Suzy, thanks for the reply. I agree with the logic of the comparable successes: I found that doing 100+ days of just shakes in 2004 "worked", but I'd say was a bit too intense psychologically because for me, at least, it promoted the perception that I was about a day from dying of starvation and that wasn't fun at the end.
So, I have to say that once again I have permutated off plan yesterday to the extent that if I want to be honest here, I have to say I was back at 161.5 this morning. Not sure what I did justifies the punishment, but that is the true effect. I hope it's out of my system and I can go back to doing what's right rather than what's wrong.
Should I speak to that? Do not want anyone to think I condone this kind of thing or even promote any "goodies" which can help you gain 5 pounds in a day, but it went something like this:
Because I'm a vegetarian, I gave into some fat-free refried beans for my protein, like 1/2 cup, only I had them a couple of times a day for a day or so. Then yesterday, I started out doing that - one shake early followed by the refried beans at 10:30 and salad and refried beans again about 2:30. Then at "dinner", who knew one should eat again, I heated up the half vegetarian pizza (9") from the restaurant that I'd brought home and the rest of the onion rings. And all of that, plus copious liquids, has put me here, where I deserve to be, frankly.
I thought I'd ponder something else about myself here, which is why it would seem, for anyone, beneficial enough to make a fairly dramatic weight loss and then not to care to hold onto it. That is my MO. It's as if I usually only care to show that I can do it, and then I don't care about maintaining it. It seems grossly reckless to have that attitude.
So, here I am at a decision point of making the tough choice to do a good day and see if that 'helps". YES, indeed, I have to put that in quotes as I'm not sure what kind of "help" I truly seek in all this.