"Eating to Live" or "Living to Eat"?
I have been reading a lot on the board lately about how hard the program is and how hunger is running rampant amongst us. Bonita has even said: …"I am going on the modified diet. I have to. I just can't do the full for that long, I NEED food."
How many times have I said that myself?? "I NEED FOOD." Food has been the one constant thing in my life that has led me to this overweight place. It has been my friend, my love , my companion, my reward, my consolation. It has been my EVERYTHING.
It has also been my downfall. While I have not suffered any major health issues YET because of my weight, I do have some back and joint pains. Most of my pain comes from feeling limited in doing the things I really want to do. And of course, there is all the emotional pain associated with being fat.
That is why Medifast has been such a godsend for me. It gives me a break from "real food - a crutch" to evaluate its status in my life. I get all the nourishment I need while I work on my addiction. I am also learning ways to cope in the real world with food and food situations.
Now, forty-five pounds lighter, I no longer see food as a friend. Food is only good for one thing--fuel. Nothing more, nothing less. I have given food WAY too much power over my life. Now it is time to take away that power and return it to its rightful owner….ME.
I have 115 lbs to goal, so my journey is far from over. BUT…no longer will I "live to eat"…only "eat to live."