Tonight was the first half of my husband's two-weekend birthday party (the two couples he wanted to have over couldn't make it on the same night, so we had one dinner tonight, then will have the other one next Friday). As per his request, I cooked all sorts of yummy things that I won't list, because it would be too cruel. Part of me was worried how I would do, but the other part of me wasn't, because I'm so ready to stick with a plan to get this weight off. I didn't even lick my fingers when I got mashed potatoes on them! And when everyone else was enjoying desert, I enjoyed a chai latte. I measured out my salmon (easy dish there for me to have, fortunately) and my salad greens before it all went to the table, and it all worked just fine. And really, the satisfaction of everyone raving over the food was (in this moment, at least) just as satisfying as eating it myself. The couple of times I caught myself looking longingly at the potatoes or bread, I repeated Nancy's mantra: "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels!" Also, I thumbed through the Lands End catalog and reminded myself how nice it will be to order cute little jeans and sweaters and things, and not have to pay an extra $10-15 because it's the plus size version. As far as I can remember, this is the first social meal during which I've been on a diet and didn't cheat ONCE. I always would say, "oh, just this little bit won't hurt." But then it would turn into more than a little bit, and then it would turn into a weekend, and then it would turn into three months of splurge.
Yay for Medifast! Yay for the accountability and support we have in this forum! Yay for noticing my cheeks look a little thinner! Yay for self-control and remembering the long-term goals! Yay for learning life-long tools for healthy eating!
- Dayna