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Postby DonicaB » January 22nd, 2007, 7:03 pm

Thanks DeDe! I'm feeling very well today. I think I got into a little funk like Kelee did. I'm not sure why, but I feel like it has passed (for now anyway) I'm surprised I am feeling as good as I am right now considering I only lost 2/10 of a pound this week. That really stinks, but I guess I could have gained. :roll:



I wish there had been a journal thread last time I did MF. I have been going back through the forum........all the way back to April of 2005 when I started. I wanted to follow my weight loss then and see when it was that I began to slide down the slippery slope of cheating. I love the journal because I can go back and read some of my own thoughts and remind myself of why I want so badly to lose this weight.

I started out last time feeling like I could conquer the world on MF. I had that strength for 2 months. Two months is a real problem area for me. I always struggle to stay on anything after two months. I am determined to stick it out this time. The 2 month demon will not win this time.

I sure hope the scale moves this week. I am still trying desperately to stay off the scale. I don't need to get depressed every day that it doesn't move down.

Well, I want to read some of the other journals, so.........later.
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Postby bikipatra » January 23rd, 2007, 4:50 am

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I wish there had been a journal thread last time I did MF. I have been going back through the forum........all the way back to April of 2005 when I started. I wanted to follow my weight loss then and see when it was that I began to slide down the slippery slope of cheating. I love the journal because I can go back and read some of my own thoughts and remind myself of why I want so badly to lose this weight.

I started out last time feeling like I could conquer the world on MF. I had that strength for 2 months. Two months is a real problem area for me. I always struggle to stay on anything after two months. I am determined to stick it out this time. The 2 month demon will not win this time.


I am so grateful for the journals this time too. Lets me free associate or just check-in without starting a thread and helps me see how others are doing. I also love getting feedback, even when it is the tough love type! I am 63 days right now and I feel really confident. No, I am not losing as quickly as I had hoped. Yes, I have slipped several times, I have eaten too much, not enough, exercised too much, not enough, but I am just treating this as a journey, a one day, one shake at a time journey. I just keep on going no matter what. I already made the commitment, so quitting is not an option. Screwing up obviously is for me at times. But I get back on track based on my own motivation and the strength on this board. These people believe in me the days I don't believe in myself. I believe you can beat that demon. I really do!
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Postby Taangrl21 » January 23rd, 2007, 10:47 am

New year, new journal, new determination, Donica. You will do great and have all of our support behind ya. Forget about the 2mos demon...if you dont think about it, it will have no reason to exist. YOU CAN DO IT!!! STAY POSTIVE!!! :)
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Postby DonicaB » January 23rd, 2007, 3:36 pm

I exercised for the first time in 5 months today. I am completely out of shape. Several gals from school decided to start walking after school to help our team win the Biggest Loser challenge. So......today I walked with them. When I say walk.......I mean more like run.......those gals walked so fast......I'm worried I am going to have shin splints. We walked (ran) :runner: around the building. We have lots of hallways and lots of stairs. I honestly wasn't sure I was going to make it up the stairs. I did make it, but boy was it tough.

This past summer, even though I wasn't eating correctly I did start an exercise plan and actually had gotten to where I could run a mile and walk a mile every morning on my treadmill. I didn't lose any weight doing that because I just ate more. :bib: As soon as school started back up though, the exercise routine went right out the window. I hate getting up early and just couldn't keep myself motivated to getting up even earlier to exercise. I can't believe how out of shape I am in just 5 months. :shock:

I am going to weigh in the morning to see how I am doing. Tomorrow is my 3 week mark, so I want to see how much I have lost in 3 weeks. Friday is the first weigh in day for the challenge at school. We only weigh every 2 weeks. I am actually a little surprised at how seriously everyone at school is taking this challenge. Of course, I think after the first month or so, people will be less serious. I plan on winning the whole thing, so I am very serious. ;)

There were donuts in the teacher's lounge this morning. When I saw them, I immediately thought, "I would sure like to have one of those." Then I asked myself 2 questions:

1. Is it on plan?
2. Will this help me get to my goal?

The answer to both questions was NO. :no: This was a great indication to me that I needed to step away from the donuts and put them out of my mind. I think I will ask myself those questions every time I am tempted to cheat. I am finally learning how important compliance is, and if compliance is going to get me there (and I believe it will) then compliance is what I want.

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Postby dede4wd » January 23rd, 2007, 4:36 pm

Great plan with the 2 questions idea!

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Postby KeleeGrl » January 25th, 2007, 12:19 pm

Hey Donica...sounds like the self-talk is going well. I did the same thing the other night at work...I put the spoon that had sour cream on it in my mouth and asked myself, "why are you doing this, it doesn't taste that great alone without the potato" so grossly I spit it out in the garbage..don't worry know one was around to gross out.

....and your exericising..that's great...I have to get my butt on the elliptical!

Glad to hear your feeling better...Keep Shaking.
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Postby DonicaB » January 25th, 2007, 5:26 pm

I can't believe you said that, Kelli. The other night I made macaroni and cheese (homemade of course) for the family. When I went back to the kitchen I instinctively picked up the spoon and put it in my mouth. :eat: I started to chew and realized........what the heck am I doing. I went straight to the trash can and spit it out. I could't believe I had done it. :hammerhead1: It makes me wonder how many extra calories I packed in by cleaning up after dinner.

I didn't get to walk with girls today because I had a meeting after school which lasted much longer than I anticipated. Hopefully I can walk with them tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the first weigh in day for the biggest loser challenge. I'm excited, but still uncomfortable about weighing in with people around. The percentages of weight lost will be post for all to see, but not the actualy weights and pounds lost.

I am proud that I have been compliant every day. However, I noticed that most nights I forget to have my last supplement. So most days have been 4 & 1 instead of 5 & 1. I'm really going to try harder to get that last supplement in. I really think it has slowed me down and we all know, no one wants that.

Wow, now that I reread what I have posted I am definitely rambling. I guess instead of a journal, it is more like..........

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Postby KeleeGrl » January 26th, 2007, 7:03 am

Hey, this is a good place for random thoughts! So how did the weight in go? I'm sure you did great!
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Postby DonicaB » January 26th, 2007, 8:16 am

Well, I was happy to see that I lost 5.2# so far in the competition (2 weeks). However, several of my male co-workers lost a great deal more. Of course, the first day they weighed, they waited until right after lunch and wore the heaviest clothing they could find. One lost 12# and the other lost 8.6#. The one that lost 12 pounds had purposefully eaten as much as he could the week prior to the challenge. (Weird, huh?) :goofy:

I wish the challenge could have started at the beginning of my MF journey. I had already had my big 1st week loss when this challenge began. I am still going to win though. There is no way they can keep up with me. :runner: I am running all the way to the finish line with this.

I am also happy, because that means I am at least down 2# so far this week. I'm not changing my ticker though, until Sunday's roll call.

It has been a good morning.

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Postby KeleeGrl » January 26th, 2007, 8:31 am

That's great Donica..I'm happy for you. Don't you just hate how men lose so much faster...I wish I could have their metabolism minus the testosterone.

You have a great attitude and so I'm sure you will win.
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Postby dede4wd » January 26th, 2007, 1:22 pm

You'll beat them in the end, if they're using those tactics at the beginning, they got no longevity, they got no game!

MAKE SURE you get your last supp in even if you have it close to your 2nd to last one, you don't want to slow down your losses and you need all the nutrition in all 6 meals to be healthy, happy and WIN this challenge!

Rooting for you!

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Postby DonicaB » January 28th, 2007, 1:53 pm

Very happy with the 3 lb loss this week. :woohoo: I know not every week will be like this one, but I'm enjoying the loss anyway.

Couple of thoughts:

1. My stomach has been making all kinds of weird noises after I eat my L & G. It is very loud and embarrassing. My husband keeps asking me, "Is that your stomach?" :oops: I just cannot believe how loud it is.

2. I want to write down, for the record to remind myself later, that I can stay compliant and strong. I can do this and want to do this for the long haul. I will not stop at 2 months. I will not stop until I reach my goal, and then I will do whatever it takes to maintain it.

My family went out to lunch today after church. This is really the first time I have eaten out since starting MF. I have avoided eating out because it is impossible to completely control the way the food is cooked. I did very well with what I ordered and even managed to watch the rest of my family have dessert. My youngest son kept going on and on about how wonderful the cheesecake was. I finally had to tell him to :coach: shut up! I mean, I'm glad he was enjoying it, but I was a little tired of hearing it. The good thing was, I wasn't feeling deprived. This is probably one of the first times I have watched people eat something I normally love without being angry that I couldn't have any. I didn't think of it as I CAN'T HAVE ANY. I thought of it as, I DON'T WANT ANY. Am I finally making progress? :?: Maybe!!!!!!!!

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Postby KeleeGrl » January 29th, 2007, 7:22 am

Donica - Great Job! I'm so happy for your loss and you sound like your doing really good. I'm back in the saddle after an "off" weekend, but not feeling discouraged so that's a new attitude for me.

Keep up the great work and I know you will be reporting some good figures!
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Postby DonicaB » January 29th, 2007, 10:25 am

Thanks Kelli!

Right now, I am so motivated. This morning when I went to put my belt on, it just slid right past the notch I normally use and went to the next one without any difficulty at all. My clothes are beginning to feel much looser. My husband even asked me yesterday if I still had clothes from the last time I lost weight. I told him not to worry, I have clothes in nearly every size. ;)

I did tell him that when I get to goal.......I will definitely need some new clothes. He agreed. :yippee: I'm really looking forward to that. By the beginning of school next year.......I should be in all new duds. :dance:

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Postby bikipatra » January 29th, 2007, 1:05 pm

My husband promised me a whole new wardrobe if I ever lost weight if I donated my five boxes of small clothes to the homeless. That was before Medifast and he is growing slightly worried...
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