by ebony868 » September 17th, 2006, 1:39 pm
Sunday's emotions are mixed.
I'm thrilled to have lost 6lbs, but am starting to crave some sweet & salty foods. In addition to RTDs I may need to order some soy crisps. I've had a partial hysterectomy, but it doesn't stop PMS.
I know I shouldn't, but I wonder why others have lost more than me in the first week. I can't help but think is it something I'm doing wrong. I was taking in only 800 calories, but I'm adding a shake starting today.
I'm happy I was able to overcome some pretty strong temptations this week. Saturday my god daughter had my favorite birthday cake: chocolate with cream cheese icing. I even served the kids and didn't have a slice. My husband made the usual big Sunday breakfast, but I locked myself in the den and just had a shake. All of this was really difficult and I'm so afraid of falling off the wagon.
I was thinking of supplementing some exercise to take my mind off of food, but have been advised to wait until week 3. That means I will be posting, posting, posting and posting some more. Anytime I think about cheating I come out here so please be patient with me.
I sometimes wish I had more active support from dh. It's not that he's not encouraging, but I wish he would encourage me to keep up the good work or something. I told him I lost 6 lbs this morning and he said, oh that's good, but you never really ate much anyway. I don't know what I want from him, I guess I just have to continue to be my own motivation.
Then he never understands why I spend so much time on the computer. He doesn't get that it stops me from eating. I've told him, but he doesn't understand. This morning I was coming in the den just to spend time with him and he left out. I told him I was coming in to see him and he said, "no you weren't, you just wanted to get on the computer".
I don't know. Maybe I'll feel better after to church.....Not sure what this pity party is all about....maybe mourning food. Guess I should think about it some more before I commit to what today's emotions are all about.
251/245/180 Start Date 09/11/06 (a day of new beginnings)