though I still had another 42 lbs. to go I would take a break while on vacation and return to MF when I got back. But I kept putting it off and putting it off all summer, telling myself that I was working on maintaining and losing through diet and exercise (which as you can see didn't quite work out that way.) Then school started, and I restarted in Sept and I restarted in Oct. AAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know why MF seemed relatively "easy" for me the first time around. I loved the way I felt most days I was on it, the energy, the clear mind, my healthy body...
And I don't know why it's been sooooooooo hard for me to get back on the MF train and ride it into the station.
I've returned to many bad habits, especially the one where I'm going to start on Monday so I might as well pig out the rest of this week, only to find myself a few pounds heavier on the Monday scale and then discouraged from even trying.
Sometimes I want to scream knowing that if I'd stayed compliant these last few months like I did the first few months, I'd be at or very close to goal. I know looking back won't get me moving forward. So I have to let that go and work on the present so the future will be what I want it to be.
But I can't do this anymore. I just want a healthy, fit, attractive body I feel good in and am proud of. I am sick of always fighting being fat. I've always been active and exercised alot, but I'm always struggling with the weight.
So I came onto the forum tonight to get words of wisdom, motivation, inspiration, advice from all the wonderful people here and especially Nancy, and boy did I ever.
Leeann, Michelle, Jan, Mama, Mytime, LuzinIt, you all helped with your accounts and feelings with dealing with similar issues.
Nancy, as always, you shared things and said things that hit home and helped tremendously. [I know we have to lose weight and be healthy for ourselves, but gosh, sometimes I feel like I have to do it for you or I'll let you down
] But seriously, your words, as well as everyone's on here, mean so much to me, so THANK YOU!
So wish me well everyone. Tomorrow I'm back on-plan, to ride this train all the way into the station, so I can learn transition, maintenance, and how to take care of, feel good in, and be proud of this only body that I'm going to have the rest of my life.
Back on the track,
LAwoman
my, my, my, where are my manners? - Nancy, Congrats on your new home. How exciting!