The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[DonicaB]

Went to the Cardinal's game last night......they lost........again. It was so cold. I was smart enough to wear and coat but too stupid to remember gloves. My hands were freezing. I also took some blankets, but couldn't seem to keep my hands warm. The game was exciting.......NOT!!!!!!! Well, I guess if you are a METS fan......it was great. Oh well.......there's lots of season left.

On a health note........I have been having a little trouble with my right arm for several weeks now. Two years ago I discovered a lump near the top of my right arm almost at the shoulder. I went to the DR to get it checked out and they said I have a fatty tumor. He said he wouldn't mess with it unless it started to bother me.

So......lately my right arm has been hurting......mostly at night while I am sleeping. I thought it was because of all of the physical work I was doing on the FLIP house. You know.......painting and more painting, etc. Anyway, I haven't been doing that for a couple of weeks now, but last night I woke up around 4 or 4:30 from severe pain in my right elbow. It didn't matter what I did.......I couldn't get comfortable and it wouldn't stop hurting. It has felt much better most of the day, but I made an appointment with the DR anyway to get it checked out. I go on the 16th. I don't know if the fatty tumor and the pain in my elbow are related, but boy......it really did hurt.

Maybe I should have it removed. Not my elbow......the tumor I wonder how much it weighs?????

Weighed again this morning. Now I am only .5# over ticker. There might still be hope yet of actually showing a loss this week. We'll see.

[JonnaD]

I still remember having a fluid filled lump in my arm when I was probably in elementary school. It hurt like the dickens especially when they moved my arm around to x-ray it. Eventually it shrank to nothing, can't remember if there was any kind of treatment.

Hope yours shrinks, too.

[bikipatra]

I have had a fatty tumor in my right arm since I was 8. I was told the same thing-to leave it in unless it hurts. Now I am thinking it would be a great way to break my plateau.

[KeleeGrl]

Maybe I should have it removed. Not my elbow......the tumor I wonder how much it weighs?????

lol...Donica, its probably that .5! Hope it feels better soon.

[Tawanda]

Donica, sorry to read your arm is hurting. Hopefully you've gotten some relief by now...best to have it checked out. I bet it weighs 25#.

[BiggerInTexas]

I hope the pain in your arm has gone away! Let us know what the doc says!

[bikipatra]

I still remember having a fluid filled lump in my arm when I was probably in elementary school. It hurt like the dickens especially when they moved my arm around to x-ray it. Eventually it shrank to nothing, can't remember if there was any kind of treatment.

Hope yours shrinks, too.

Fatty tumors do not shrink.

[JonnaD]

Can't really remember a lot about it except the pain, but it musn't have been a fatty tumor. Anyone I could ask is gone

Donica, hope they do something to help you with the tumor, especially the pain.

[bikipatra]

Can't really remember a lot about it except the pain, but it musn't have been a fatty tumor. Anyone I could ask is gone

Donica, hope they do something to help you with the tumor, especially the pain.

Fatty tumors don't shrink when you are skinny either. Mine is the same size as when I was 117. It is just less obvious now or looks like a muscle on my forearm.

[JonnaD]

I don't understand why they do a local and remove the tumor - if it won't shrink like a fluid-filled one, what do they think will happen to make it better?

[DonicaB]

When I discovered the bump 2 years ago they did try to draw some fluid out of it.......but there wasn't any fluid in it. Some of my friends have either had one or know someone who has. They have told me that the doctors will probably just remove it if it is bothering me. Thankfully it hasn't hurt for a few days now. I've figured out that I cannot sleep on my right side. That seems to irritate it. I'm going to keep my appointment on the 16th anyway. I just feel like it needs to be checked out.

On a MF note..........I didn't weigh in this morning because I was 3 hours from home at my in-laws house. We went there for the weekend and just got home an hour or so ago. I'll weigh tomorrow and then post my loss.......well at least I hope I have a loss.

This weekend was a little difficult with all of the easter candy around and all of the food during the family meals all weekend. I really tried to stay on plan and did for most part. I have to admit that I had a couple of bites of off-plan food......but that's it.......just a few bites. I took all of my MF food with me so that I wouldn't have any excuses to go off plan. But then as a big dummy.........I left several of my RTD's at my in-laws. Fortunately, I still have some at home.

While I seem to still be doing well with sticking with it.........I've noticed that my attitude may need a little adjusting. I'm so proud that I have stayed compliant and have lost 34#, but I've been feeling a little bit like........I'm not sure I can make it all the way to my goal. Do I want to make it to my goal? Most definitely!!!!!! It just seems so far away. I think I have just been doubting myself again. I mean my track record in the past hasn't exactly been good......so, that's all I have to go on.

I think when I get around other people and I am sitting at the table during meal time when everyone else is eating starchy food and having dessert and I'm just sitting there looking like a goof........I begin to get mad at the fact that I can't have any. And then I begin to doubt myself. I try to do the self-talk thing and tell myself that nothing tastes as good as thin feels (not that I know). But sometimes I just want to tell myself to SHUT UP! Because I want to be able to eat what everyone else is eating. Whether I actually eat it is beside the point. I want to be able to......... I don't know.......I'm just talking.

I did get several compliments from family members who haven't seen my since Christmas. That made me feel GREAT!!!!!

I keep having my DH take pictures of me because I would like to put some halfway pics here as well as change my avatar, but I hate every picture that he takes. I look at it and still see a fat person. I just don't really see a big difference. You would think that after 34# I would be able to see a change, but I still see me as very fat. However, when I look in the mirror.....I do see a change........just not in photos.

I don't really mean to sound down.....because I'm not really down. I think I'm just being a little impatient.

[Tawanda]

Hi Donica, tonight is a bit rushed, but just wanted you to know I've just read your entry and you'll be on my mind. Promise me you won't go off program until I can write to you again. Promise me!!

[pinkbugs471]

Donica,

Remeber your goal, and that you are doing this for you.

I just returned from "self doubt" land. It is not a good place to be. I start to feel better. Then the doubt starts creeping in. Can I really do this? I look ok now. My family loves me regardless of what I weigh.

Can you do it? YES you can.!! I know that it is hard. Everyone here does. Remember, you can eay anything you want. However you choose not to eat some foods, because you are focused on being a healthier you.!

Hope you have a great week. Remember, we have a date on the 25th

[Tawanda]

Donica,

Well......it is hours later and nothing smart, insightful, clever, or inspiring came to me to pass on to you. I'm sorry---I thought I was going to come up with something to help you with your attitude adjustment. I guess maybe I'm not suppose to butt into what is yours to decide and figure out---and why in the world I thought *I* could help someone else out when I have a heck of a time figuring *myself* out---I just don't know.

You are over half way to your goal. You are on your way to realizing one of your dreams......of being trim, fit and healthier. You will have lots of perks and NSVs at goal (your feelings of pride, accomplishment, knowing how much you've accomplished by sticking to something that wasn't easy, quick or something that just 'anyone' else would do--because they find it too hard, too uncomfortable or just too time consuming).

I guess you need to remember your own reasons for wanting to lose the weight when you began the program.

I will be thinking of you and hope that during the night you rediscovered your reasons and have new strength and resolve.

[bikipatra]

I did get several compliments from family members who haven't seen my since Christmas. That made me feel GREAT!!!!!

I keep having my DH take pictures of me because I would like to put some halfway pics here as well as change my avatar, but I hate every picture that he takes. I look at it and still see a fat person. I just don't really see a big difference. You would think that after 34# I would be able to see a change, but I still see me as very fat. However, when I look in the mirror.....I do see a change........just not in photos.

I don't really mean to sound down.....because I'm not really down. I think I'm just being a little impatient.

Are you taking these photos in snugger clothes? That can make all the difference. Even if they feel tight, you don't have to wear them out just look cute for us and yourself! I bet you could see a real difference. Make sure you are wearing control top panty hose or foundation garments that help a little. We don't mind!