Hi guys! I'm finally able to post today. Things have not been well. My mother-in-law has cancer and we knew that it was progressing, but things took a major turn for the worse last week and needless to say, I haven't been able to stay on plan. I have been all over the place it seems. She lives a little over 3 hours away so we have been making several trips and will probably continue to make more. It is such a difficult thing right now.
Summer school has begun. I'm not really enjoying it much. I think I am just too preoccupied with everything else that is going on. One good thing about it is.....it puts me back in a normal routine. So far today....I have been compliant. It just seems like I can only stay compliant for 1 or 2 days and then I go off again. Deep down I really want to get back to it.....it just seems easier with everything that is going on to just be able to eat whatever, whenever. When we went to my in-laws last Thursday, I even packed an entire suitcase with compliant foods. I fully intended to stick with it, but ended up eating off plan. I just seem to have lost my drive.
I have already changed my ticker to represent my current weight. I really haven't done that badly, however, I am no longer in the 40# club. I have gained 5#.
I'm really hoping to make it a completely compliant week and then continue from there. I really miss being here. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this forum really keeps me going.
I know I have said this before......but I'm sorry for not being around lately to be supportive to you guys. Right now, I just don't feel like I have much to offer. I mean.....I can't seem to stay compliant for more than a couple days at a time. I keep telling myself......You only have to stay compliant 3 hours at a time.
My summer school schedule is actually more rigorous than my normal schedule. I teach 6 classes back to back with absolutely no break. The only break I get is a 25 minute lunch break. The only reason I am telling you this is so ya'll will know why I can't really write during school hours.
Thank you.....all of you.....so much for checking in on me. It feels so good to know that you care.
Doni