by DonicaB » March 10th, 2008, 9:37 am
Well, I have to admit.....I've been hiding again. I wasn't lying when I said I've been very, very busy with writing curriculum, etc. However, I allowed it to become an excuse for not staying compliant. So needless to say, I'm right back where I started. I've been staying away because if I come here, I have to be accountable. It's just easier to stay away.
I'm going to have to learn that there will always be stressors and there will always be something going on that requires my attention. I am always going to be busy. I cannot allow those things to take over, though. I cannot allow them to become excuses and I need the accountability of this group.
I feel refreshed today knowing that I woke up with the realization that I have to be the one in control. I certainly do not have the resolve I had last year at this time, but I refuse to give up. Giving up is really not an option. Giving up means there will never be a change in the way I view food. It means I choose to live an unhealthy lifestyle. I'm not willing to do that, so I must keep fighting for what I want.
I also realized this weekend that I will be very unhappy, come summer, that I am not where I want to be in regards to my weight. So, I can either keep eating unhealthy foods and continue to put on weight, or I can eat healthy and lose weight. When I look at it like that, the choice seems easy. Now, if I can just stick with it.
Please don't give up on me guys, I know some of you are probably saying, "Just do it already, and stop whining!", cause that's what I'm saying to myself.
Doni