The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[Mike]

Now that I look back on that behavior, it makes me very sad. I just don't understand why I did such things. I can't believe I ate like that. I'm actually afraid that I could go back to that, if I'm not very careful. I'm hoping that I have learned my lesson, but have I? Several people can lose the weight, but it seems few maintain it. I'm not trying to sound negative, I'm just wondering.....which will I be. I know which one I want to be, but can I do it?

I don't know what brought up all of this talk in my head. I know it's self-doubt. Will I ever fully believe in myself?

Donica,
Just remember.... Phil 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. You can do it. If you are worried about how things will be after you lose the weight and transition to maintenance, then just remember..... you never have to leave Medifast.
Many people remain of these products and they are just healthy alternatives that help keep us going.

[bikipatra]

Even though your old behavior makes you sad, there is a lesson and strength there. You are a creature of habit and capable of doing the same things, day in, day out. Now you are switching over to healthy behavior, time and time again instead of destructive patterns. I don't know what the stats are on people who lose weight and then gain it all back. Can't be much better than my chances of not dying an alcoholic death. But today we are taking right action, and we have a string of days where we were able to do what was needed to be healthy and strong. I believe that God wants me to be happy, joyous and free. He wants that for everyone. We just have to have the willingness to ask for help. You can do this, one day at a time. The past counts for nothing right now. Of course you have doubt and fear. Those are natural, especially if we are projecting out into the future. Ask God to remove them and then go forward as if your prayers have been answered. Right this minute you are fine.

[Serendipity]

Great post, bebes! You are amazing me!

One thing that I found helpful was to find someone who has succeeded (in my case, Nancy), and just copy what she did. I knew that if I stuck to the program like she did, I would lose the weight, and now in maintenance, I know that if I keep Medifast if my life and keep focused, I will maintain. There is a power there that I have never felt in the past. Follow the examples of those who have been there, and you can't fail. Don't be afraid to ask questions. We all have doubts, but they can be overcome with time if we have a tried and true plan.

[bikipatra]

Thanks Joleen! I really appreciate that.

[Serendipity]

I call those "warm fuzzies". I AM capable of dishing those out from time to time.

[bikipatra]

I call those "warm fuzzies". I AM capable of dishing those out from time to time.

"warm fuzzies" remind me of my special socks!

[DonicaB]

I think it's like you guys said......I'm actually thinking about maintenance. Always in the past, all I thought about was losing the weight. I was never sure I could do that. This time, I do feel confident that I will lose the weight, so I guess my thoughts are beginning to focus on maintaining it.

I know I will just have to keep my focus on doing what is right. One thing I have learned from watching those who are maintaining is that it isn't going to be easy. I will have to stay in control and I will have to plan. I cannot go back to eating like I use to, just because I lost the weight.

I may be putting the cart before the horse here. I mean, I haven't reached my goal. I guess I am just looking ahead and trying to prepare myself for the next step of my journey.

Thanks everyone for your input. It really does help and I greatly appreciate it.

Donica

[dede4wd]

I know what you mean Donica! You and I have a similar amount of weight to go until goal and I find looking towards maintenance inspires me. It's like a done deal, I KNOW I will reach goal and think about what choices I will make when there's more choices available to me!

I think it's a good thing...we're in the mindset that we're GOING to reach goal and PLANNING for the future on Maintenance. Will it be easy? Probably not. Will it be WAY funner than finding a bathing suit in a size 20? YOU BETCHA!

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[Tawanda]

Donica, I resemble what you shared yesterday about how you ate. I use to love the nights that DH would work late or be out of town. It would give me the opportunity to binge and eat constantly. I'd order a family size pizza and eat it all by myself over the course of a day or two. Every meal and whenever I thought I could shove another piece into my stomach without becoming ill. Cookies......it was often that I'd eat 12 -- one right after another..

Yes, I was that person, too.....and it scares me that I could possibily become that person again.

Thank you for sharing....and I appreciated reading the responses that you've received.

[DonicaB]

I know what you mean Donica! You and I have a similar amount of weight to go until goal and I find looking towards maintenance inspires me.
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D~ I'm actually thinking about lowering my goal, but I'm not going to do that until I get there. The goal I have right now is still a little heavy for my body. I picked that goal because I thought it was a weight I could possibly maintain. I haven't completely decided yet what I will do. I figure I have a few months to think about it.

Ha! You know it, girl. A smaller bathing suit will be WAY more fun than a size 20.

Donica

[DonicaB]

Donica, I resemble what you shared yesterday about how you ate. I use to love the nights that DH would work late or be out of town. It would give me the opportunity to binge and eat constantly. I'd order a family size pizza and eat it all by myself over the course of a day or two. Every meal and whenever I thought I could shove another piece into my stomach without becoming ill. Cookies......it was often that I'd eat 12 -- one right after another..

Yes, I was that person, too.....and it scares me that I could possibily become that person again.

Thank you for sharing....and I appreciated reading the responses that you've received.

Tawanda~ That was really hard for me to write down, but I really felt I needed to admit it to myself. I wanted to have it in my journal to remind myself that I don't ever want to be that person again.

I also wrote it because I was alone in the house and having those old thoughts of "What can I eat?" I wanted to immediately squelch those thoughts before I found myself in the pantry. As soon as I started to write that......... I was sickened by the sound of how much I ate, and any thoughts I had about cheating immediately left me.

We are learning to never be that person again, Tawanda. I know we can both do it. Let's do it together!!!!

Donica

[Tawanda]

Donica...I'm right there with you on this!

[nickieluv]

I feel badly that anyone has to go through it, but it is a bit of a relief to know that crazy all-night binges have affected others, too. When I got serious about MF (sometime in February) I confessed to my husband what I used to do - how I would go to 3 or 4 fast food places just picking up all my favorites, then shovel and shovel until I couldn't eat another bite - then wait a few minutes and eat some more. And it's not past me yet - my last cheat a couple of weeks ago I did the exact same thing. There is still comfort in doing that for me. I need to find out what it's giving me and get that feeling in another way. Here's to us all finding our way through the food struggles and learning how to stop using it as a drug. Thank you both for sharing.

[DonicaB]

I feel badly that anyone has to go through it, but it is a bit of a relief to know that crazy all-night binges have affected others, too.

HA! I was going to say the same thing to Tawanda, but I wasn't quite sure how to word it. It is a relief to know others have struggled with the same thing, but then I feel bad that they had the same experiences that I did. I guess at least now I know I'm not the only one who ate that way.

Nickie, you will get past it. I'm surprised daily at how much my strength is growing. I don't think that means that I still couldn't slide right back into those all-night binges, but I do feel like something in me is changing to the point that I'm beginning to believe I can stay in control.

Thank you for letting me know.....I'm not alone!

Donica

[bikipatra]

My closest thing to a binge was having a really rough day at work and picking up an order of chili cheese fries and a piece of cheesecake on the way home. I think I did it twice. Most of my binging was booze.