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Postby nickieluv » November 26th, 2008, 6:46 pm

Hi Robin;

Thanks for the quote you posted in my journal. I think I am dealing with some hefty issues but at least they are not so far buried anymore. That is progress, and thanks for reminding me that once upon a time I didn't even think I had issues.

My mom says she just likes food, and that's why she's overweight. I think that's an easy answer. I know, from my end, that she has probably a million reasons for being overweight and none of them has anything to do with food. I'm seeing that my reasons for overeating run deep. It's not going to be easy to dig them out. My husband suggested I go back to counseling for a bit - it's free through EAP, maybe I'll take him up on it.

Anyway, have a happy holiday, and thanks again for being a maintainer on this board and someone who proves that problems can be tackled and beaten into submission. :lol:
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Postby SuzyQ66 » November 27th, 2008, 9:53 am

Hi Robin: HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

I am so glad to hear that you are feeling better and getting back to your normal routine. My cold lasted for a week...which I am truly amazed since it usually lasts a month. I credit Zicam...never took the stuff before...but I think it really helped.

How is your shoulder holding out? Mine started hurting a day after I got a cold...very strange...don't know what happened...but that too is on the mend. I am hoping to start walking again either today or tomorrow. I walk outside and the last walk I took brought out my cold and within an hour after...it hit me so hard.

Well I hope you have a nice visit with your family. And I agree with T....maybe you will be an inspiration for your brother. If not, remember you are to us.
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Postby DogMa » December 1st, 2008, 8:55 am

Thanks, guys. My trip was good, although food is always such a challenge around my brother and his crowd. The holiday dinner itself wasn't too bad; almost everything came from Cooking Light magazine (so not REALLY healthy, but better than the regular alternatives) plus I brought my own broccoli to make sure I had some veggies. I did OK most of the rest of the weekend, but a couple of times we went to restaurants that didn't really have any good choices for me. Normally in that case I'd just special-order something specific - or get a salad and then grab something else later - but I was trying hard not to draw too much attention to my eating because they all make comments about it already, and I was trying not to get into any arguments with my brother.

Anyway, then I screwed up yesterday. First, my flight was so early that the decent restaurants at the airport were all closed, so I had no good choices (on my current plan, I need to supplement their breakfast with my own food). Then I had a protein bar on the plane, but for some reason after we landed, I thought I'd had TWO already. So I couldn't understand why I was so hungry and tried to hold out till I got home. Of course that didn't work, and I was STARVING. So yeah, I caved and went to the drive-through for the first time in three years. At least I got a SMALL combo meal. Sigh. The good news is I didn't write off the entire day because of one bad meal. I ate just the meal, then a few hours later when it was dinner time, I had my normal on-plan dinner (and then later my on-plan dessert). So hopefully the damage will be minimal.
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Postby katieb920 » December 1st, 2008, 9:28 am

Wow that is awesome. I would of caved at the airport. You have such will power. So let me ask you. How did you feel after you ate the stuff from the fast food joint. When I am on program for a long time, and then I eat greasy food my stomach gets all upset?

Good Job
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Postby DogMa » December 1st, 2008, 9:39 am

Well, I have to say that I definitely haven't lost my TASTE for it. I admit, the fries were extremely greasy but I still loved 'em. My tummy didn't get upset or anything, either, but within half an hour I was running for the bathroom.

I did have a bit of a craving afterward for chocolate, but I was pretty proud that I didn't give in and just got right back to my normal eating. I think that helped a lot. No nasty post-sugar hangover today or anything. And I'm trying to look at the positives and not beat myself up about it.

And I'm also trying to ignore what the scale said today and give myself a couple of days on my normal schedule to let the weight just drop back down again. I was up 5 pounds this morning, and I KNOW I didn't gain 5 pounds from one fast-food meal and a few small slices of sourdough bread (a couple of nights ago; hey, I was in San Francisco).
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Postby SuzyQ66 » December 1st, 2008, 1:25 pm

Hi Robin!! Glad to hear your trip went well. It's so hard when we are around so much food at the holiday. I stayed on plan...but after a few days..it was really wearing on me. I bought my kids both candy bars outside one store where kids were selling them. They are still in my purse because I forgot to give them to the kids...and they were calling me earlier today. Didn't give in though. I have been having so many thoughts of food the last couple of days and I know it's because TOM is coming soon. Oh - you mentioned chocolate cravings...before MF...when I would go out with the girls at lunch for Mexican Food...no more than 1-2 hours after...big cravings for chocolate. Big time!! I can totally relate to that...but happy to hear that you did not experience that yesterday.

I was in SF the last time I was on MF...and it was so hard to say no to the sour dough bread...but I did. Was the weather nice??
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Postby DogMa » December 1st, 2008, 4:02 pm

It was beautiful. A little chilly in San Jose, but it was actually pretty warm in The City. Usually it's the opposite.

And yep, I had some sourdough. I'm allowed on my plan, though.
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Postby katieb920 » December 3rd, 2008, 5:46 am

Whats up Girlie...

Not like you not to post.... Unless your interntet is out.

Hope everything is a ok
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Postby DogMa » December 3rd, 2008, 8:31 am

Nah, I'm here. I posted in a couple of other journals, but didn't have much to say. Weight's still up since my trip (but dropping). Running has been off, but I've walked an hour each day instead. Yesterday I had to go at a slower pace, but at least I did it. Today I did a normal walk with hills.

And today we have a guest speaker coming at lunchtime, so they're getting pizza. I brought my regular food, and tried to bring something that would smell extra good to counter the pizza smells. Sigh. Oh, and a new bbq place just opened by me. Argh.
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Postby nickieluv » December 3rd, 2008, 10:02 am

I have to say - I'm sorry you'll have some temptations, but hearing about it makes me feel a little better. What I mean is, you're a real person (I know, you always were) and not just some superhuman maintainer. Hearing about the fries was interesting, too. I'm not saying what I mean to say, it's coming out all wrong. I guess despite evidence to the contrary, I still have in my mind that everyone who maintains is somehow better than me, or fundamentally different, and never had a struggle in their lives. I know that's stupid but there it is. Knowing that you guys really were once in the same boat as me, eating poorly and not exercising and generally not taking care of yourselves....

I don't know. It's still not coming out right. I guess I just had an image of all maintainers as people who got fat through no fault of their own and magically lost the weight quickly and easily. I'll stop now. Making no sense.

On a completely different subject - last night's BL episode was definitely not satisfying. The whole Vicky-in-tears thing just made me think it was more manipulation. I don't trust a thing that she does. And the makeovers didn't seem as dramatic as the ones last season. I'm just hard to please in general I guess.

Well, time for MF meal #2.
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Postby DogMa » December 3rd, 2008, 10:11 am

No, I get what you mean. And yeah, I'm totally human and don't always make the right choices. The old me (the one who ate crap and never worked out and weighed 200 pounds) is still inside there, at least to some degree. I just don't let her out very often. :) Believe me, I'm as amazed as anyone when someone says they don't enjoy those "bad" foods anymore. Things like pizza and fries have more of a tendency to upset my stomach now than they did before, but I still love 'em. I don't think that's ever going to change.

The pizza's going to be especially rough, because I can't even distance myself from it. I'll be sitting in the same room with the pizza (and the people eating it) for at least an hour. Sigh. But I figure I'll have my own meal AND people will notice if I give in and take any pizza, which will probably help keep me from doing it. And since normally I'm fine when the temptation is right there and instead struggle AFTERward, I'm going to make sure I have my snack and maybe some sf cocoa this afternoon, and pick one of my favorite dinners and desserts tonight.

And I feel the same about Biggest Loser. She was totally getting the "redemption edit," as one recapper said. I'm not buying it, though. She's a witch and a mean-spirited, ugly (on the inside) person. And I hope her kids never see this show, for their sake. (And yeah, I found the makeovers underwhelming. It seems like the people haven't lost as much weight as they did in previous seasons, but I'm not sure. Plus Renee and Michelle were already gorgeous, so they didn't really NEED makeovers.)
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Postby DutchChoc » December 3rd, 2008, 7:50 pm

Well, I have a bad story about pizza and maybe it will help you to hear it.

At work, I got into the habit early this year of seeking pleasure in my lunch with a personal pizza almost every day, pretty much like clockwork. Over the course of the year, while it did grant me some escapism for a few moments, it added 20 pounds, no kidding. A kind of super-sizing pizza experiment is what 2008 was for me.
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Postby DogMa » December 4th, 2008, 9:04 am

Thanks for the story, although I didn't see it till this morning, long after the pizza. Which I didn't eat, of course. I've gotten very used to avoiding foods like that at this point. And what I love about this office is two other people were in the meeting with THEIR low-cal food, too. (And frankly, mine looked way better and more substantial. Hmph.)

Weight's still up, though. I'm at 128.4 and I have no idea why. OTOH, I had tighten my belt to the next hole - but maybe the leather just stretched a little.

No workout this morning. I get an extra day off this week because I have two workouts on Saturday - my regular one plus a 5K I'm "wogging" with a friend.
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Postby nickieluv » December 4th, 2008, 10:12 am

DogMa wrote:OTOH, I had tighten my belt to the next hole - but maybe the leather just stretched a little.


Maybe it did stretch, but maybe you are falling into the trap of negating your accomplishments? Enjoy the victories where they happen.

Good job with the pizza and I liked how you were gloating over your diet food. :lol: Isn't it funny how we all do comparisons like that automatically?
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Postby nickieluv » December 4th, 2008, 12:56 pm

This is going back a bit, but

DogMa wrote:I found the makeovers underwhelming. It seems like the people haven't lost as much weight as they did in previous seasons, but I'm not sure.


I think it might be true that they haven't lost as much weight. I think early on either Bob or Jillian, or both, mentioned that this crew was not putting in the effort of people in past seasons. I suppose it's hard to get just the right kind of person season after season - and you have to wonder how many deserving hard workers didn't get on just because they didn't have the potential to be hotties at the end. Let's face it, not every fat person who loses weight becomes gorgeous. (Everyone on this board is of course excluded from that comment!!!! Our studio is full of pretty people of all sizes.) Or maybe they chose some people just for the drama factor - I haven't seen the application to be on the show but since they do medical testing, why wouldn't they do psychological testing as well to guarantee good television (i.e. conflict)?
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